Stop pushing me away
I hate it when you do that
I'm breaking
But I don't blame you

Like always
I keep it inside
But don't you at least
Want to erase it?

The pain building
Rapidly in my chest
My heart beating
So slowly
I begin to think
I may never wake
The next day

My tears
My cries
My pleas
My heart

Will not reach your
Ears which block out my words
Push me away any longer
I'll break
And these tears'll burst
Slipping down a white
Face of sadness

I want to place a blade
Over a vain
Slice it
End it all

End my life as you turn away
Once again
I let you go so many times
That you don't even question why

I tore my life apart
Not that there's anything left
Of this broken soul
That you left bleeding

Yeah, I cut myself
I hate myself
I resent the life I have
I hate my non-leaving love
For you

Quit it
Stop coming here
Stop making the same mistakes
I don't want to save you any more!!
Close to death
Your pulse's leaving
You know I'll save you

Even though...
My heart's scarred
To the point that I want
To end my very life

Not that you'd care
Right?
You want me to be gone
You hate me

The pain building
Rapidly in my chest
My heart beating
So slowly
I begin to think
I may never wake
The next day

Can you stop to think
About why I won't take over
Completely?
Have you ever
Wondered why?
Do you think
It's because I'm afraid
I'll be knocked back down?

Hell...
I'm afraid of loosing you
To the darkness
So I stray in it
Just for you

So you won't be covered
In a hateful
Black abyss
I'm your other half
The one that has the dark feelings
That dwell within you

But still
I have some
Things within me
I'd rather not mention

I can handle the hateful
Feelings you have towards
Someone else
But why mostly resent
Me?

Tell me that
Tell me the truth
Why do you hate me?
Why can't you love me?

This bullshit is driving me
Insane
Not that I was sane in
The first place...
Not that I was in love
With you in the first
Place

It happened
So suddenly it took me
By surprise
But here we go again

I'm on the ground
Bleeding
Yeah, I'll let you cut me down
Just to please you
For you, the one I desperately
Want to love me

The blade can collide
With my chest
Cut out my beating heart
If that'll make you accept
Me

The pain building
Rapidly in my chest
My heart beating
So slowly
I begin to think
I may never wake
The next day

No...
The tears are slipping
Down my cheeks
And in front of you
You of all people

A concerned look
Crosses your features
Taking a step away
Asking me why

You finally ask me why?
Now...when I'm bleeding to my
Death?
What the fuck is your problem?!
Why don't you see in me
That can make you realize
It was you
That did this bullshit to me?

Oh God...
I wanna crawl up
Into a hole and die
I want to shout it out
Want to shout out my need

My secret I've held
Hidden from you
Just to make you stay
The exact same way

Together
Not in pieces
A trillion pieces
Like me

Don't ask me why
I'm crying
I should be questioning
You why you
Don't love me
Like I do you

Turning away
I run away
Away from you
Hidden in the abyss of
The ugly emotions
You possess

You won't run after me
I know that all too well
If you were different
And did
I'd love you even more

But you won't
So I'll stay hidden
Breaking in pain
Trying to forget why
I want to hold you

My heart broken
Into a trillion pieces
I want to gather them
And put them back together
But I don't have
The strength to do so
My heart aching
To death
I want it to shut up

Please shut it up
I hate this
I want you to care
About me
Like I care about you
I'd die for you
But you don't realize it
So I'll continue to keep it inside

Stop pushing me away
I hate it when you do that
I'm breaking
But I don't blame you