Author's Note: I fell asleep which sucks because now I'm screwed tomorrow morning when I have to wake up at the butt crack of dawn for school. Yeah...fun. So that's why my updates are later than normal!
I was pissed at Soubi. At some point he moved from the bed to the couch. I was going to hit him while he was asleep and he wouldn't be able to stop me. I was about to get up when I realized why he left. I was tangled in the blankets and sprawled out everywhere. I'd had another nightmare. I was sweating and my cheeks were wet so I was crying at some point. I was glad I never remember much about these nightmares, just that they were about Semei or Soubi.
I stuck my head under freezing water in the sink. I thought back to the time when my mom did that except she held me under and hoped I didn't come back up. Soubi saved me then too. I could hear him getting up to investigate what I was doing. I needed the feeling of pain to wake me up. Not enough to hurt me, but enough to shock me. I hated cold water. I could never get used to it.
I stood up and looked at Soubi. I was dripping all of the place, but I didn't care. I looked in the mirror. What would I look like without these ears? What would everyone think of me? Right now I looked like a drowned cat. I looked at the fresh cuts where my nails dug into my palms. They stung. I turned the water on full blast and put them under.
Soubi watched me from the doorway. He walked in and grabbed the first aid kit. He wrapped my hands up without saying anything. When he was done he stayed closed to me. "I'll make breakfast." He kissed my cheek, light and soft. I wasn't sure what it meant. He usually didn't do things like that though.
Youji and Natsuo finally made their appearance after being gone a couple days. They stopped by when they wanted to and crowded the bed most of the time. I liked them being here though. When I had a nightmare I could feel Youji playing with my hair or Natsuo squeezing the life out of me. It was comforting. It was something Soubi never did because at night sometimes he was gone or too exhausted to sleep. Sometimes he would wake up when I screamed and get me back to sleep.
Soubi was getting ready to go to work. I stood my on toes and kissed him. Then I ran away. He stared at me before he left. I was going to win him over.
