Stop pushing me away
I
hate it when you do that
I'm breaking
But I don't blame
you
Like always
I keep it inside
But don't you at
least
Want to erase it?
The pain building
Rapidly in my
chest
My heart beating
So slowly
I begin to think
I may
never wake
The next day
My tears
My cries
My pleas
My
heart
Will not reach your
Ears which block out my
words
Push me away any longer
I'll break
And these tears'll
burst
Slipping down a white
Face of sadness
I want to
place a blade
Over a vain
Slice it
End it all
End my
life as you turn away
Once again
I let you go so many
times
That you don't even question why
I tore my life
apart
Not that there's anything left
Of this broken soul
That
you left bleeding
Yeah, I cut myself
I hate myself
I
resent the life I have
I hate my non-leaving love
For you
Quit
it
Stop coming here
Stop making the same mistakes
I don't
want to save you any more!!
Close to death
Your pulse's
leaving
You know I'll save you
Even though...
My heart's
scarred
To the point that I want
To end my very life
Not
that you'd care
Right?
You want me to be gone
You hate
me
The pain building
Rapidly in my chest
My heart
beating
So slowly
I begin to think
I may never wake
The
next day
Can you stop to think
About why I won't take
over
Completely?
Have you ever
Wondered why?
Do you
think
It's because I'm afraid
I'll be knocked back
down?
Hell...
I'm afraid of loosing you
To the
darkness
So I stray in it
Just for you
So you won't be
covered
In a hateful
Black abyss
I'm your other half
The
one that has the dark feelings
That dwell within you
But
still
I have some
Things within me
I'd rather not mention
I
can handle the hateful
Feelings you have towards
Someone
else
But why mostly resent
Me?
Tell me that
Tell me
the truth
Why do you hate me?
Why can't you love me?
This
bullshit is driving me
Insane
Not that I was sane in
The
first place...
Not that I was in love
With you in the
first
Place
It happened
So suddenly it took me
By
surprise
But here we go again
I'm on the
ground
Bleeding
Yeah, I'll let you cut me down
Just to
please you
For you, the one I desperately
Want to love me
The
blade can collide
With my chest
Cut out my beating heart
If
that'll make you accept
Me
The pain building
Rapidly in
my chest
My heart beating
So slowly
I begin to think
I
may never wake
The next day
No...
The tears are
slipping
Down my cheeks
And in front of you
You of all
people
A concerned look
Crosses your features
Taking a
step away
Asking me why
You finally ask me why?
Now...when
I'm bleeding to my
Death?
What the fuck is your problem?!
Why
don't you see in me
That can make you realize
It was you
That
did this bullshit to me?
Oh God...
I wanna crawl up
Into
a hole and die
I want to shout it out
Want to shout out my
need
My secret I've held
Hidden from you
Just to make
you stay
The exact same way
Together
Not in pieces
A
trillion pieces
Like me
Don't ask me why
I'm crying
I
should be questioning
You why you
Don't love me
Like I do
you
Turning away
I run away
Away from you
Hidden in
the abyss of
The ugly emotions
You possess
You won't run
after me
I know that all too well
If you were different
And
did
I'd love you even more
But you won't
So I'll stay
hidden
Breaking in pain
Trying to forget why
I want to hold
you
My heart broken
Into a trillion pieces
I want to
gather them
And put them back together
But I don't have
The
strength to do so
My heart aching
To death
I want it to shut
up
Please shut it up
I hate this
I want you to
care
About me
Like I care about you
I'd die for you
But
you don't realize it
So I'll continue to keep it inside
Stop
pushing me away
I hate it when you do that
I'm breaking
But
I don't blame you
