CHAPTER TWO:
The Nightmare
With the usual checks at the infirmary and the debriefing done, and just about finished at the locker room, there was really no one left except Jack and myself. I was tying my shoe when I heard him close his locker and move a little closer to me.
"Hey, Danny, I was thinking-"
"Jack." Jeez, I can't look at him. How can I? "I'm going to go to my apartment okay? I just..." Not knowing what else to say, I just grab the last of my things and leave.
~!~
It's strange, I don't remember getting here. I barely remember emptying out my fish tank. We've been gone for almost a month, and since I hadn't asked for someone to look for them this long, they were all dead. Since I got here, I basically had done whatever chores were needed to keep busy. Anything to avoid thinking.
By the time I'm done with everything, I realize the sun's already gone. Huh, it's only 8:30. Now what? I could go to... No. I can't go.
How can I? Sure I was glad to see him when he turned up to be alive, with no Goa'uld in him. There shouldn't have been one in him in the first place! Jesus... I was practically suicidal throughout it all. I don't want to loose him. Only how can I possibly be with him?
He shouldn't be with me. How many times has he complained about me touching some alien technology that's gotten us into trouble? Or that I think to much? He's even tried to be patient when I get carried away with translations or finding the details of a new civilization that we've encountered. Being patient's never been his strong suit either. God. He's given me everything, and what have I returned? Nothing but something to complain and worry about. He'll leave me. They always do.
"You're right."
"Jack?" When did he get here? How did I not notice.
"You're right. You're to much trouble. I'm going."
"Going? What? No!"
"You're not worth it Daniel. Besides, I found someone else. Someone that meets my needs."
What? How? It's impossible. I run through the past couple of years. There's no way. Even when we were just friends, there wasn't any time for him to meet someone. Dare I ask?
As I start to ask, she comes and stands by Jack's side. Impossible! She's... dead! Jack killed her. He told me! Sam confirmed it! No!
"You have greatly disappointed us, Our Love."
"Jack... But..."
His eyes suddenly glow.
"Danyel."
I whirl around to see Sha're with Skaara besides her.
"Why, My Danyel?"
"You promised Danyel. Why have you broken your promises? Why have you also forsaken O'Neill?"
This isn't happening.
"Daniel." No... You're not real.
"Danny!"
I jolt up to someone shaking me. What the...
"It's okay. Danny it's okay." What the... Jack. No... Goa'uld.
"Get away from me!"
"Woah Danny, Danny!" I try to run but he grabs my arm and spins me around.
Gripping my shoulders, he says, "It's was just a nightmare."
"Nightmare?"
"Yeah, bad dream."
"Jack?"
"Shhh, it's okay. I've got you."
~!~
I'm not sure how long we sat on my couch, with him holding me. Honestly I didn't really care. I was just glad he was.
"Better?"
All I can do is nod. Some more time passes. "Sorry..."
"Seriously, Danny, you have to stop being sorry for things that aren't your fault."
But it is my fault... You shouldn't have to be here holding me because of some stupid nightmare I had...
Taking a deep breath, I manage to gather the courage in order to go the bedroom. From there, I pull out a duffel bag and start throwing in everything that I can fit in there. I don't want to do this, but I have to.
"Danny? What are you doing?"
Don't answer him. Don't even look at him. It's better this way. He doesn't need me.
"Woah, Danny!" I'm forced to stop as he's grabbing me by the arms again. There's confusion and fear written all over his face.
"Let me go Jack." My voice is strangely flat, which I suppose is good, all things considering.
Aww, jeez, don't do that... He's got that pained expression like he's been stabbed in the chest again. Only this time it's worse.
All we can do is stare at each other for a long moment before he lets go of my arms. I quickly turn around to finish packing as a knot starts to build at my throat. He'll leave me. I know he will.
"Don't do this. Please... Danny..."
I stop at the doorway. I can't do this... Why do I put him through this? I never should have told him that I fell for him. Crap, why can't I move? A part of me wants to run, anywhere. I don't really care, as long as it was safe. Another part wants to stay, but that would be selfish, wouldn't it? Jack'll be able to move on. I'm holding him back. He's better now. Maybe he and Sara could work things out now.
"Danny." His voice though barely audible, the fear and misery clear in his voice. It still makes me jump at the sound of it.
What am I doing? I see myself opening the door of the apartment to leave. Jack... Don't let me... The door's suddenly slamming shut as I'm being whirled around to be pressed against the door. I start to struggle a bit.
"I won't let you, Danny."
A/N: Wording this chapter out has surprisingly been a bit of a struggle, so forgive me if it's complete crap to you guys. Anyways, I was planning on making this story completely in Daniel's POV but let me know you guys prefer I leave it as strictly Daniel or go back and forth similar to the first CSA.
