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Murphy and Jillian were sitting on the couch with the TV on. Liam had closed his bedroom door but they were still talking quietly. They were sitting side by side, talking about Liam. Jillian told Murphy they had a playful relationship, always keep score of things each other did that the other didn't like. Jillian hated it when Liam licked her face, Liam hated it when Jillian ruffled his hair in front of his friends. At the end of the month, they added up the score and the winner got to pick where they went out to eat that night.
" I have something for you and I just want you to take it. Don't fight me, just take it, please." Murphy said.
" Okay." Jillian said. " What is it?" He reached into his jacket and pulled out a stack of money. "Murphy." He shook his head.
" No, Jilly, please. I wasn't able to be there to help you when he was younger. Had I been here, you won't have struggled. I know it has been hard for you, raising a boy on your own. You don't want to spend it, then don't. Open an account for my Lad, put the money there." Murphy asked. Jillian sighed and looked back at him.
" When he was asking if you knew his dad, I didn't know what to say." She said. Murphy sighed and set his cup down on the coffee table. He took Jillian's cup from her hands and set it down.
He put his hand at her neck and brought her to him. She closed her eyes as he came closer to her. He tilted his head and brushed his lips to hers. She brought her hands to his chest and took a hold of his shirt. Their tongues moved around each other slowly and carefully. He brought his other hand to her hair and played with it, running the strands through his fingers. Jillian felt herself wanting to melt into him. She hadn't been with anyone since him. They slowly ended the kiss but kept their foreheads together.
" Bring him to Doc's tomorrow to meet Connor. If you think he can handle it, we will tell him the truth then." Murphy said softly.
" He will keep your secret. He won't tell anyone you're the Saints." She said. " Are you staying the night?" She asked, making him chuckle.
" The lad won't be upset?" Murphy asked.
" Not if he doesn't know. You just have to hide out in my room until he goes to school." She said.
" You better check to make sure he's sleeping then." Murphy said.
" You want to come?"
Murphy quietly followed Jillian into his son's room. The room was dark but he could see the boy in his bed. Liam was laying his stomach, one arm hanging off the bed, the other under the pillow. She went to the bed and knelt down. She brushed the hair from his face and kissed his forehead then adjusted the blankets over him before she stood up again. She smiled down at him.
" He sleeps like you." She whispered. Murphy came to her side and smiled.
" Aye, I see that." Murphy whispered as he took her hand. He interlaced their fingers while they watched their son sleep.
After a few minutes, Jillian led him out of Liam's room. Murphy closed the door behind him as she moved to the front door. She slide the lock into place then took his hand again. He followed behind her to towards her room, already excited. Being with her made him feel comfortable and relaxed. He was ready to have a real relationship with her but couldn't figure out how to bring it up to her. He knew it wasn't the safest thing for them but he didn't want to be apart from her anymore.
Once in her room, Jillian let his hand go and moved to the sliding glass door on the left side of her bed. He closed her door then faced her as she locked the door and pulled the shades. She looked back at him and smiled shyly. He laughed and came towards her. She meant him in the center of the room and they put their arms around each other slowly. Their foreheads came to rest against each other.
" I haven't been with anyone since our last time together." She said softly.
" Me either, Lass." He whispered. They had their eyes closed.
" You don't have to lie." She said. " I'm still going to have sex with you tonight." He chuckled.
" I'm not lying. I couldn't even look at another girl without thinking about you. I meant what I said earlier, I didn't find you again just for sex. I want to be with you." He said. Jillian pulled away and looked at him.
" How do we do this though? You have to be in hiding, Liam doesn't know who you are, how can we do this?" She asked. Murphy tucked the hair between her ears.
" We will figure everything out. I just want to be with you, 100%, not just as a friend with benefits but to be together." He said. She sighed then.
" Can we do this?" She asked.
" It's going to be hard but every relationship is work." He said. She laughed as she ran her hands up the back of his head.
" Not every relationship has one member in hiding from the FBI." She said. He smiled then kissed her quickly.
" Can you try?" He asked. She nodded.
" Yes." She answered simply. Murphy grinned then picked her up. He turned her back to the bed and tossed her on it, making her laugh out loud. Murphy put his finger to his lips as he climbed on top of her. "Shh, or you will wake the lad. I doubt you want him to find us in bed together." He said. Jillian grabbed his shirt and brought him down to kiss her.
He undressed her as slowly as he could. He waited until she was completely undressed before he pulled away and kicked off his shoes. She was laying the middle of the bed, smiling at him as he struggled out of his clothes as quickly as he could. He grabbed the bottom of his shirt and smiled at her. She laughed.
" What?" She asked.
" You know, you could help me." He said. She shook her head.
" No way. I like watching you get undressed." Jillian said. He tossed his shirt to the side then started undoing his pants. Her smile faded slightly as her eyes went to his side. Murphy paused and looked down. He had forgotten that he had a gun strapped to him. He slowly started undoing the strap as he looked up at her.
" Does that make you uncomfortable?" He asked. She shook her head.
" I honestly don't know. I have never seen you with a weapon. Do you carry it around all the time?" She asked. He walked to the left side of her bed, it had always been his side. He opened the drawer of the night stand and carefully laid his gun inside it.
" Aye." He said. He looked at her with the top button of his pants undone. " Do you not want me here now?" He asked. She smiled as she meant his eyes.
" Oh, I want you here. I'm this close to getting laid for the first time in 10 years, I'm not letting that gun stop me." She said. He grinned and hurried out of his pants.
" Did I ever tell you how much I love your sex drive?" He asked as he shred his boxers. He pulled her blankets up and moved over to her, pulling her against him. He moved himself on top of her, putting his hand between them. She grabbed it before he could touch her.
" Don't. I want it so bad that if you touch me now, I might just cum right away." She said. He grinned before he kissed her.
He pulled his hand away from her and brought it to her legs. As they made out slowly, he let his hand dance up her thigh until he reached her center. He slowly dragged his hand up her, feeling how ready she was. She jumped as her hands tighten in his hair. He sank one finger inside her while another one started rubbing her in slow circles. Jillian pulled her mouth away from him.
" Stop!" She moaned. He laughed as he moved to kiss her neck. She grabbed his wrist. " I'm serious, please stop!" She said as she arched her back.
" You are more then ready." He whispered against her neck.
" I know, I told you!" She said. He moved his hand and put both hands into her hair. They locked eyes together. " What are you waiting for?" She asked, her voice breathless.
" I just want to stare at you for a second." He said. She sighed as they looked at each other. " There's so much I want to say." He said.
" Then say it." She said, her stomach jumping.
" I'm trying." Murphy said. She smiled as she started playing with his hair.
" We have plenty of time for words later. Come in to me, it will clear your head." He grinned then leaned down to kiss her again. He came into her so slowly, she pulled her mouth from his and moaned loudly. She leaned her head back as her eyes closed. " Oh my God!" She whimpered.
" Shh, Lass. We aren't alone anymore!" He whispered as he came fully inside her.
" I can't help it! Oh my God it feels so good." She almost squealed as he kissed her neck.
" I haven't even moved yet." He said.
When he pulled out of her, his eyes snapped shut as he bit the inside of his cheek. She brought her hips up to take him back in and the world around him exploded. It had been so long since he had had sex, he had almost forgotten what it felt like. He kept his memories of their times together close to him, using them when he was alone and needing her, but now that he was with her again, he realized how much he had forgotten.
He hadn't remembered how soft her skin was or how it smelled. He had forgotten how her tongue felt against him and how sweet she tasted. He had forgotten how tight she was around him, how her body hugged him when he was inside her. He hadn't remembered how much her moans and whimpers turned him on. He hadn't remembered that sex with her was something his entire body felt, not just his penis.
They moved together in unison, her hips raising to take him in and falling to let him out again. Her hands tighten in his hair, her breath and sounds against his cheek. He loved her, he knew he did. He had left 10 years before, going home to Ireland, knowing he was in love with her and thinking he'd never see her again. She gasped and he knew she was going to cum soon. He was thankfully because he felt his orgasm building quickly. Her tongue flicked out and caught his earlobe. She dragged her teeth along it then whispered she was cumming. Murphy brought his mouth to hers to drink down her moans. She came hard around him, bring his orgasm out. He moaned into her mouth as he poured hot inside her, completely filling her.
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The next morning, Murphy woke to unfamiliar sounds. He had one arm hanging off bed. He was laying on his stomach. He pushed himself to his back and slowly opened his eyes. He rubbed his face as he listened to the apartment. The TV was on but he could still hear Jillian and Liam talking. She was asking him if he had his homework and lunch money. He was answering her with yes moms. Then he called out a goodbye and an I love you before Murphy heard a door shut. A few minutes later, the door to her room opened and Jillian crept in. Murphy had closed his eyes again.
" I'm awake, Lass." He said.
" He's gone." She said. He felt the bed move as she crawled over to him. He moved his arm as she laid down beside him. She put her head on his chest and he put his arm around her. " You know, I still have your toothbrush and some of your clothes." She said. He opened his eyes and stared at her ceiling.
" You kept them?" He asked. She nodded.
" The morning we were together last, you left so fast, you didn't take all your stuff. I have the jeans you left here but Liam has your shirt. I showed it to him once and he kept it." She said. " He was 6 and wore it around forever even though he was huge on him. I took his picture in it. He looked so cute." Murphy smiled and stretched.
" Shower?" He asked.
