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If it kills me, Aqualad.

Hello, tell me you know

Yeah, you figured me out

Knock-Knock-Knock.

"Superboy?" A light airy voice called from the other side of my door. I buried my face farther into my pillow and grumbled. As soon as I thought the person had gone away, I heard another knock, even louder this time; KNOCK-KNOCK-KNOCK!

I finally got to my feet, and swung open the door, only to discover it was Miss Martian.

I took in the full view of her as she stood awkwardly with her fingers running through the ends of her hair. I smiled warmly at her in an attempt to seem okay. "Hey, what's up?" I asked, coolly.

She looked me over and frowned, "You're not okay, Superboy." She spoke at last. I sighed, and ushered her to step inside my room. She studied my face, and reluctantly walked in my room and took a seat at the end of my bed, while I shut the door behind her.

Something gave it away

It would be such a beautiful moment

To see the look on your face

To know that I know that you know now

I stood in front of her with my arms crossed over my chest, waiting for her to ask the question that hung in the air. Miss Martian sighed and took my right hand, looking me in the eyes, "Superboy, what's going on with you lately?" She asked.

The sweetness of her voice made me want to tell her everything, but I knew I couldn't…she would look at me like I was a…freak.

She narrowed her eyes at me, "Why can't you tell me?" Her voice broke through the silence, calming my nerves a little.

"I just can't." I finally breathed.

Miss Martian got up, and hugged me around the neck. "I'm worried about you, Superboy. We all are. Well, Kid Flash doesn't seem to care, and Artemis is Artemis, but Robin, Aqualad and I care." She finished, pulling away with a sad smile.

"Talk to me sometime, if you want. I just can tell you're hurting…" she looked me in the eyes once more, "and with you hurting, everyone is affected."

I always knew Miss Martian had a thing for me, but I never knew she cared this much…I took her hand in mine and gave her my bravest smile, "I'm fine."

She seemed to want to argue, but I walked to the door and opened it for her, gesturing for her to leave.

She took a last look at me, and left without saying another word. I felt a little guilty for blowing her off like that, but this wasn't something I could just talk about with someone.

I don't even know how to think of myself anymore, am I gay?

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking

You know nothing

I snuck out of my bedroom, and out the backdoor to smoke a cigarette. I quickly lit one and filled my lungs with the sweet smoke, and blew it out.

"I thought you quit." A familiar voice asked bitterly. I spun around to face Aqualad, and was quickly greeted by the rest of the gang as well. I winced, and threw my cigarette to the ground and stomped out the bud.

"Hey guys." I greeted, trying to act like nothing happened even if I was caught in the act.

Aqualad walked over to me and held out his hand for my cigs, I reluctantly handed them over, but only in time to see my cigarettes engulfed in water.

I jumped up into Aqualad's face, "Hey! What the hell do you think you're doing? I fucking paid for those!" I fumed, my hands balled into fists at my side.

Aqualad narrowed his eyes at me, "Superboy, you need to stop this foolishness. This is an intervention." He said sternly. I looked at the other faces behind Aqualad, and no one would even look at me.

Were they afraid of me?

Miss Martian finally looked into my eyes and slowly nodded her head, as if trying to tell me to let it go and listen to Aqualad. I shook my head, and stormed back inside the house.

I slammed my bedroom door shut and leaned against the door until sliding into a sitting position.

What the fuck was that all about? How could they pull this "intervention" shit on me?

The earlier events with that bitch Alice popped into my mind, where did that little cunt go? I pressed my palms to my forehead and tried to rack my brain for the answer, but honestly, this intervention shit has got me messed up.

Alice and Aqualad, the thought of them kissing…hell, even their names together makes me sick. I seriously need a cigarette, and I can probably think of a thousand different ways to sneak outta here and get them, but I won't.

I'm such an ass sometimes.

Why, we go carrying on for hours on end

We get along much better

Than you and your girlfriend

I finally stood up, and snuck to the bathroom for a little "alone" time.

Shutting the door quickly behind me, I turned on the fan, and so that way no one could hear the relief that I desperately needed.

Pulling the lid on the toilet down, I pulled down my pants and boxers and sat on the toilet.

I grabbed a hold of my quickly hardening member and began to pump up and down; thoughts of Aqualad swirling in my head, making me pump harder and faster.

Well all I really wanna do is love you

A kind much closer than friends use

But I still can't say it after all we've been through

And all I really want from you is to feel me

As the feeling inside keeps building

And I will find a way to you if it kills me

If it kills me

A fantasy filled my mind, making my climax begin to climb:

"Superboy." Aqualad breathed into my ear as he grabbed my member through my pants, making me gasp in pleasure.

I ran my hand down his muscular chest, past his cuts all the way to his naked cock and grasped it in my hand and began to pump.

Aqualad moaned, and his breath on my ear turning me on even more; I began to pump harder and faster.

Aqualad grabbed me harder through my pants, but I stopped for a moment to unbutton and unzip my pants for him.

He saw the opportunity and pulled my pants to my ankles, and took a hold of my cock through the hole in my boxers; I gasped again and moaned as he began to pump me while I was pumping him…

BANG! BANG! BANG!

"SUPERBOY?" A female voice called from the other side of the door.

I sucked in a breath and froze, "What?" I managed to ask through my shaky climax.

"What the hell is going on in there?" she asked, I finally established the voice to Artemis.

Shit.

She ruined my fucking fantasy, the bitch.

"Hello? Are you ok, there were some weird noises and we got worried." She said, the sarcasm practically dripping from her voice. I could almost hear the roll of her eyes.

"I'm fine." I answered gruffly.

I will never be able to get that image out of my mind…I wonder if that-

I stopped my thought and shook my head that would never happen.

"Hello? I need to pee!" Artemis called, "I'm coming." I growled, and quickly dressed my bottom half again.

How long, can I go on like this?

Wishing to kiss you,

Before I rightly explode?

This double life I lead isn't healthy for me

In fact it makes me nervous

If I get caught I could be risking it all

I unlocked the door, and stepped out only to come face to face with Aqualad instead of Artemis.

"Aqualad?" I whispered and thosewere the only words I got out before his lips crushed into mine in a kiss.

Cause maybe there's a lot that I miss

In case I'm wrong

Am I dreaming?