" Rose you are completely overreacting right now," Alice shouted as she slammed the front door closed behind us. Bella had just begun descending down the stairs to see what all the commotion was about as I gripped the kitchen counter top trying to catch my breath.

"What did you do to her Alice?" Bella demanded as she made her way over to me and began stroking small circles into my back while I stay hunched over. This shit could not be happening. Not even two minutes before I was only thinking of ways that Emmett could help me break in my new bedroom suite, and now I needed to stay as far away from him and the others as possible.

" I didn't do anything Bella! Our new neighbors are Navy SEALS, or well ex Navy SEALS or something. Hell, I don't know what they are but it has Rose all freaked out and she wants to leave," Alice threw her hands into the air as a sign of defeat and confusion regarding the entire situation that had just unfolded. As soon as Edward had said that the three of them were Navy SEALS the atmosphere had completely changed. My mouth went dry and my eyes began to blur. I knew I had to get away quickly, so I just turned and left, leaving Alice and the three men standing there with confused expressions. In conclusion to my freakout, I am now standing here leaning over a beautiful granite counter top having one of the all to familiar panic attacks I have grown accustomed to in these past two years.

"I can't do this," I mumbled, now that my breathing was finally equaled and I could form a coherent thought. "I need to leave." I looked up, making eye contact with Alice from across the room.

"Rose, you can't just leave. It will all be okay. This is just a small little hiccup to your near perfect plan for seclusion. It will all be okay. Look at this beautiful cabin you found for us. I worked so hard to make this a home for you Rose. Please don't give up." Alice pleaded with me, and made her way across the room resting her hands on my forearms.

" I just don't think I can handle this Alice." I looked down at her and tears began welling up in my eyes threatening to spill over.

"You have to talk to someone Rose. This isn't healthy. You just want to up and move again because our next door neighbors are military. I know this has been hard for you these past two years, but seeing a therapist isn't the worst thing in the world. It doesn't mean you are sick." It was Bella who spoke this time as she kept her hand rested on my back. Her words were meant to comfort me, but all I had interpreted was that I was too weak to deal with my own problems.

"You both know I can't do that. It's just not me. I'm not into that whole therapist thing," I said a little too defensively as I turned my back to Alice and Bella and rested both hands on the counter. I needed to get a grip on my emotions fast before this became an all out sob fest.

"Look Rose, Bella and I did some research after you got back. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is actually really common in soldiers who served in Iraq and Afghanistan. It's not just because you're a female. A lot of guys have problems readjusting too." Alice spoke softly, but her words were like bullets hitting their marks. I always thought that our of everyone Alice and Bella would still see me as my old self, but the fact that they had actually done research on issues proved that saw me just like everyone else did. Weak and broken. I couldn't let my two best friends think that I couldn't handle my own shit. I was used to living alone and being able to be comfortable with the fact that most of my breakdowns stayed hidden, but now with two roommates I realized I was going to have to make sure I stayed calm and composed. I couldn't just up and move when things got complicated. After all, we had all pulled a lot of strings in order to get this cabin and I couldn't just leave them high and dry.

" You're right Alice. I am over reacting. It's really no big deal at all having them as our neighbors. Sorry to worry you both but I'm fine." I quickly turned on my heels and moved swiftly across the room and up the stairs before they had time to psychoanalyze me some more. I made my way towards the end of the hallway and remembered Alice telling me the last room on the left was perfect for me. I opened the door and gasped at the sight in front of me. I was absolutely gorgeous. The room was spacious with dark wood flooring and crisp white walls that Alice had already been talking about painting. Straight across from the door was a wall that was completely windows from top to bottom. It had a glass sliding door leading out to our deck that over looked our own private little lake. I could see that the deck had a chair swing hanging from overhead, and the thought of sitting outside on cool, sleepless nights instantly relaxed me. I turned to my right and found the entrance to my private bathroom complete with an old brass bathtub. This was exactly what I needed for my fresh start.

I made my way over to the sliding door and opened it to the chilly autumn air. I rested my upper body against the railing of the deck and started out into the calming waters. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a flash of movement to my right and turned my head to see what had gripped my attention. Emmett's perfect eyes met mine as he stood on his deck looking as though this little private world was created as solely a backdrop to fill up the blank spaces not covered by himself. He gave me a big smile and waved at me from across the five foot gap separating our decks. He looked as though he was wanting to say something, but before he could get a word out I gave him a small smile and ducked back into my bedroom. I knew that I had to stay for Alice and Bella, but to be honest, I already felt like that damned Emmett McCarty was going to be the death of me.

I really hope that y'all are liking my story so far. This is my first fan fiction and it was a story that made it's way into my brain and refused to leave. I would really appreciate any feedback and ideas that anyone has for me, and I will try to update a few chapters a week

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