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Jacobs's decision
BPOV (Bella)
I hated to say it or even think it but I despised this thing that was growing inside of me. I tried so hard to put on a brave face for Jake but knew he could see right though me and after I called out Edwards name at the hospital he had become so distant the past few days- not that I could blame him. I just don't understand how this could have happened, we were always so careful. Always, but it was just one time, one time.
I wrapped the blanket even tighter around me, as it started to get even colder outside and began to cry silently into my arm. It felt like that's all ever seemed to do since I found out I was pregnant. Charlie strangely enough accepted the news nearly rage free, although he did insist that I move back home, not that it wasn't me that gave him the idea to begin with.
"I am so sorry dad, we should have been more careful. Maybe its best if I move back home"
I said through tearful eyes.
"Yes, I think that would be best Bella"
He replied still stunned.
It had been that easy, and Jacob didn't protest either. Although he has been distant from me he's also been very supportive giving me space and allowing me to decide what I want to do. I knew exactly what I wanted to do but I just didn't no how to tell him.
This decision was mad a lot easier by the fact that school was now on mid break, I don't think I could have faced everyone, even though I m guessing they all know. The endless phones calls from Angela and Jessica was sort of a give away.
I finally decided to go inside when I heard the phone ring. I got up whipping away the tears from my red raw eyes.
"Hello... Hello?"
I slammed the phone down annoyed, that was the second prank call this week. What the hell was going on? The first thing that suddenly came to my mind was Victoria. I quickly ran and locked the front door, then instantly feeling stupid afterwards. If it was Victoria I doubt very much she would call first.
The phone ran again and this time it made me jump.
"Hello?"
"Hi Bella"
"Jacob, hi"
"Is everything ok you sound weird?"
I suddenly heard the panic in his voice.
"Yes Jake I m fine"
"Oh well that's good. Erm… Bella, I was wondering if maybe you had erm…decided what you wanted to do about the baby. I mean I no I haven't given you much time and I don't want you to think that I m pressuring you or anything it's just that your nine weeks already and soon we wont have a lot of options not that I m saying you should you know…
"Jake would you like to come over so we can talk"
"Ok. Give me five minutes"
And he hung up. I could hear the relief in his voice when I invited him over. I wasn't quite sure what I was going to say when he got here but if we were really going to decide this now I'd rather it face to face. As soon as I walked into the kitchen to get a glass of water Jacob was at the back door. He looked great as always in his shorts and bear feet but I could see in his eyes her was really nervous and he could clearly seem from mine that id been crying.
"Hi"
He said with a weak smile as I let him in. I smiled back then lead the way to the front room. It was quite for a while as neither one of us knew how to begin. I looked up at the clock on the wall. Two-fifteen, still hours before Charlie got home. I looked down at my hand awkwardly then back at Jacob, I could tell by his expression he was trying to figure out how to say some something.
"Bella, I've been thinking. I know this is a big thing for us right now and I know I have been distant but it's only because I wanted to make sure I was doing the right thing and well…
Suddenly the phone rang, I breathed a silent sigh of relief I wasn't quite sure where Jacob was going with this but I didn't really like the sound of it. I quickly got up to answer the phone leaving Jacob with his thoughts.
"Hello?"
"Hi, can I speak to Charlie Swan please?"
The girl on the other end of the line had a strange foreign accent and sounded anxious.
"Sorry no he's not hear right now. Can I take a message?"
"No, that's ok"
And she hung up. That was very strange; I put down the phone and went back through to Jacob.
"Sorry Jake, what were you saying?"
"Bella… I…I want to us to keep the baby"
Jacobs's words hit me harder than anything I ever felt. I couldn't believe what I was hearing; he actually wanted us to start a family. A family with a guy that I wasn't even in love with and a baby that I hated.
