Disclaimer-I don't own any part of Rizzoli and isles.
Maura opened her eyes the next morning feeling safe and secure in Jane's arms, and realized just as quickly that Jane shouldn't be here and sat up and turned to look at her. Jane was awake and looking at her.
"What are you doing here Jane?" Maura asked, her anger towards Jane showing.
"You didn't answer my calls or texts, I knew this was the only way for me to get you to speak to me."
"So you come to my parents house in the middle of the night expecting what exactly? How did you get in?" The second question coming to her mind as an after thought.
Jane just smiled at her like its a huge secret. Growing tired of Jane thinking there was no problem here Maura climbed out of bed in a rush to get away from Jane.
"Maura wait?" Jane asked while getting off the bed as well.
Maura stopped midway to the door turned towards Jane.
"Who was that girl you were with yesterday?" Maura asked.
"That is why I had to come find my wife and child in the middle of nowhere?! Jane said, clearly furious Maura had brought her up.
"You can't tell me nothing is going on, I heard you arguing with her."
"She is someone from my past, I don't take off and leave when you speak to someone you went to school with do I?" Jane asked clearly not getting the point.
"No Jane you don't, but I'm sure if I had given you reason to wonder if I'm having an affair you'd do the same."
Jane moved closer to Maura, but Maura moved away. Maura didn't want to give Jane the opportunity to touch her, she knew if she let her she'd never get any answers from Jane.
"Please just tell me what's going on with you Jane." Maura pleaded.
"This has nothing to do with you." Jane said not once looking at Maura.
Jane's phone that was sitting on the bedside table started to ring. Maura rushed to get it, which turned into a struggle when Jane got a hold of it as soon as Maura did.
"It's Frankie, Maura stop!" Jane shouted when Maura wouldn't let go.
Maura looked at the screen and recognized Frankie's number. With a sigh Maura let go, and watched Jane answer.
"What's up Frankie?" Jane said as she answered.
Maura watched Jane's expression go from anger to worried. "What's wrong Jane?" Maura asked softly.
Jane looked at her and then walked out of the room while still talking to Frankie, but completely cutting her out of the conversation she's having.
"That's exactly the point I'm trying to make Jane!" Maura shouted after her.
She wanted so much to get Jane to understand all these secrets and lies are what caused her to leave.
There was no use trying to follow so she went to make coffee, and was surprised when she found her mother holding Conner while getting the coffee prepared.
"I'm sorry mother I didn't hear him wake up."
"I didn't figure you did dear...are you and Jane alright?" Constance asked.
"We're fine mother." Not wanting to worry her Maura lied hoping the hives weren't noticeable.
"I'm going to go get him changed." Maura said as took Conner from her mother.
she walked out of the kitchen down the wall until she heard Jane talking on the phone.
"I don't know what to do Frankie...no she expects me to get him out of this, and I don't know how." Maura could tell Jane was worried and wished she knew what Jane was talking about.
"I can't just leave Maura without an explanation, tell her I'll be there tomorrow." Leave to go where Maura thought to herself.
Maura continued her walk to her bedroom, anxiously waiting for Jane to come back in. She was changing Conner's diaper when Jane came in, Maura waited for Jane to speak while finishing up with conners clothes, but Jane didn't speak until Maura picked up conner dressed and ready for the day.
"I asked your mother if she'd watch conner for a little while, I need to talk to you." Jane said tensely, walking towards Maura to take conner from her.
Maura watched Jane walk out of the room with conner and return a few minutes later without him. She shut the door, and turned toward Maura not once looking at her. The awkward silence that followed was almost unbearable.
"Where are you going Jane?" Maura asked, when the silence got to much.
Jane finally looked at her, the mask Jane always had in place was gone, she looked helpless and that terrified Maura. Maura watched Jane rub the scars on her hand which Maura picked up on as a nervous habit, she almost wanted to laugh at this thought, it had taken her until now to figure this out.
"I...I have to go." Jane said. Looking everywhere but at Maura.
"We'll come with you Jane." Maura said sounding hopeful.
"No, I have to go by myself" Maura wanted to argue with her, but Jane looked so venerable that she didn't.
"When will you be back?"
"I don't know if I'll be back." Jane mumbled.
"What?" Maura asked, she knew what Jane had said, but was waiting for Jane to tell her this was just a cruel joke, and that she was angry at her for leaving and wanted to get back at her.
"I would never lie to you Maura, what I said to you the other night I meant every word."
Maura wanted to tell her she already had lied to her, but didn't. "but now you're leaving, are you going to tell me anything or continue on with the secrets?" Maura said, finally angry.
"Just tell me where you're going Jane! This whole year you've been away you've been here physically but mentally you've been miles away!" Her voice picking up with every word until all the calm she had was gone and and she was yelling at Jane.
"I have to." Jane said calmly.
"How can you stand there and tell me you're leaving like its an everyday conversation? What about conner? Are you just going to walk out on him too!"
The thought of conner not having Jane as his mother is what made the tears appear again. As much as she tried to keep them at bay it didn't work.
"I'm sorry Maura." Jane said, her voice hoarse with unshed tears.
"No! Don't try to apologize to me, just tell me what is really going on." Maura begged. "Is this because of me? Because I left yesterday?"
Maura felt Jane's arms come around her but didn't look up to met her gaze.
"No Maura, this has nothing to do with any of that, I wish I could explain, but I can't."
Maura wanted to argue but all the energy to fight just evaporated, she let her head fall on Jane's shoulder and tried not to think this might be the last time she felt this safe again.
When Jane pulled away Maura knew it was time, she was losing her little piece of heaven. Each step Jane took to the door was like another stab to her heart, Jane looked at her once more her mask was gone and Maura saw everything she was feeling on Jane's face.
"You're my reason." Jane whispered.
If Maura wasn't watching she would have thought she imagined it. Jane walked out and Maura was left feeling numb. The one person she always counted on left her standing alone.
AN-next chapter will answer everyone's questions, I'll have it out in a few days.
