The "What If's" and "Am I Ready's"

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters. All credit goes to Ryan Murphy and CP Coulter.

Summary: This is the sequel to "As You Turn Away," Will Julian ever be brave enough to tell Logan, and Will Logan ever be man enough to find Julian and tell me what his discovered.

Author's Note:Okay, some of the reviews asked if I could write a sequel, and make it a bit happier so this is the result of this. This part is from Logan's point of view. Sorry it took so long, i actually forgot about this... but hopefully it ends up the way you thought it would :) The Song used is "Ready to Love Again" Lady Antebellum.


Part Three: Just When We Think That Love Will Never Find You

Logan looked as shocked as Julian did. 'Where the hell did that come from,' Logan thought to himself. He was leaving, he was going to let Julian walk out of his life again, and he just needed to do this, to let himself have this one moment. One moment where if this did not work out he could cling to for the rest of his life. Then suddenly Julian was talking and then he turned to run away. Logan stayed rooted to the spot. Someone pushed him towards the door that Julian ran out of. He turned to see who it was; Derek pushed Logan again. "Go after him," Derek said as once again he pushed Logan.

Logan took off running as he after Julian, he ran towards the elevator to see it just close. He banged his hand against the door. He glanced around to see the sign for the stairs. He took off running again, taking the stairs two at a time. He had to reach the first floor before Julian. He needed to; he could not let Julian walk out of his life again.


~9 months Earlier~

An alarm went off to his right; he rolled over and hit the snooze button. He rubbed his eyes as he glanced around his room. He pulled the covers over his head as he laid back down. He did not want to get up; he did not want to face the day. He hated the days since one of his best friends left. Suddenly the covers were ripped off his body.

"Up!" Derek said as he walked over to the window. He threw open his curtains and turned to Logan.

"No! I don't want to ... bite me!" Logan said as he tried to pull the covers over his head again.

"Logan, up now. You are going to be late for class. I hate acting like you mother but get your ass out of bed!"

"Fuck off, D!" Logan yelled as he tried to tune out Derek.

"No! Just because Julian left doesn't mean you get mope around now!" Derek yelled before slamming Logan's door shut and storming off. Logan reached under his bed and pulled a hidden photo frame out. He slowly caressed the cheek of the brunette boy in the picture.

"Why did you leave, Jules," Logan said more to himself than to the picture. "I hope it wasn't because of something I did but there's this voice in my head that keeps telling me it was something I did," Logan added as a tear rolled down his cheek. "I miss you so much, that I don't want to be here anymore; there are too many memories of you here," Logan stroked the boy's cheek, he then kissed the picture before putting it back into the picture under the bed again. Logan slowly made his way to the bathroom that was joined to his room. He made it just in time to grab something to eat before rushing off to class.

Logan sat in class just watching the world turn around him, everything had changed, and sometimes he thought it was for the better but sometimes he thought for the worst. He sat in class just lightly tapping the pencil against the side of his desk, when a ball of paper hit his head; he turned to see Kurt glaring at him, and then made a motion to the piece of paper. Logan slowly opened it to see Kurt's neat handwriting.

'Would you stop tapping, I can't think straight! – K'

Logan placed the piece of paper down and pushed his pencil to the front of the table. He then took his normal look as he just stared blankly at the whiteboard. The classes for the rest of the day stayed the same until Logan had lunch. Logan sat across from Derek who was deep in conversation telling him all about his date last night. Logan just kept his eyes on his food.

"Please Logan you can't just mope around," Derek said as he placed his fork down to look at Logan.

"I know, has he called?" Logan said as he looked up at Derek. Derek nodded.

"How is he?" Logan asked, he knew it would hurt to hear about Julian but he could not help it.

"He says filming is going well but he told me he has been focussing on filming,"

"So his been working himself to death," Logan said with a small smile. Derek nodded. "So anything else?" Logan asked.

Derek knew what Logan was asking but he did not want to tell Logan the truth. Derek knew Logan could find out if he wanted but Derek was not going to cause his friend any more pain.

"No, that's it," Derek said as he stood up and walked off to throw away his lunch and head off to practise. Logan just pushed his food around his plate as he pulled out his phone. He scrolled threw his contacts, he pressed call and waited for the usual answer.

'Hey you reached Julian, of course I'm way too busy to take your call but leave a message and I might get back to you,'

"Hey Jules, its Logan. You know your ex-best friend; just making my usual lunchtime call. How are you? Hope your good, my day has been okay... Derek said you have been working yourself to death. Please do not do that, look after yourself. Take care of yourself. I know you do not listen to these but I just hope you do. Well I have to go ... see you soon Jules," Logan pressed the end call button and looked at his phone. He could not say goodbye. He tried every time but he never could. He placed it down on the table in front of him.


~Present Day~

Logan stopped on the first floor to look at where the elevator was, it was sitting on the second floor. He waited to see if it would go up or down; when the elevator light lit up on one. Logan waited for the doors to open. He was suddenly nervous.


~3 months Earlier~

Logan was sitting waiting for warbler practise to be over. Blaine and Kurt were sing a flirty duet and Logan could not stand much more before he walked out of the practice. When Wes tapped the gravel and announced practice over. Logan was the first out of the door. Running off to his dorm room to listen to the music playlist he blared every afternoon. He climbed under his covers and blared the music, softly singing along from under his covers.

"You know I'm even worried about you," Bailey said as he walked into the room, turning off the music so he could talk.

"If you have a death wish you will put my music back on," Logan mumbled from under the covers

"It's okay, I've had a good life but I really need to talk to you,"

"Why?" Logan said as he pulled back his covers.

"Well the first thing, this whole walking death thing is scaring the freshman and the second thing I bet Julian is doing the same thing,"

"Yeah right, he's working himself to death and doesn't even care me, but yet he calls Derek at least once a day,"

"Yeah, don't you have a clue about anything?" Bailey said as he sat down on the edge of the bed. Logan looked very confused.

"Why do you think he buries himself into work?" Bailey looked at Logan; Logan just shrugged. "Because he doesn't want to think about anything, he wants to get lost in his work so he won't think about it,"

"Think about what?" Logan said as he sat up.

"That's what you have to figure out," Bailey said as he clapped his hand on Logan's knee and walked out of the room.

Logan just shook his head and climbed back under the covers and hummed to himself quietly.


~Present Day~

The doors opened and there stood Julian wiping away some tears. He started to walk out until he noticed an out of breath Logan standing in front of him. Julian took a couple of deep breathes before walking out of the elevator.

"Yes Logan?" Julian said with a cold tone.

"What the hell happened back there," Logan said as he heard Julian's tone.

"Nothing," Julian said as he tried to walk past Logan, but Logan stepped right in front of him. "Logan move!"
"Not until you tell me why you ran without giving me a chance to explain,"

"Please I knew what you were going to say, 'I'm sorry Julian I thought you were Kurt, I didn't mean I thing to me cause...'" Suddenly Julian was silenced by Logan grabbing Julian's face and kissing him again with as much passion as he had upstairs. Julian pushes Logan back, and looked at Logan.

"If you let me explain, I could tell you that I knew it was you. I grabbed you, I wanted to kiss you," Logan said

"But you want Kurt not me," Julian said looking at Logan.

"No, I don't. I want you; maybe if you called you would know that. I am just as confused as you are because one, you did not stop me from kissing you the first time,"

"Because I'm Bisexual," Julian said with a small laugh.

"So not straight?" Logan said,

"Not quite as straight as you thought," Julian said just before Logan pulled him into another kiss. Julian placed his hand on the back of Logan's neck and let his fingers play with the hair there. Julian slowly pulled back from the kiss and looked at Logan in the eyes. "Number Two?" he asked

"I can't remember, all went out of my head," Logan said as he leant in again to kiss Julian.

Once again, Julian pulled back and leaned his forehead against Logan's. "How about I've been in love with you since freshman year," Julian whispered waiting for Logan's response.

"You just have to upstage me don't you princess,"

"What?" Julian was slightly confused by that comment.

"I've only been in love with you for a couple of months," Logan said as he gently caressed Julian's cheek.

"Well I didn't mean to upstage you squid but I'm still glad you love me," Julian said with a smirk as he pulled Logan in for another kiss.

"So am I,"

The two headed back upstairs to where everyone was. Logan pulled Julian to the dance fall and pulled him close as the song played threw the speakers.

Seems like I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognize my own reflection, no
Scared of love but scared of life alone

Seems I've been playing on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

Logan sang along with the song in Julian's ear quietly as they swayed from side to side. Julian buried his face in Logan's neck as he listened to Logan sing. Hoping this was not a dream and that this was really happening to him.

Just when we think that love will never find you
You runaway but still it's right behind you, oh
It's just something that you can't control

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

So come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down

It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, I'm ready to love again


One Year Later

Julian lay on the beach towel enjoying the wonderful weather that was Hawaii, on a private beach. Cameron, Clark and the rest of the cast were running around the beach playing. Julian had on his trademark sunglasses and just a black pair of board shorts.

"Hello Sir, I was just wondering if you needed your sun block reapplied?" asked a voice. Julian looked up to see his very handsome boyfriend in white board shorts with the word "Sexy" in black writing down the side.

"Why yes that would be great," Julian said as Logan straddled his hips and drew little hearts all over Julian's chest and stomach; slowly rubbing them in making sure not to leave any sun block visible.

"You two need to get a room," Derek said as he collapse right next to Julian.

"Well we would be this friend of ours won't leave us alone," Logan said as he got up and instructed Julian to roll over. Doing the exact same thing, he did for Julian's chest for his back.

Derek started to hum a cheesy song.

"Get lost Derek," Julian mumbled.

"And take your cheesy porno music with you," Logan added before leaning down and kissing the back of Julian's neck.

"Wow, you need to watch something else than porno's Lo," Derek said as he slapped Logan's ass and ran off. Logan shook his head before rolling off Julian and slowly drawing patterns with his fingers on Julian's back.

"Don't stop," Julian mumbled in a sleepy tone.

"Never," Logan whispered as he leaned in close to Julian and watched him fall asleep.


The End

Maybe?