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The Dark Lord blinked some times, still processing the whole idea in his mind.
- Are... are you pregnant of a child of mine?
-...yes.
The vala reaction was everything Mairon could not expect. Melkor embraced the maia so tightly he could barely breathe.
- I am going to be a father...! Mairon, what a happy thing! Imagine, if the child would have your wisdom and my strength, he will be invincible!
- Huh... and if he would have my lack of hability in combat or yet your impulsiveness, or still both together, he will get too many troubles in life...
- Please, do not be pessimistic! Oh Mairon, a heir came from you! I could not imagine how could an Ainu with a fána be pregnant, but...
- I think I stood a little longer incarnated than a temporary body could be expected to. So I think the body interpreted this as a signal of "hey, now I can work as a truly incarnated body". And yours... your hroa is already totally incarnated.
- Yes. And this provided us the skill of procriation. Mairon, I am so happy...!
Melkor kissed the maia's face, something he was not so willing of doing, but he did. And soon the vala noticed the still sad looking in his lieutenant's face.
- Mairon... are you not happy? You are going to give birth of a child of mine!
- I thought you would not like the idea of being a father. But you loved it...!
- And what is the problem?
-...I do not want to be a mother!
- Why?
- I don't feel like a "woman" myself. I took a feminine form to pleasure you better in the bed, but in truth I feel more like a male.
- This is an easy issue. After the birth you can take a manly form again. Can not you?
- I don't know. I am afraid that with this pregnancy, my fána has turned into a hroa.
-...well, it is not too bad being totally incarnated. I can say this for me...
For a second, Mairon thought about himself incarnated in that woman body forever. During the rest of eternity.
- NO, I don't want to have a permanent form forever! I don't!
- Be calm! Perhaps you can change your form again... you just need to wait for the birth moment...
The words of his master did not please the maia. He was still afraid. A pregnancy was not in his plans - not now, nor never.
- I don't like children - Mairon started saying, more to himself than to Melkor - They mess everything. They are an endless source of noise and crying. They are terrible! I definitely do not want to be a mother!
- Mairon! I thought it would be a pride for you to give birth to a son of mine!
- No! I am sorry, but this time it is not a good thing for me! I don't want this child!
Melkor got totally horrorized. His obedient maia was contesting a desire of his master!
- Mairon, you will bear this child. Aule had the dwarves, I am going to have my own children too!
- Aule didn't need to impregnate Yavanna, he made the dwarves himself! It is not fair to give me such a burden when I don't want this!
- But you will bear my child!
Then the dark vala grabbed the maia's shoulders and told in front of his face:
- You will take care of this child, as your duty as mother! If I know of this child being miscarried, I will take off your damn fána and send you naked to Valinor, as I told I would do in case of treachery! You will have my baby!
- And if the miscarriage be out of my control...? And if it could be a natural miscarriage?
- I don't care. I will take your fána away if you lose this child, no matter the reason! Have this child, take care of this child as if he would be yourself! Don't disappoint me! You told me once not disappointing me would be a point of honor for you!
- And it is, my lord.
- So, obey my will now.
- That is fine, my lord.
The words came out from Mairon's mouth full of anger and grudge. Melkor noticed this but did not do anything. He just let his servant go. Mairon then bowed to his lord and went away - to his magick deeds or something like that. The dark vala thought about that affront of Mairon not wanting to have a child of him.
- How could he say he loves me so much and doesn't want to bear my child? Mairon, sometimes I cannot understand you...
But he chose not to bother the maia with these questions anymore. He, Melkor, was going to take care of the pregnancy, but not annoying the "mother". It could be bad for the baby to come. And then the vala was going to sleep alone - Mairon certainly would not be in the mood to sleep together with him anyway.
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Mairon went to the private room he used to develop and practice his magickal deeds, but there was no willing for him to continue with the magick. He just laid on the floor and cried. Cried as he never cried before.
That was the first order of his master he truly didn't want to obey. Now this was the first time he saw himself truly obliged of doing something for him he abhorred of. A child! A pregnancy! No, nothing of this could be true in his reality. He would never think an Ainu could be pregnant - at least without getting a hroa first. The only Ainu known of having a pregnancy was Melian, the one who gave birth to Lúthien.
"But this was not equal to my case", thought Mairon. "She got married with an elf, and I... I am partner of a vala! A vala with a full incarnated body, but a vala. Lúthien was half ainu, this child I bear will be the first whole Ainu in Arda who was directly born from an union between two Ainur."
"What kind of ainu will he be?", thought Mairon. "A vala? No, I am not so powerful to give birth to a vala. A maia? I don't know. Would he have the essence of his vala father? I don't know either! This is so confusing!"
Still in pain and uncertainty, Mairon took a bath and just went out in order to give orders to all the servants who were working and remained occupied until the morning and after the sunrise.
But at that morning the limitations of a pregnancy started showing in his routine. Early in the morning, still yelling with the orcs and other servants, Mairon fell dizzy and almost fell on the floor. "She" then remembered the advice of Melkor: if Mairon lost the baby, Melkor would punish him taking his body off and sending him to Valinor, for the maia's own disgrace and humiliation.
He felt like throwing up, but he couldn't do it because he simply didn't eat. Some servants just approached him and said:
- My lady, are you well?
The term "lady" was quite bad once ir remembered Mairon of his own condition of pregnancy. He just told them:
- Do not be worried about myself and keep working.
Then he took some rest but it was not enough. The nausea just remained and he could do nothing but wait that awful sensation to cease.
Some hours later, when Melkor knew he didn't seem to be so well, the vala reached him and said, in a delicate way (or at least the most delicate way he could have):
- My dear, are you fine?
- I feel a little dizzy, but I can't throw out once I don't eat. So I need to wait this to cease.
- This is not so bad. When you see the baby's face, you will feel it was worthy.
Mairon did not answer. He still didn't feel any love for his own baby, but also didn't want to annoy his master anyway.
- My lord... I think I need to sleep tonight. I don't use to sleep, but I am feeling so tired...
The dark vala smiled:
- So nice to hear this, my darling. It is always a pleasure to sleep with you.
Melkor kissed the maia's lips and he smiled to his lord, but inside he was not so happy.
At that night, Mairon laid side by side with his master and was so tired, only wanting to rest. But the vala seemed to have something more...
- Hun... Mairon, my beautiful minion...
Then the vala started kissing the other and caressing him with "that" intention, but the maia refused it.
- I am sorry, my lord, but the dizzy sensation still didn't leave me completely.
Melkor blinked, not believing the daring of his servant. He never - never in al those centuries - denied sex before!
- Mairon, now what will I do with my lust?
- I don't know. Sorry, I don't know, but I am not willing of pleasuring you now.
The vala got really angry. He thought that could be a kind of vengeance because he, Melkor, had obliged Mairon to maintain the pregnancy anyway.
His first thought was to force Mairon to his will, but in the sex the things didn't work that way. Mairon always had intercourse with him so gladly, than having him against his will would be a "black spot" in that huge and pleasant history of great sex they had. And then, Mairon could be so annoyed with a rape, that he could even quit his service to the vala and just run away.
And he did not want to lose his most trustful, loyal and - yes, it was true - loved ally.
But he wouldn't let the things this way.
- So I am going to have a great night with another one!
- Just go! - Mairon answered in a really bad mood and then turned to the opposite side of Melkor, trying to sleep with no listening to his voice nor seeing his face anymore.
The vala felt even worse, once he wanted to affect the maia in some way and - of course - wasn't well succeeded in his purpose. Knowing that having another lover could equally annoy the maia at the point he could leave his service or still cease loving him, Melkor just turned to the other side and slept in anger and frustration.
But not before hearing a strange noise coming from the maia's side.
Mairon was crying.
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That's it. Not all are flowers with this obscure couple.
I put the things like this because Mairon seemed to be so rational he could not love without a reason. He loved Melkor because of his strenght and willing of doing the things in his own way. But loving a baby only because he/she was being generated inside himself was not a logical thing for him.
Sometimes I put the pronoun "he" to Mairon, sometimes "she", but he is in a woman shape all the time - until the birth of the baby.
And I am still putting the pronoun "he" for the baby because secretly Melkor wants a male... xD and Mairon still doesn't want any baby of any gender, but perhaps he can change his idea soon... xD
Kisses to everyone!
