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Roy hadn't slept a wink after Edward had left. He felt like he had been rolling on some barbed wire fences. His skin was tingling with pain now and his muscles felt sore. He still didn't want to believe it, but as he had been lying there he had time to think about it. He didn't really want to be ungrateful for being alive.
He had been looked through by doctor and he had been forced to face the reality finally. It still felt like it was a bad dream.
How could he Roy Mustang, Colonel and Ladies favorite suddenly be a woman.
He had a big problem. While he knew how to twist any lady around his little finger he had no clue how should he act when he was one himself. It was absurd.
It made his mind spin like a whirlwind on an open field.
He just couldn't get over it.
Woman.
Boobs.
He really wished Riza would be here now. She would have told him to just suck it and kicked his ass to next day so that he could have gotten over it. She could have helped him to see what he could do with his new features and how it wasn't inconvenience to be woman.
But she wouldn't.
She wasn't here anymore, that was something Roy had to remind himself of. He missed her already. It pained his heart so much it felt physical. He hadn't been able to protect Riza. He knew he had let her down.
Could she ever forgive him, where ever she was now…?
Roy had taken account of what had changed. He could tell he was smaller now, as in height and weight. He had a smaller frame. He had always loved women with curves and now he himself had fair share of them. He supposed he would need bra, or face the consequences of not having them; back pains.
Roy felt like his butt was now gigantic along with his hips. It just was so unfair; he didn't want to see himself from a mirror.
He felt fucked up.
And while Edward had fucked him up with his transmutation, Roy couldn't bring himself to hate him. Roy had always loved Edward, they had even been together before the war started and ripped them away from each other. Remembering it was kind of painful, those days were gone and he wasn't sure he would want to be with anyone anymore. Still he remembered how he had let Edward in his apartment and to his life.
-Flash back start-
It was a nice sunshine filled morning. Central city was buzzing with action as people went through their daily routines. Roy was sitting on a café at outside table watching people go by. It was somewhat overwhelming that there were so many different people on the streets today. It was entertaining to watch as he knew he could never really get onto life like that, never. It was also saddening in its own way; not able to go to that world that was having a family and being able to be with them without fear of someone targeting them because of him.
He sipped his coffee and sighed softly, he should probably go already.
-What for you are looking so depressed Colonel Bastard? Edward asked and sat down opposite to him. He looked like he had been filled with sunshine all the way to his core.
-I am no depressed. Roy says and looks away from Ed. Edward was like a sun itself while he was a shadow. It was in times like this when Roy felt the darkness tightening its hold on his soul and trying to slowly tug it under, make it fall down in it. Somehow the contrast Edward brought in his life just made it harder to deal with.
-You are. You are jealous for not being like them aren't you? Edward asked and Roy looked at him with wide eyes, not even Hughes had noticed it, so how could this youngster? Well Edward was a genius.
-Maybe. Roy says and narrows his eyes at Edward. Had Edward watched him more than what he had tough then?
-You are. I am too. Edward says and looks at Roy as if he was planning something. Roy wanted to get out of the situation before Edward could use this momentarily lapse of his judgment to his advantage.
-I need to go now, nice to see you Fullmetal. Roy says and gets up to leave, turning around as soon as he was on his feet.
-I will come with you. Edward says and smiles like he has found a hidden treasure. maybe he had found one; Roy's heart.
-I… Well alright then, come if you really want to. Roy says and looks at Ed, feeling genuine smile to tug on corners of his lips. He looked at Edward and saw he wasn't going to back out from this, so Roy started to walk towards his home with smaller alchemist at his side. He loved how Edward seemed to have trouble at matching his steps, as much as the younger one tried the funnier it seemed. Finally Edward seemed to decide he wouldn't die on not walking with as long strides as Roy and gave up on trying. After a not too long walk they came to big apartment building, it was nothing fancy; Roy had no need for anything but necessities.
-That looks… crappy place. Edward said and looked at the building, it's paint was chipping and overall it looked old.
-It suits me fine; if it bothers you go away. Roy says and looks at Edward challenging him. It had everything to do with him not really wanting Ed to come there, it was just too intimate. Only Maes had ever seen his apartment, and that had been a while ago too, now it was just untidy again.
-It doesn't bother me. Edward says and looks at Roy. The old apartment building seemed kind of fitting for the colonel. In a way Edward could see why it was this building Roy had chosen to get apartment from. It was slightly isolated from other apartment buildings, it had parking space around it and few buildings next to it had been demolished. On other side of it there was a central park; it meant there were no high places to sniper from.
Roy let Edward in the building and started to climb up the stairs. Edward looked around as he walked up the stairs behind Roy. It looked like the walls had been painted recently; they were nice shade of cream and the wooden rails on walls added hint of luxury as well as a support, if you didn't feel well. When they got to 5 floor Roy went to door and took a key from his pocket unlocking the door. He let Edward in first.
Edward wasn't shocked to see how unkempt the place looked. There was sand at the floor next to door they came in, Edward took of his shoes as Roy did same and set them on shoe rack next to door. Roy closed the door and locked it, feeling tired suddenly, bringing Edward here hadn't been a good idea. He didn't want the younger one see how weak he was. How lonely he was always.
Edward didn't wait for Roy to show him around. He looked in the small kitchen it didn't take too long that he had noticed there was just coffee and some breakfast ingredients. Not that Ed had thought Roy would have anything here, it seemed like man still hadn't unpacked his stuff after 6 months stay. As he looked more around the apartment he noticed there was nothing that would link Roy to this place. If Roy left no one would guess he had been habiting the place.
-Don't you have any personal things here? Edward asked and looked at Roy, who had gone to living room and was sitting on a simple sofa; it wasn't anything Edward had ever imagined Roy would have.
-I have. Roy says and looks at Edward, seemingly unsure what to say, other that. He had things he liked here, they were in the boxes. There weren't that many boxes either.
Edward had always thought the bastard colonel would have big house, or at least super big apartment. Never would have he dreamed man would live in apartment small as this, hell he had bigger and nicer apartment!
-I never suspected you would live in apartment like this. Edward says truthfully. He found suddenly himself more and more interested in Mustang. He seemed so human in this apartment.
-I don't have time for bigger one. Roy says suddenly and looks at Edward, and while Edward could have bought it as truth… he had his suspicions about it.
-You could always hire a maid. She would probably clean for you happily. Edward says and sits next to Roy. It felt almost like they were friends. He knew Roy didn't let just anyone in his apartment. Even Riza hadn't been there.
-I don't trust them. Roy says and Edward looks at him, trying to see under all the masks he knew the man must be keeping up. It was like guessing game; it made him more curious. "Why Mustang didn't trust them?" Edward wondered and sighed softly gazing in the midnight blue eyes of his commanding officer.
Edward could see a lot of things in them. They say eyes are a mirror to their owner's soul. He leaned closer to Mustang his heart was racing. Breathing deeply this close to Mustang, Ed had to notice vanilla scent. He couldn't get his head around the fact it seemed the man was wearing a scent that smelled vanilla before Mustang had leaned closer to him and pulled Edward in a breathtaking kiss. Edward was more than happy to go with it and in few more moments it turned more and more passionate, Edward was on Roy's lap and they were moving against each other.
Edward woke up from next to Mustang. He felt great, although he never would have dreamed this would happen. He didn't want to wake the man up, so he was content to just watch him sleep here. Sleep seemed to erase all the lines and masks from his face, it made him look almost naïve.
Edward had to admit he admired Mustangs body; it was lean, muscular and tall. He had handsome face and silky coal black hair. Even now he smelled nice; vanilla scent hadn't disappeared like Ed thought it would.
Edward decided he would kick Mustangs world upside down, so that they both could be happy, it was for the better.
-Flash back ends-
Roy had been given some more fitting clothes and washing stuff, so he finally could go and get himself cleaned. Hughes helped him to secure a place where he could wash himself without anyone seeing; it was bad enough to be a woman, he didn't need to get raped by some soldier.
As Roy washed himself he became more and more aware of his body. He could already pretty well estimate how big space he took up. He was clean and he had clothes that would fit better. It would make a big impact on how he felt.
But it didn't. He still felt like he didn't know everything, Hughes looked like he kept something from him.
Riza's fate still bothered him. He felt like he hadn't done everything he could to save her. In a way he still felt like Riza was there next to him or behind his back.
It could be that it was some feminine scent he had now that made him feel like she was there. He had to look back at times just to make sure Riza wasn't there… Even if he remembered she was dead; nothing would save you if you had a metal shard through your head.
He dressed himself and combed his hair, there was just a small hand mirror, it was hard to see clearly anything else than his face from it, so he gave up on trying to see how he looked over all. He supposed he looked fine enough, now that he was clean; he just felt like shit emotionally.
Roy had noticed how all the other soldiers were looking at him, and he felt scared. He never had been afraid about having someone try and rape him, but in this body he was vulnerable. He had his flame alchemy, but he couldn't use it on them; if he did, they would know who he was and he would be headed in the labs before he could say Roy mustang. So he opted for staying close to Hughes.
Hughes acted like he hadn't changed at all. It felt nice. He ate with Hughes, trying not to care how much he got looks from others. He and Hughes spend the day together, doing smaller things at the camp, to earn their keep. There was no way he would sleep if he didn't have Hughes with him. Or Edward at least younger alchemist was strong and talented; Roy wouldn't need to be stressed about not being safe there. It was slowly starting to get dark and Roy was worried Edward wouldn't come soon enough so that they could make sleeping arrangements.
Roy actually wanted to sleep with Edward, knowing he would hold him like nothing had changed. Edward was just that kind of person.
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