Chapter 3

I didn't sleep that night, instead I lid there thinking of how messed up life is. When I was human, I had the most truest of true loves who according to Alice only left me to protect me from what he was. Now that I was what he was, or at least partly, I was alone. Life really wasn't fair. The night turned to day, the sun was out in full glory today, which was completely rare for his small town but I still couldn't bring myself to leave, no matter how curious I was about my skin, today I didn't care. I didn't want to know. When the sun had eventually gone down I heard the phone ringing but just like looking at my skin, I wasn't interested. The moon was shining through the window that was haunting my every thought when I heard a knock on my door.

"Bells, you awake?" Charlie said, he must have noticed that everything was as he left it this morning "night Bells" he said quietly when I didn't respond.

I didn't sleep that night either. By midday, I wasn't hungry, that I was certain about. Yet the emptiness in my stomach was starting to get to me. Another knock came to my door, this time I knew it wasn't Charlie, Jacob had always made a little tune when knocking on the door and I wondered how he had gotten in. I was positive Charlie was at work and Jacob didn't have a key, but who was I kidding I really didn't care. Which was when he answered the question for me.

"Your dad left me in Bells. He's only just gone to work, he didn't want to leave you alone so will you please open the door before I knock it down?" he threatened although I knew he was just hoping to lighten the mood. I looked at the door wishing it would open so I wouldn't have to get up but nothing happened. I turned back over in the bed deciding to ignore Jacob instead. I starred out my window and after a few minutes he spoke again. "Bells, seriously. Open this damn door. I mean it!" it started of stern but by the end he was shouting.

"Jeez" I said in a whisperer as I turned back round and starred at the door. Get up, move, get up, move, get up, move. I chanted to myself over and over again but nothing came of it and I couldn't find the energy to get out of the bed.

"Bells you have till the count of five. SERIOUSLY" he yelled. What is his problem? I thought. Starring at the lock I was shouting at it inside my head: Why cant you just open up you stupid thing and save me from getting up, for heavens sake! As I began to rise from the bed the lock flicked open and the door swung open with Jacob standing on the other side.

"About tim…" he cut off when he saw me still sitting in the bed. "how did the door open?" he said barely audible gawking at my stunned expression.

"I…" I took a deep breath and felt an even more shocked expression spread across my face "I don't know… I was thinking in my head that I wished it opened so I didn't have to move and then it did" by this point I was talking really fast and blinking faster. I dug my teeth into my bottom lip and looked from Jacob to the door and then back to Jacob.

"Don't tell me you did that with your mind? No way!" he said in an amazed voice "I had heard rumours about bloodsuckers having extra abilities but thought they were just stupid myths! WOW! Bells that is so cool!" he seemed so excited about this and I was so stunned that I couldn't even glare at him for calling me a bloodsucker. Technically he was right, I was one but I just didn't like the term.

The more I tried to wrap my head around what had just happened, I found myself unbelieving and ready to admit I had officially gone insane. Jacob stepped in with two boxes in his hand.

"I come baring pizza" he announced. "see if you can move it from my hands to your bed" he said looking like a child on Christmas morning. I shook my head and laughed.

"Maybe later" I simply stated. I wasn't sure how or if I had done that but if anyone knew from personal experience that vampires had powers, it was me. "wait, what did you mean you thought it was myths?" had I really never told him about Edward, Alice and Jaspers gifts? he sat down at the end of my bed starring at me.

"You don't look too good Bells, no more trips to that house. Ok?" it was clear he was putting his foot down and hoping I would listen. Maybe I would get him to drop off Edwards money but then I would have to explain to him. I thought and I looked at him and realised then I would have to listen to him complain more about Edward and I really don't think I could handle that, even if it was what best friends were meant to do. "I just assumed that it was them trying to make themselves look scarier or something" he shrugged casually. He took in my expression "what?"

"I was certain I had told you about certain vamps and the powers they have" he cut me off before I could begin to explain.

"The Cullen's have powers? No Bells you never told me that. Speak, Now!" he ordered as he opened a pizza box and began to take out a slice. As he handed it to me I began explaining.

"Well, not all of them exactly. Well Carlisle has a theory about powers." Jacob nodded as he took a bite out of his pizza. Immediately I thought about the lunch time I had spent with Edward in the beginning when he took a bite from the pizza to prove he could eat human food. A big grin lit my face as I recalled that disgusted look that spread across his as he swallowed.

"What? Did I drop some?" he asked looking down inspecting himself. I shook my head and shrugged. He glared at me for a second "continue" he prodded.

"Carlisle thinks that whatever your strongest trait was when you were alive you bring in to your next life, so to speak." Jacob looked unconvinced so I continued with examples. "Well, you know Alice?"

"The short dark haired one?"

"Yep, when she was alive she was in a mental institute because she saw things and her family thought she was insane."

"Wait, her family locked her up and she still managed to be changed? I always thought she looked a bit crazy" he pulled a funny face and I just shook my head at him.

"Do you want to know or not?" I glared at him and he nodded in the positive so I continued. "Well now she can see the future" his smirk dropped and he looked almost mortified by my comment. "Jake, you ok?"

"Seriously?" he asked, his voice was rough and he looked pale which of course with his russet skin was almost impossible.

"Yep, but as the object of her vision mind changes so does the future so she's all seeing but its not craved in stone." I explained hoping it would ease him and it seemed to. "Jaspers give is pretty cool as well" I continued, I felt a strange surge of pride as I thought about how amazingly talented they are as a family. Jacob gave me the continue nod, so I followed his command. "In his human life he was in the army and he found that he could influence people and because of that he did very well, and well now… now he can influence the emotions of those around him. Not like in a bad way but you know, like calm a room down if needed etc…" I ended as I realised that Jacobs jaw was nearly hitting the bed it had dropped so much.

"He's with Alice right? So they are quite the powerful couple?" he said astonished. I nodded and a slow and simple smile spread across my face. Non of this could be easy for him to believe. "What about the blonde and the big one?" he asked suddenly worried.

"Rosalie and Emmett?" as I said there names the letter came back to mind and I felt the nothing spread again. Emmett brought with him his strength, he's the most powerful vamp that any of them have ever come across when it comes to pure muscle power. Rosalie, well I'm not too sure, Edward" I felt the ache in my chest again and wrapped my arms around my self as if to hold myself together while I continued. "joked once that Rosalie brought with her pigheadedness" I rolled my eyes "I think she must have brought something other than beauty though, but maybe she hasn't found a way to show it yet."

Jacob looked a little relieved that they didn't have any super special talents "What about The doc and his wife?" Jacob waiting expression made me smile and I realised that he was really interested in this and not just from a we-hate-bloodsuckers point of view.

"Well Carlisle brought with him his compassion for others, do you know when he was turned he ran from the humans, pretty much attempted starvation so that he wouldn't feed on a human. It was him who discovered animal blood does the same job and that's how he's lived since and its been over three hundred years"

Jacobs eyes grew massive as he tried to take that in "Three hundred years? He barely looks thirty" he joked "wow! But seriously he's never killed a human before?" he looked a little amazed by this development

"Nope, a few of them haven't. oh, Esme brings her love with her, she is the most loving person you could ever meet" I finished off my answer about Edwards parents.

"wait, go back… explain who has and who haven't?" he seemed more intrigued by that statement.

"don't you want to know about…" I cut off before I finished but it was blatantly obvious who I was chatting about.

"I was sure if you wanted to talk about him so I didn't want to ask, but sure… does he?"

"Yep" I nodded as I answered. "He can read peoples minds" with that comment Jacobs jaw nearly hit the floor.

"What the… are you SERIOUS? How did you stand that? wasn't that really intrusive?" The questions flew out of his mouth quicker than I could begin to answer

I grinned and as usual had to catch my breath because of how utterly amazing Edward was. "Yep I'm serious, nope I didn't have to stand that and nope it wasn't intrusive for me because he couldn't get into my mind. Some weird problem with my mind kept him out"

"Huh" was all Jacob managed to get out. He starred at me waiting for something but I didn't move "So" he asked slowly "Which ones killed?"

"oh right" I had forgotten he had asked that. "Well Carlisle has never, neither has Esme. Rosalie killed before but she has never fed from a human"

He interrupted me "Why would she kill if it wasn't to fed?" I glared at him.

"I was getting to that, don't interrupt" I smiled "she killed the five men that… well… it was revenge" Jacobs confused expression turned to understanding and he made a disgusted noise in the bad of his throat and shook his head. "what? You wanted to know who had killed before" I asked thinking he was making the noise at Rosalie.

"No, not that" he looked caught then he responded "In a strange way, I get why she would do that, I mean if someone did that to you or my sisters, I don't know how far I would go, I think I'd do that as well" this was the first time I had ever heard him talk so non basis about the Cullen's, it was refreshing. I decided to continue.

"Emmett, well he's always tried to be good but he has messed up a few times, but not a lot." I rephrased when I saw Jacobs eyes turn to slits "They are there for each other and try to stop each other from messing up" he eyes opened slightly wider "Alice has never at all, but Jasper has. The thing with Jasper though was he was created different to the others" I tried to explain to show Jacob that Jasper wasn't a bad guy. Jacob just starred at me "he was created to fight a war and was told by his creator that it was the only way to live. He left by himself to find something better because he couldn't handle killing anymore" although I was sure Jacob wouldn't admit to understanding, I knew from his expression that he did.

"And Edward? I'm guessing he's not mister innocent." I wished Edward had been just to throw it in his face but I wasn't about to lie either. As much as I knew it was wrong I had understood why Edward did what he did and he beat himself up enough for it.

"Nope, Edwards not mister innocent." I looked at Jacob straight in his face, even though Edward was not here I refused to bash him behind his back, I wanted Jacob to be fully aware that I was not ashamed of him and his mistakes. "He's the oldest apart from Carlisle" Jacobs face twisted with surprise. "He went through a rebel stage a few years after he was created but he only hunted bad people. He would save the good, you know normal people and only kill the bad ones" I explained it terribly and I noticed Jacob trying to understand my expression.

"What did he do, study police records or something?" Jacob said sarcastically

"No, I don't think so at least… he can read minds remember? He knew from their thoughts"

Understanding flooded his face "bit of a God complex" he said with a smirk. He must have realised I wasn't up for any comments about Edwards past because he changed the subject to me "Don't worry Bells, they might have each other, but you have me, I wont let you make that mistake" he said smiling and I knew I could trust him on that point. "now eat" he ordered.

By the time Jacob left I was feeling a little bit better although I was still completely numb inside. I was thankful the hysterics had stopped but I didn't no if I could cope with everything. I needed to know more about what I was, I decided I needed more distractions.

If I was truly know what I was, I would need to start looking and experimenting. Was I immortal now? Or was I going to continue aging? The worst part was I knew exactly where I needed to start looking for information. But it was somewhere I never wanted to go again. I tried out my powers again but I couldn't seem to get them to work. It was frustrating that I didn't understand how powers came so easily to everyone yet to me it was much harder work. I called Jacob and asked him to come with me tomorrow to look for information, when he had asked me where I had told him I needed to show him and so he agreed.