Time and time again we fall into the depths of who we are
But you cant keep running away from what youre trying to find
Well I've seen you and those things you do
And the way you hide
That shadow can't be good for you
Your dark defines your light
-Time and time again -Chronic Future
"This can all just go away if you do three things for me." Damon said while scooting right next to me. I came to the Grill to get out of my house and get out of my head when of course, Mr. Problem himself appeared. I should have known the only place in town with alcohol would be the only place in town Damon likes to spend his time.
"I'm not doing anything for you." I said while acting like him just inviting himself to my table and taking the seat next to me instead of across from me, didn't bother me. When in reality I just wanted to hide from him. I was still extraordinarily embarrassed by this whole ordeal and of course Damon would never let it go.
"I think you will. To say the least I'm threatening to blackmail you."
"You don't threaten to blackmail, you just blackmail."
"It's all the same to me." He said while rolling his eyes. "But back to the point. I want you to do three things for me and then I'll give you this back." He pulled out the crinkled piece of paper. I already knew what it was and I wasn't prepared to call his bluff for the whole blackmail thing.
"One thing."
"Three." He said still persistent on it.
"Two."
"Deal." He said while holding out his hand. We shook on it and I realized I might as well have just signed my soul over to the devil.
"Okay, what do you want from me?" He finally moved over to the opposite side of the booth and folded his hands in front of him in a very proper way. His eyes showed he was clearly amused but he was trying to be serious. "Let me guess you are going to say something like 'I'll let this go if you kiss me' or something like that."
"Actually, no." He said, taken completely off guard. "But now that you've brought that to my attention..."
"No." I said shooting down the idea before he could think it through.
"I like it. And obviously you thought about it so you must kind of like it as well." He gave me a mischievous grin and all I could think was how I kept inserting my foot directly into my mouth. I should just learn to keep it closed. "Okay, so clearly that is going to be one of the things you have to do and then-"
"Damon." I whined while cutting him off. This wasn't fair.
"Just hold on, what I want from you isn't that bad." I watched him unfold the piece of paper and hand it over to me. "I want you to say exactly what you wrote to me."
"What?" The only reason why he wanted me to do this was because it was completely demeaning to me. Damon was never supposed to read those words, let alone hear them. "Don't make me do this."
"I am tired of you giving me those puppy dog eyes and expecting me to just go mush under them."
"Are you saying their hard to resist?"
"Very. But it's different this time. I want something simple. I do everything I possibly can for you, you can do this one little thing."
"Now who is the one playing the guilt trip." I sighed while grabbing the paper, already accepting it. "Fine, lets get this over with." I scanned the paper and found exactly what Damon wanted me to say and I felt my stomach flip a couple of times. These were my words and my feelings, so why was I so hesitant to repeat them? The information was already out there. Maybe it made it more real, more emotionally attached then I thought just a few words had. I glanced up at Damon to see a small smile and a look of anticipation on his face. It was actually kind of cute. "I'm renegotiating."
"What?" He said clearly disappointed those were the words coming out of my mouth instead of the ones he's been waiting for.
"I want one thing as well."
"That's not part of the deal."
"It is now. I'll agree to kiss you. For your second thing I'll kiss you, only if I can have you do one thing for me."
"Okay." He said quickly. I could see it in his eyes the moment I said I'd kiss him, he would agree to anything I wanted. "What is it?"
"I'll tell you when I'm done." I held out the paper and cleared my throat, only a little over dramatic. "The reason why I am fond of you is because you are the most passionate person I know. I honestly mean that Damon." I said, not caring if that wasn't exactly what I was supposed to be saying. "It's true that your eyes reflect all your knowledge and especially your pain. It's also true that you try your hardest to mask it but I'm on to you. It's actually kind of tragic."
"This wasn't what I was expecting or wanted." He said while obviously being slightly annoyed.
"Just shut up." I said only half joking. "You know how special you are, I don't think you need to be told twice, but you are. And you do act like you're the shit when we both know that when no one is looking you're actually pretty annoyed with yourself. Even when you think no one notices, I do. It is inspiring that you that you know every little detail about yourself, every little flaw and perfect feature..." I gave a small smile after that. "But you still don't care. I can't help the smile that appears on my face whenever you are around, especially when I just want to slap you, it's crazy, really." I acted like this was the last thing I was going to say, hoping he wouldn't make me finish it.
"Go on." He said clearly not letting me slip.
"I'd be lying if I said I didn't love you." That was it. That was the point where this silly little game between us got way more real. It was too much. It didn't fit but was so simple. It shouldn't be so simple to tell him that I love him, even if it wasn't intended to be in a romantic way. When I wrote the words I intended them to be more like a friendship love. The way I love Matt. But now... "Is it getting hot in here?" I said while fanning myself which made him start to laugh at me.
"Now was that so hard?" He said completely ignoring the sudden shift in mood.
"Not really." I said ignoring the weird feeling in the put of my stomach. I pushed it down and pretended the feeling didn't exist. "My turn."
"What could you possibly want from me?"
"Same thing." His eyes narrowed and I couldn't help but laugh. "I mean, you should have seen this coming."
"Okay, as long as I get my second thing. What exactly do you want me to say?"
"Just what you would have put concerning me on that stupid website." I sat back, ready to listen to him, but nothing came out of his mouth. What if he had nothing to say?
"I would say...The reason why I like Elena is because..." He gave me a pointed look and stressed the word like, that he was actually able to say instead of taking the cheap way out. "She's stronger than your average girl, it's almost scary. She doesn't put up with my shit and when she talks I actually listen. She thinks she is right always, even when she is wrong. And even though most of the stuff she does drives me crazy I can't help but think how cute it is when she annoys me. She stands up for what she believes in and puts everyone before herself. That is why I love Elena Gilbert. And I'm not afraid to say it anymore." Damon was never supposed to be so vocal. He was supposed to skim around the subject and charm his way out of it. He was supposed to say something to make me laugh. But I was far from laughing, the feeling in my stomach rose to my throat and I got the stuffy feeling that usually only comes when fighting back tears. I wasn't going to cry but I felt like I couldn't breath.
"Well this was fun but Stefan's coming over to my house in an hour so I should leave." I quickly grabbed my stuff and almost bolted out of the Grill before Damon saw I was trying to escape.
"Wait a minute." I only got my hand to graze against the door handle before Damon caught up to me and took a hold of my hand while pulling me to him. I almost collided into his chest but he pushed me back so I was leaning against the wall and we were practically chest to chest. The only thing I was actually mad about was the fact he actually had an affect on me. Why does he have to do things that are so hot like that? I mean who hasn't wanted the super hot guy to catch you before you run away and pin you against the wall in the sexiest way possible? "You didn't finish half of our deal." I gulped at his words but didn't have time to retaliate before his perfect smooth lips were placed on mine. I tried to keep from wobbling when all of a sudden everything got blurry and the outside world didn't matter. The moment he broke the kiss I nearly gasped. My hand immediately went to my lips while I looked at him with wide eyes. "We are even now." I could feel him slip something in my pocket and then he gracefully went out the Grill door leaving me there.
I blinked a couple of times, trying to comprehend what just happened. I kissed Damon. In a public place where I know people. People who know Stefan. But somehow that didn't matter. The only thing I could actually concentrate on was how to make my body not feel like jello and actually move. I can't believe how much that single moment just changed everything.
AN: Aha thanks for all your nice reviews. I think I'm adding one more chapter and then this little fic will be done.
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