Alexx." he moaned.
He pumped in and out of her. He'd been waiting so long for this moment and it was finally here.
"I love you Alexx." She was being strangely silent the whole time.
He pumped harder and harder until she started screaming his name.
He wrapped his hand on her tiny waist and squeezed.
That was when he realized that the screams were not of pleasure but more like... Terror.
His eyes popped open and he woke to her yelling his name.
"What happened?"
"You slipped and hit your head on the table. Jesus Christ I was so scared. You got Jamie over here screaming." She said picking up the now eleven month old baby soothing her.
"Oh." He said. So that wasn't real.
Alexx placed Jamie in her high chair.
"Time to eat my little one. Let's not throw food today please?" she said.
She placed the bowl of food down and turned to Horatio.
"Sweetie go lay down. I'm pretty sure you don't have a concussion. Maybe a mild one. You know where that Tylenol is." She said turning and finding Jamie poised and ready with a fistful of food.
"Jamie, NO!" Alexx said.
She and the baby sat in an eye battle and Jamie smiled throwing the food anyway. Then she threw the bowl which Alexx ducked in the nick of time.
Alexx threw her head back and laughed.
"Jamie, if your daddy was alive he'd have so much fun with this." She said.
Horatio chuckled and then took he and his pounding head to bed.
He woke up finding her lying next to him. He hadn't realized he was in her bed.
"Alexx?"
She groaned.
"Alexx?"
She swatted his leg and mumbled.
"Alexx?" he tried again.
"What?" she said turning around.
There was a tired frown on her face that marred her features.
"I'm going to go to my room okay?"
"No. Just stay here. It's comfortable." She said turning back around putting his arm around her waist and her head under his chin.
The smell of her coconut and jasmine shampoo filled his nose.
He wanted to stay but for all the wrong reasons and he was dangerously close to showing her those reasons. He felt himself swell and winced when she moved ever so slightly.
"Alexx." He said through gritted teeth.
She moved again telling him to shut up.
He grabbed her hips and pushed forward almost moaning out right then and there. And then she pushed back on him. That did it he turned her over and kissed her. He pulled her panties off and was right there.
"Horatio?" she said.
She was still asleep.
"Damn it!" he said.
She sat up and took account of the situation very fast.
"What happened?"
"Nothing I'm going out."
"Horatio?"
"Alexx..." he sighed.
"We almost had sex."
"Yeah."
"Why'd you stop?"
"You were half sleep and you don't like me like that Alexx."
"You like me?" she asked.
Her voice was higher; her Queens accent more profound.
"Not like Alexx Love. I love you. I've loved you since I first laid eyes on you. I'm in love with you Alexx Malina Woods and I wont ever stop." He said.
She didn't say anything and he got up and left ignoring the calls of his name behind him.
She called the first person she could.
Timothy "Speed" Speedle answered the phone.
"What?"
"Timmy?"
"Alexx whats wrong?"
"Horatio just told me he loves me."
Tim sighed as he knew this day would come as soon as Horatio said he was moving in with her. He knew Alexx and Horatio shared a closer bond than anyone he ever knew. He also knew that Alexx loved Horatio but in a friend way a best friend way so how confusing would it be for you to lose your husband, have your best friend move in with you and then a year later, tell you he loves you?
"You knew didn't you?" she asked.
"Yea you were the only person that didn't catch on right away Alexx. You were so into Henry." He said.
He heard her sobbing through the phone.
"Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm so confused Timmy. I love him too but I'm scared."
"Scared to forget?"
"Yea."
"It's okay to feel that way Alexx but you gotta learn to move on I'm sure Henry would want that." He said.
"Okay." She said hanging up.
She knew what she had to do.
