After Allegiant - CHAPTER 3

I know this is true because the day that Eric ran into her , if it wasn't for our special kind of communication, she would have gotten herself into big trouble. I managed to tell her what I wanted just by looking in her eyes. She needed to be vulnerable, it was the only way to get her out of that mess. I knew that she hated doing it, but it was for her safety.

When I told her that she needed to keep a low profile, to pretend to be weak for the first time, was after she got kidnapped by Peter and his minions. She had to stay down, or else she would get hurt or even killed. They didn't try anything else during initiation, which was good, but this girl had more enemies than Peter.

I can't even believe that I could have been the one to cause her death. When I was put under a simulation, by Jeanine, when we were under attack . I almost killed her. If it wasn't for her voice breaking me out of the sim, I would have killed her. I don't even think that I could have lived with myself knowing that I killed the only person that was able to break all the walls that I had managed to build up.
With all of the war going on, it seemed like we didn't share a lot of happy memories. But that's not entirely true.

One of my favorite yet terrifying memories is the night when we played Capture the Flag. When we climbed the Ferris Wheel together. That was the first time I started opening up to her, or to anyone really. That was probably the night when I started to fall for her. And when she held my hand, in the middle of the hallway and then ran to her friends afterwards, that was the first time she had been the one touching me. I had been touching her unconsciously during training when I told her to keep tension in her stomach or when she almost fell on the Ferris Wheel.

Or after Al jumped to the chasm and I bumped into her and we started talking about whether it was her fault or not. It obviously wasn't but she couldn't get that through her head. And out of nowhere I felt her little arms wrap around me. At first I was surprised but then I hugged her back and kissed her forehead. We could have stayed like that for a minute, an hour or a whole day nobody knows, but I cherrished every second of it. And to think that all of this happened before we even got together. I don“t know how we managed to keep this a secret for so long. How could I forget about the time when we went into my fear landscape. She got me throught it. I wanted to show her my favorite place in Dauntless, and what better time to do it then after she went into my fear landscape with me?

Before, that place was the place were I went to be alone with my thoughts or driking with Zeke and Shauna, but it acquired a new meaning after I brought her there. We shared our first kiss there, which is a memory that I will never forget because it was one of the best moments of my life.

Another one of those moments was after the scoreboards were shown and she had gotten first, I went to congratulate her. I was just going to give her a hug because I didn't know if she wanted everyone to know about us, so you understand my shock when she kissed in front of the whole Dauntless community. Not that I minded, if anything I was thrilled because we didn't have to hide anymore and I could kiss her and hold her hand and not have to think if anyone is watching.

DISCLAIMER : I don't own any of the characters nor do I own most of the plot/quotes. That all belongs to the amazing Veronica Roth.
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And until next time, BE BRAVE .