EPOV
Why! God Why he had to make me give her my number!
I woke up with my phone ringing this morning. Since I'm had the graveyard previous day I wanted to sleep but of course she didn't let me.
Last week we were drinking with friends and Emmet, being the big child that he is decided that we should play truth or dare. And I made a mistake by taking a dare from him. I didn't think he could be so evil and dare me to give the girl, who practically stalked me since two months, my phone number. Since then my phone was constantly ringing. Okay not constantly but you get what I mean. Ugh! She started calling again and I knew I had to answer or she was going to call every five minutes till I answer it.
"Hello." I said in a monotone voice.
"Hi Edieee! Where are you?" She shrieked.
The nerve of the girl! If t wasn't enough for her to call me everyday she had the nerve to act like my girlfriend.
"Tanya, what do you want? I'm in a hurry." Well I'm in a hurry to finish this conversation with you anyway.
"Oh my poor Eddie-pooo. They make you work so hard. May be I could come and make you feel better? You know relieving some tension and all?" Eddie-poo? Really? How old are we, five? And the innuendos... Let me tell you when a attractive girl makes innuendos it's enjoyable. When your stalker makes innuendos its.. Well stalkerish and just wrong. It makes me feel dirty. Em says its my inside female speaking when I turn down a offer but whatever I don't need to fuck a girl to make me feel manly. I got used to their teasing, it doesn't matter now. I know my family loves me and they would support every decision I make. It's just they also love to tease me for my sex-life or lack there of.
"Eddiee are you there?" Oh I forgot the telethabi there for a minute. And what a blissful minute it was..
"Yes I'm here. And no I don't want you to do anything for me. What was the reason of your calling?" I was getting irritated, but I raised to be a gentleman. It was just difficult to remain a gentleman when a girl doesn't get the hint.
"Oh I wanted to make sure you were available for this weekend. I have a surprise for you baby. " My God why me? Why!
"No I'm not available this weekend. " I said, trying not to yell at her or pull my hair in frustration.
"Why? What's more important then me Eddie?" She cried. Oh my god her voice gives me headache.
I should have said pigs are more important then her. I should have said that watching a game 1000th time is more important then her. Hell even doing nothing is more important then her but I didn't want her to shriek on my ear so I shut my mouth and made no comments about it.
"Tanya I don't know what is in your mind but let me tell you something. You and I aren't together and we won't be together in the future so why are you acting like we are?" I was really curious now because well really who wants to be turned down every day. Maybe she gets off from this shit?
"Oh Eddie I know you. You gave me your number right? If you didn't want me to call you then why would you do it hmm?" She is not going to quit is she. May be I could bribe Rose to come to the hospital and act like my girlfriend then she could think that I'm taken and leave me alone? May be you could just find a real girlfriend you idiot!
"Tanya I have to go. I have tons of things to do and I don't want to sound like a jerk but please don't call me unless it's business related." I didn't wait for her response. It was rude but she was rude to me as well.
Some guys could find this flattering, I find it simple disrespectful. She doesn't respect me, she doesn't listen the things I'm saying and it's always same with the girls in nowadays. If she was more respectful and intelligent I would have thought pursuing a relationship with her...May be...May be not... It isn't that she is ugly or anything she just doesn't do it for me. I want a girl who is intelligent and funny and beautiful and... Well my kind of girl doesn't exist.
A brown haired girl came to my mind and I had to shake my head to clear the images of Isabella out of my mind. She may be attractive, and beautiful but I'm sure she is shallow as the other girls. She didn't even said hi to me. Well you didn't said hi to her either! You were so busy with checking her out. It was a first for me thought, I really never paid attention to women. Due to all the teasing about me being gay. But I don't like dick, I like pussy. Well it's not that I would know but I'm sure I would like pussy. Oh God what I'm saying of course I like pussy. May be it's really the time for me to find a women. A women who has brown hair and brown eyes. Edward snap out of it!
How come I didn't forget her? It has been nearly three months since I've seen her. Hmm let me see, she and Alice came for a visit in December, now its early March so yeah three months. So why I can't stop thinking about her? Sure I can go on my everyday routine but then something happens and bang! She is there, in my mind again.
I have no experiences with girls. I was this awkward teenager when I was in high school. And when I went to collage, I had better things in my mind then fooling around with girls. Sometimes I went on dates just to please my mother and make my brother shut. There was even a time when I made it to second date with a girl named Gianna but when she shoved her tongue into my throat I just told her there was no sparks. She laughed at me of course and told to go fuck myself because no one would do it if I act like a scared little girl. It was the end of dating scene for me. I have dignity and I don't appreciate people making me feel bad about myself. But there was this thing about Isabella, I couldn't get her out of my mind. May be she would be there this weekend and I would speak to her and then kiss her then.. Ugh! She is not interested in you, you idiot! You are just Alice's cousin and Em's li'l brother and there is no use to put yourself out there just to get your heart crushed! She deserves better then you. All the girls who are interested in you are shallow sluts so there is no way for her to find you interesting in all your geeky shit! I was arguing with myself over this subject for months now.
"Edward, are you awake?" Esme asked as he knocked on my door. I'm 22 years old, and I live with my parents. Talk about pathetic.
"Yes Mom." I said and went to open the door. I was thankful for her to put a stop on my mental ranting.
"I'm going to town sweetheart. Would you like me to prepare something for you before I go?" Oh one of the perks of living with your parents is meals. Breakfast, lunch, dinner... I came to appreciate those things when I was in college and lived on fast food for 4 years.
"It would be great Mom." I went to take a shower while she was preparing my breakfast. When I went to kitchen Esme was waiting for me.
"Why were you shouting this morning Edward?" she asked eyeing me suspiciously.
"It's nothing Mom. Tanya called. Again. I was just trying to make a point that I was not interested." I said.
"Well Edward may be you could find a girl and put yourself out of your misery." Her eyes were shining and if I didn't know better I would thought that she was making fun of me.
"There is not a girl for me out there Mom. The girls who could live up to my standards are out of my league. But it doesn't matter, I have no desire to start a relationship." I said without thinking. Fuck! Way to make her more suspicious. She is just going to think that I have someone in mind. Which I have, but it's not the point.
"Edward, I know a girl who could live up to your standards and she is not out of your league. In that case I'm sure she is a little interested in you. But if you're sure you don't want to start a relationship then it's fine. I just want you to be happy Edward." I wanted to ask who she was but I was afraid she would say some of her brunch-buddies daughter. Those women eyed me every time I meet my mom on her brunch-club. I was squirming in my seat.
"Anyone I know?" I asked trying to be sound nonchalant while I was dying inside.
"Oh I'm sure you saw her but there is no point talking about her when you want nothing to do with her. " Oh if it's Isabella I could find many things to do with her or her.
"Mom!" I said slightly angered now. I didn't want to seem eager but I wanted to know if the girl was Isabella or not. Why are you curious? It isn't like you are interested in her. If it was her, so what? What would you do? You are in Forks she is in Seattle and didn't you said that you thought she was shallow? Well, she couldn't be that bad if she is friends with Alice.
"Edward, are you listening?" I forgot about my surroundings again while thinking about her. Some day it will happen while I was at work and I'll diagnose someone with cancer when they have only flu.
"Sorry Mom. What were you saying?"
"Honey, I think you should go and sleep some more. We will leave at 7 in the evening and you will not get any sleep once we are in Seattle with Alice being there. We could speak later."
The idea was appealing so I finished my breakfast, thanked mom and went to my room to take a nap. But it was difficult when I had so much in my mind. I wondered if I could be able to see Isabella when I was in Seattle, I wondered if she could talk to me and more importantly I wondered what was happening to me since the day I met her. I drifted to a slumber with those thoughts in mind. Every one of them were about Isabella. So there is no use to tell that I had dreamed about her as well. When I woke up in the evening I had a serious problem in my pants and even more serious problem in my mind. The dream was so real. I could still taste her on my lips, feel her hands on my skin but what frightened me was that I was in love with her in my dream. And it felt right. So right...
