A/N: With the Bank Holiday here in the UK I've had more chance to write. This time it's Bella's turn for story telling. I hope you are all still enjoying and a massive thank you to those who have reviewed, followed or favourited. Hoping to post chapter 3 this time next week. And now, Chapter 2...

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, Stephenie Meyer does. I just own a Jasper obsessed imagination.

Word count without A/N: 849

Chapter 2

BPOV

Arrogant arrogant vampires.

Arrogant pixie sister.

Arrogant supposedly brother and sister for being so far away before I even met them.

Arrogant boyfriend.

Incredibly humble, breakable, pathetic, humble humble human.

I am torn.

Deeply torn. And confused. And lost. And alone.

Well I'm not alone. I'm currently about to leave and set off to go in a house full of vampires.

Well not full. Two are missing, vanishing on vacation as soon as I started school.

I can't decide.

One minute I think I'm not good enough for Edward, that he can do so much better, that I'm not worth his attention, and on these occasions I feel like the luckiest girl alive.

The next minute I can't believe the pompous rubbish Edward is spouting. He wants to save my soul, that I am not to worry about my humanity, there's forever together but yet he won't discuss changing me. And then I wonder if I could do better.

Today's an arrogant boyfriend day. He's decided I need a party, that Alice is the perfect party planner and that I want lavish gifts to show how loved I am.

Wanna know what I want?

Really?

Oh what a relief, since you're the only person who has!

Well, maybe Jasper gets it, but I can't be certain as I'm not allowed to speak to him.

I digress, what I would like, today, on MY BIRTHDAY, my 18th I might add, is simple.

Nothing.

It's a pleasant day in September and I would love for it to be a normal day. I hate attention. I hate gifts. I hate fuss.

I'm in my room having just finished tea with Charlie and I am dreading the Volvo pulling up to take me away.

Alice has given me a bag with clothes, make up and instructions. She wanted to do it herself but I insisted I spent time with Charlie. I can't be around her at the minute. The looks her and Edward share are becoming way too frequent. I know there's some kind of vision that Alice had and Edwards seen, from the looks I can only assume it involves me. I just want this evening to be over with.

I hear the Volvo pull up and before I can gather my thoughts I hear a knock at the door. Ever the gentleman Edward has come to collect me. Charlie doesn't like him, he freaks him out with his old fashion values, over politeness and protectiveness. Least making the decision I'm coming to would make my dad happier again. I can't make any certain decisions else Alice will see it and try persuade me that I'm better off staying with Edward, that I'm not safe from the Volturi if I leave. But I'm starting to realise that this relationship isn't healthy, that I'm not myself anymore, and I don't think I want eternity with him if I feel like this.

I go downstairs to meet Edward to find him and Charlie at a stand off. Edward trying his best to look like a calm normal teenager picking his girlfriend up, Charlie's in his police man interrogation stance. I need to diffuse this and get out of the situation. Giving Charlie a kiss on the cheek goodbye I quickly grab Edwards hand and pull him towards the door. The sooner I get to this party the sooner it can be over and I can think of my own future.

Some time later that evening...

Alice has gone overboard. I've spent the last hour been shown how she's decorated and the food she bought. It's such a waste and I hate it. There's only me that eats so so much will be binned that it makes me feel sick, does she not realise how many people go hungry each day?!

I've been told it's time for presents now, oh joy, my least favourite thing.

Esme and Carlisle go first, least there's is something I can accept honestly as it's not too much, a silver necklace with the Cullen family crest, it's got a lovely engraving on too ...No matter what the future hold you will always be a daughter to us...I run to them both and hug them, using actions to express what I don't have words for.

Next is Alice and Jaspers present. As I go to open the wrapping I see Alice in the corner of my eye go still, clearly having a vision. A lot happens at once then...

Alice gasps

Edward looks at Alice and growls

Esme and Carlisle turn from where they were talking

Jasper crouches down

I continuing opening my present, not being able to process everything else happening, then I see the blood, two tiny drops on my finger, a bloody paper cut in a house full of vampires.

And then, Edward lunges at me, fangs bared and a low growl rumbling through the room.

I see Jasper spring from his crouched position.

And the last thing I think before the world goes black is that it's Edwards fangs draining me, not Jaspers, they were all wrong