"Tetsuya!"

Before his eyes a horrid sight is what he sees, his one and only, running towards a speeding car. He wants to save him, but he can't move.

Why can't he move?

Why can't he save his beloved Tetsuya?

He was scared. Scared to lose his whole world.

Once he got to respond to the current dreadful situation he was too late.

The next thing he saw was his Tetsuya covered in blood lying on the streets cold and lifeless.

He then ran up to the bluenette, holding him near him, tightly yet gently, as if he were made of porcelain and would easily break with just one wrong move.

The smell of iron invaded his senses, it horrified him.

"A-Akashi-kun, I'm sorry" the bluenette mumbled weakly , and this caught the redhead's attention-

"What are you apologizing for?!-" he retorted, but, he was too late, as for the bluenette cut him off saying goodbye and slowly closed his eyes and went limp in the redheads hold, the redhead finally broke down repeating the words 'It's all my fault'

Days after the incident Akashi stayed trapped in his room and as the thought of the beloved blue haired teen he took out a pair of scissors and stabbed himself right in his left eye, but didn't scream in pain he kept the pain to himself as his eye bled and once again repeating the words 'It's all my fault'.

Once he recovered, he no longer smiled, his eyes showed nothing but sheer blankness, his once pair of ruby eyes, were now heterochromatic, the right one was still of the color of a ruby but the left one which he had injured was now of the color gold. He now acted cold around others, resulting to them fearing him. But actually, inside, he was only afraid to hurt another once more. He distanced himself from his classmates, friends, and even his own family, fearing that something dreadful may happen again. He tried his best to move on, but it was too hard for him to forget the bluenette, how he only showed his emotions towards him, how his smile seemed to make his day, how his laughs warmed his heart, he just can't forget about all of those that has caused his happiness.

'I love you Akashi-kun' the bluenette's voice rang in his head, it saddened him, but at the same time made him happy, he missed the bluenette, he wants to be with him again, but of course, he can't.

'I am so sorry, Tetsuya. It's all my fault'

'Why must I be such a coward?'

Will he ever be able to move on?


I can't seem to make the chapters long ;-;