Weeks went on and Ava sent her mom every little thing she could find out and in the end it was nothing that could help her. The insults were growing worse and Ava was turning to sex more and more. She had slept with every son, Jax included, except for Clay, Opie, and Piney.
Everyone else was fair game. She wasn't her usual happy self and had gone into deep depression. When she wasn't at the clubhouse she was at the golf course at the country club pretending everything was alright when it wasn't.
'Wortless'
'Can't you fucking get me anything better than this'
'Is that all you know how to do is suck and fuck your way around'
'Your pussy must be worthless because you haven't gotten me shit'
'I will never love you and I should have just aborted you in the first place'
That was all she heard for weeks and months from her mom. Though in the club alot of things happened. First Bobby was arrested, then Opie's wife Donna was killed at Abel's homecoming party.
A few weeks later Opie came back and then Bobby got out of jail since they didn't have anything to keep him. The night of Bobby's party was the night the condom broke. She was so into it that she didn't realize what had happened.
Another thing come to find out later Gemma was raped by white sepremitists to send a message to stop sellings guns to color. She gave that information to her mom, but without proof just hearsay from one crook threatening another crook it didn't help her at all.
Then she was trying to take down the IRA. She had Edmond Hays under survailience, and when the Sons found out about Gemma there was a lockdown.
Things went so wrong then. Gemma killed the girl who was involved with the rape and her mom framed her for Edmond's murder also causing Gemma to take off. Because she was just a croweater she didn't know where and after that. After everything with her mom abandoning her to go after the IRA she threw her hands up and said fuck it. She would save up money and just take off.
This was no longer what she wanted out of her life anymore and maybe she just needed a new start. She was even more convinced when Abel was kidnapped and the prospect was killed, and add to the fact she had been suffering from a stomach bug for the past week.
"Girl you need to get yourself checked out. You haven't gotten any better." Casey commented. With alot of convincing Ava decided to go to the free clinic in Oakland. She didn't want anyone in Charming to know what was going on and well Lodi and Stockton had too many people who knew the sons.
An hour later she was out and it turned out that she was six weeks pregnant. The night of Bobby's party, broken condom. She had to decide what she was going to do about it. She couldn't bring a baby into her life. Not now when she was so messed up because of her mom.
And what about the father? He was one of the ones facing jailtime, and she didn't think he wanted to be a father. Though she had six more weeks to decide. Once back at the clubhouse she cleaned up and made sure the bar was stocked up before she decided just to head home.
"Hey stay the night." Constance said.
"Why?" Ava questioned.
"Tara and a woman she works with got kidnapped. We are all on lockdown and cannot leave." said Casey.
"Punk ass bitch Salazar!" Piney grumbled reaching for his usual Patron.
"So what did the doctor say?" Casey asked.
"Just a bug. it's almost better." Ava lied. "I'm going to bed. I'm tired tonight."
"Something's up with her." said Kozik. Ava was one of Kozik's favorites when he was around, and he always picked up on things.
"PMS maybe." said Constance.
"Really! TMI!" complained Piney.
"Why would you give a shit douchebag? You trying to take everything from SAMCRO?" Tig snarled at Kozik.
"Go fuck yourself shithead!" Kozik fired back.
"Both of you enough!" Piney snapped slamming his hand on the bar.
A couple days later all the guys were back from Irland with Abel and Tara was rescued, Salazar dead. Now from what she had been able to pick up the entire crew was about to go after Jimmy, a guy who fucked up with the IRA and was wanted dead and by ATF.
Also during all of their planning Ava was doing some planning of her own. Her life or what was left of it. She knew that her mom would give her up as a rat. June Stahl didn't love her. She only used her to get ahead in her career and took everything from her. Virginity, life, future. All gone.
Ava was dumb enough to listen to her mom and do it because all she wanted was her mom to love her. She gave everything and came out with nothing. Sitting down at the picnic table she began writing notes to Casey and Constance. Her only friends.
Connie,
You are the best friend I've ever had, you and Cass. I'm leaving, and I won't be back. This life just isn't me. I think I need to figure out what love really is instead of chasing ghosts of the past. Take care.
Cass,
I hope your dreams of becoming a singer and having a family comes true. I used to have dreams of being a director producer, but that's not the case for me anymore. All I ever wanted was to have a mother that loved me, but instead she sucked the life out of me. I'm moving on from that and from here. I don't know where I'm going. Have a good life.
Leaving the clubhouse she got into her car and drove to her rental home to tie up loose ends.
"Put your hands on the wheel." Opie said to Agent Stahl.
"No please. You gave mercy before!" June begged.
"Put your hands on the wheel. I want you to feel how Donna felt." said Opie.
"Can I just say goodby to a couple people real quick? I have pictures!" June begged.
"Make it quick." said Opie as June pulled out a picture. The first one was when she was younger with a man, and the two were standing on the beach.
"Goodby Winnie. I love you." she sobbed and then grabbed another picture. This time it was of her and Winnie's daughter. She was sixteen and had just gotten her driver's license and she was leaning up against her mustang. "And you are a dissapointment to me. I needed you to come through for me, but you couldn't. I never loved you because you looked too much like Winnie who left me. Okay do what you have to do." she said. Opie pulled the trigger and Agent Stahl died just like Donna Winston.
Seconds later Jimmy got sliced from ear to ear from Chibs before Chibs killed him before leaving a message to the IRA via their sign in Jimmy's blood.
"Come on kids lets go. What the shit is this?" Piney asked as he took pictures from the car. One was a girl who was about sixteen and the other was a picture of Stahl and a man standing on the beach with their arms around one another.
Me and the love of my life Winnie! Panama City Beach Florida 1988.
"She set her own daughter up to be a rat?" Kozik said in outrage.
"Oh and that picture was Stahl and her daughter's father. The one on the beach." said Chibs.
"Well shit!" said Opie.
"So what do we do? We have no idea what all she told Stahl." Chibs asked.
"She didn't have shit to tell her and that's why she had to have Jax make the deal and that witness who saw Bobby murder Hefner was all she had until we ran off the witness." said Opie. "Though he came to the table and we all agreed on tricking the bitch!"
"We'll take it to the table. Quinn is coming down to take over the head of the table so we'll have the bodies while the guys are inside." said Piney as he called the prospects to tell them to inform the guys that Jimmy and Stahl were dead.
A bit later Opie and Kozik burst into Juice's home. It seemed that Ava was long gone. One of the guys found a suicide note, and the other found a journal about everything she had gone through, the emotional and verbal abuse and about how all she wanted was to be loved by her mom. Her birth certificate was laying on the kitchen table as well as another note saying that she wasn't even going to bother finding him because it was bad enough that her own mom rejected her and she couldn't handle a two fist shot.
Then the pregnancy test from the clinic and the confession that she was pregnant with a son's child. One of the men who was going inside for fourteen months, and then finally her confession about how her mom put her up to all of it, losing her virginity to the sons, the broken condom. Everything.
"Shit she's going to kill herself." Opie said reading the last line of the journal. I know what happens to rats so if it's gonna happen it's gonna happen on my terms. I want to be in control of something in my fucked up life.
"Lets go. It's a delicate situation and we need to stop her from doing this." said Kozik as the two sons got on their bikes and sped away.
Ava was about to jump when she heard a shout. "STOP! DON'T FUCKING DO IT!"
"Kozik I'm a rat. You know what happens with rats. Just let me do this." said Ava.
"There are too many varibles for everything to be black and white. First of all your mother used your weakness and manipulated you. Second of all you didn't give her shit that could help her so that was why she was so verbally abusive and hateful to you. Third you are carrying my brother's child. You think he would want you killing yourself and his unborn baby while he is locked up for fourteen months? Finally even though you had one parent that fucked you up there is still another parent out there. I read your birth certificate, and Quinn is just as good on the computer as Juice is. He'll help you find him." Kozik tried to talk her down
"I can't be rejected by another parent. Also I no longer have the will to live." Ava tried to push herself off the ledge, but Kozik was too quick. Wrapping his arms around her waist he pulled her back over and then held her as Ava just sobbed into Kozik's chest. This was the end all and she was about to meet her fate. Though she was so broken by her mom that she didn't care at that point.
"Prospect drive my bike to the clubhouse. I'll take Ava in her car." Kozik ordered the one, would be washout, was his nickname.
A/N: I haven't decided who the father should be yet for Ava's unborn baby. She has been with Kozik, Bobby, Juice, Happy, Tig, and Chibs several times, and Jax twice. Also the father of her kid is one of the ones going inside for fourteen months. Who do you want it to be? Also do you want Ava with the father of her child or with Kozik? Enjoy!
