A second chapter is ACTUALLY being posted!
"It's going to work out," I said to him, but he gave me a hard look and turned away.
"No, it won't. We need to stop what we're doing," he said. I opened my mouth to say something, but he put his finger over my lips to silence me. He left a lingering kiss on my forehead before squeezing my hand and walking away.
I bolted up from my bed, breathing heavily. I've been having the same terrible dream since that night. I looked over at my alarm clock and saw it was only four in the morning. I groaned and flopped back onto my bed, fully aware of the fact that I wasn't going to bed anytime soon. I stared at the ceiling for who knows how long, just thinking about nonsense. I heard my phone buzzing on my end table, so I rolled over and grabbed it.
'Having fun with Eddie?' I read Rose's text and I rolled my eyes.
'Oh a blast, he's about to go down on me. I'm still up for that threesome though.' I smirked as I hit the send button. Not even two minutes later my phone started to ring.
"Once again, too far. Seriously though, is he there or not?"
"Rose, why would Cullen of all people be in my bed room at four in the morning? Come on, now."
"He passed out asleep after a fun time with Isabella Swan?"
"That's hilarious, Rose – a real knee-slapper," I said and rolled my eyes.
"I thought it was funny. If you're not waiting to go for another round with Cullen, why are you awake?"
"Nightmare," was all I had to say for her to understand.
"Still? I thought they stopped."
"They did for a while, but they came back and now I can't get back to sleep. Anyway, I'm going to finish my morality essay for Fryer's class. The dumb bitch is making it an oral report. I'll let you get back to whatever you and my brother were doing; and before you say anything, no I don't want to be inform so save your breath."
"We were done anyway, so chill. Love you, Bells."
"Love you too," I told her and hung up. I sighed and made my way over to my desk, which was already cluttered with homework. One week into senior year and my teachers have already bombarded everyone with homework. I picked up the paper that I started my essay on and brought it over to my bed. I looked at the topic the essay had to be about and I laughed out loud. How do you feel about friend with benefits? Obviously I was okay with friends with benefits or else I wouldn't have agreed to it, let alone think up the idea. Do you think hook-ups are better than relationships? Relationships required commitment, which I wasn't into. I figured these are all such easy questions, until I saw the last one. How do you feel about sex before marriage? Tough question. I sighed and put the essay to the side, not knowing how to answer the question. I glanced over at the clock and saw I only wasted about twenty minutes. I reached for my phone and saw I had an unread text message.
'I hear you can't sleep' the text read.
'Are you stalking me, Edward?'
'Don't flatter yourself. Your brother called me like he always does after he fucks Rose to make sure I wasn't in your room.'
'Right, do you have to be so vulgar?' I rolled my eyes as I saw his name flash on my screen. "Really Edward? That's just disgusting."
"It's not my problem your brother and your best friend can't keep their hands off of each other for more than three minutes."
"Do you really find it necessary to inform me that they do what they do? It's bad enough I heard it one night; I don't need to hear about it from you, too. Plus, this is considered outside communication. Why are you calling me?"
"That's a stupid rule and you know it, Swan."
"Yeah, I guess," I said and sighed heavily. "You agreed to them!"
"That's beside the point. It's not as if we don't talk ever, you're just not my favorite person."
"The feeling's mutual. Fine, we'll change it to something else. How about no sleeping over after?"
"Get it in, get it done?"
"I can always count on you to be a huge perv about it, but yes."
"Reasonable."
"Glad you think so. I'm going to bed."
"Thanks for the information."
"Fuck off, Cullen," I told him and hung up. I lay down on my bed and snuggled with my pillows. One rule already broken, this isn't a good start.
"Bella!" I heard my pixie-like friend sing my name. I groaned and covered my head with my comforter. I knew it was an obscene hour in the morning since she never woke up later than eight.
"Bella left, come back at twelve," I moaned as I felt the covers pulled from me. "Come on! I got barely any sleep last night, let me sleep!"
"We have school silly," she said and shook her head at me. "Honestly, I'd think you'd get some sleep last night, what were you doing?"
"Nothing Alice," I said and got out of bed. The only people I told about my nightmares were Rose, Nessie, and my brother. Even though Alice is one of my best friends, I never felt comfortable telling her about the dreams. I met Alice my freshman year here since we had almost all of our classes together. We bonded over our hatred for Lauren Mallory, who just so happened to be Alice's roommate for about a week until she got transferred to another room. No one really knows what happened and Alice prefers not to talk about it.
I got dressed quickly and grabbed the box of Oreos that were lying on the counter of my little kitchen area in my room. Charlie decided to use whatever money he received from Renee to put towards single rooms for Emmett and me. 'The two of us didn't need the distractions of a roommate,' he told us when we asked. I just shrugged and went along with it, grateful for the fact that I would have as much privacy as I wanted.
"Oreos? Really, Bella, that's so healthy," Alice reprimanded me as I bit the cookie.
"They're yummy, leave me alone," I said with a full mouth and she rolled her eyes. We walked out of my room as my phone buzzed because of a text. 'Are we on for tonight? Tell me to fuck off if we are.' I read the text at least twice and still didn't understand why I couldn't give him a simple text. As I was looking down at it, someone bumped into me.
"Watch where you're going, Swan," I heard him say and a light bulb went off in my head. That smart bastard.
"Fuck off, Cullen," I told him and turned away.
"Why do you put up with him?" Alice asked as we walked to class.
"I don't. Did you not just hear me?"
"I'd tell Emmett if I was you," she said and I gave her a look. "What? It's what I would do."
"Ali, you grew up an only child in a sheltered life while I grew up with Emmett, two completely different lifestyles. When someone bothers you, you don't run away and tell someone else to handle your problems."
"I know that, but this has been going on for so long."
"It's my source of entertainment," I told her and shrugged it off. Another reason why Alice doesn't know about the nightmares: she wouldn't understand them since she's lived the picture perfect life. Both of her parents are loaded up the ass and still have large quantities of love for each other. Maybe that's why she is a firm believer of true love and thinks Jasper is the one for her, who knows?
"Did you do your morality essay yet?"
"No, I tried this morning when I woke up but I gave up."
"You didn't write an essay this morning. You barely made it to the bathroom without falling on the floor and sleeping."
"I woke up in the middle of the night around four and didn't go back to sleep until five-thirty. Why do you think I'm so exhausted?"
"Oh that would make sense. What'd you have a bad dream?"
"Something like that," I muttered.
"When I have a bad dream I just focus on the positives in my life and I fall right back asleep. Maybe you should try that."
"Yeah, I'll keep that in mind," I told her and rolled my eyes. We walked to class in mostly silence the rest of the way. As much as I love Alice, her optimism really can get on a person's nerves after they only got about two hours of sleep. The two of us had class together, along with Rose. I saw her sitting by the window alone and on her phone. I sat down in the desk next to her and Alice went to the seat in front.
"What's wrong?" she asked. I tilted my head toward Alice and her lips formed an 'o'. "Didn't sleep well last night?"
"Terribly, actually. I don't understand it, you can have sex with Emmett all night and still look fantastic in the morning, but I wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep until an hour later and look like shit."
"Genetics," she stated and I glared at her. "You don't look like shit, but you haven't slept right in the longest time. Normally a person becomes accustom to the amount of hours they sleep, but you're not normal so apparently that doesn't work for you."
"Thanks Rose," I said and rolled my eyes. "So what are we doing tonight?"
"Dinner with everyone. What else do we do, Bella?"
"I'm going to be obese if we keep eating."
"Is Jasper coming in?" Alice asked excitedly. "I don't want to end up like a fifth wheel."
"Maybe, I don't know yet. Plus, you wouldn't be a fifth wheel anyway, it's not like Bella and Edward date; she hates him."
"Exactly, I'd probably end up ignoring him the entire night anyway."
"No, the two of you are going to end up arguing like you do every other time we all go out together. I don't understand why Emmett just doesn't put a stop to it though. I'm sure if he told Edward to stop, he would," Alice said and pushed her short, black hair behind her ears.
"Because I don't run to my brother to solve my problems. I told you this before," I told her and huffed in annoyance.
"Exactly, plus it provides entertainment for the rest of the table. Emmett gets a kick out of their arguments, especially when things get physical," Rose said.
"Remember that one night at the movie theaters when I slapped Edward across the face and he smacked my ass, and when I asked him why he did that," I said.
"He said because he can't actually hit a girl so smacking your ass would do," Rose finished and the two of us were hysterical laughing.
"I don't get why it's so funny," Alice said and the two of us gave her a look. The bell rang, indicating that class began, and Alice turned around in her seat to face the front. Rose and I looked at each other and rolled our eyes, knowing exactly what the other was thinking.
"I am starving," Emmett said as he slammed his tray down on the table we were all sitting at.
"Emmett, hungry? No," Edward said.
"Yeah!" Emmett all but screamed. "I haven't eaten since third period."
"Oh how did you survive fourth period? You poor thing you," I said and picked up a fry off of Edward's tray.
"Fat ass, go eat your own food," Edward said and moved his food out of reach.
"I didn't get food, smart ass."
"Then get something, dumbass."
"Listen, jackass," I started to say but got cut off.
"Assholes! Shut the hell up," Nessie said as she sat down next to me. "Bells, if you're so damn hungry take my fries."
"Did I ever tell you that you're my favorite, Ness?"
"Yes, but it's nice to be reminded every once in a while."
"If you keep buying me food, I'll make sure you know it every day of your life."
"As fantastic as that sounds, I'd go broke because you eat as much as your brother. No wonder why your kitchen was always empty growing up; the both of you are garbage disposals," she said and popped a chip into her mouth.
"I resent that, I am not a garbage disposal," I said defensively.
"No, you're right. She's more like a gavone," Jacob said and I stuck my tongue out at him.
"Tongues belong in either your own mouth or someone else's," Edward said and I glared.
"Sure as hell won't be yours," I sneered and stuff more fries in my mouth. He smirked at me, placed his hand on my upper thigh and squeezed it, causing me to jump. I smacked him upside the head and turned back towards the rest of the table. "So what exactly are we doing tonight?"
"Dinner, of course, since Emmett can't go five minutes without eating a full meal," Jake said. "Then, I don't know. We could do anything."
"There's always the movies. We could go see whatever's out," Alice suggested.
"I don't want to spend money though. We're already spending a lot at dinner, a movie is just overkill. We could go back to someone's room to watch something we already have," Rose said and everyone agreed. "Okay, so how about this. The girls pick where we're going to eat and the guys pick the movie because I know if we let Emmett pick where we're gonna eat, we're going to end up in Olive Garden again. As much as I love their food, if I eat another breadstick I'm going to vomit."
"You don't have to eat the breadsticks, they have other food there," Emmett said and everyone threw food at him. "Alright fine! But no complaints about the choice of movie, deal?"
"Deal," we all said.
We the rest of the lunch was surprisingly peaceful. Edward and I were civil toward one another for some strange reason. The bell rang and everyone started leaving the cafeteria.
"Bella, we have bio, let's go," Edward said impatiently.
"Relax yourself, Cullen, I'm coming," I said and got up from my chair.
"Oh really, you're coming?" he said and smirked.
"Haha, the sexual innuendos are always a riot."
"They're clever."
"Right, because that hasn't been used by everyone old enough to know what it means to come."
"Well isn't someone a bitch this lovely day. Were you too worked up after you got off the phone with me that you couldn't sleep the rest of the night?"
"Eat me, Edward," I spat.
"Anytime," he said and winked before he walked into the classroom. I huffed and followed him to our lab table. Of course Mr. Banner partners Edward and me up for the entire year. He tries to make student-to-student relationships better, but Edward and I can't agree on shit. We have daily arguments in class.
Lauren Mallory walked into class and gave the scariest smile I've ever seen in my life to Edward. She might have thought it was sexy and seductive, but it reminded me of that scary grimace murders always gave their victims in scary movies. I glanced over at Edward, who was suddenly busy doing homework. I started laughing out loud at his actions and got looks from the entire class.
"What's so funny, Swan?" he whispered.
"You. You're afraid of Mallory over there. I could beat the crap out of her blindfolded with both hands tied," I said once my breathing went back to normal.
"You don't know what she did to me," he said and shuddered.
"Aw, you wanna talk about it, princess?"
"She bit my dick!" he half-whispered, half-yelled. I tried so hard not to laugh that tears were streaming down my face, but the serious look on his face was my breaking point.
"She what?" I screamed in between hysterics.
"You heard what I said, and I don't find it all that funny. It hurt like a mother."
"I'm sorry, but that is the funniest thing I ever heard," I said and tried to calm myself down. "I think I remember Emmett mentioning that happening to one of his friends, but I didn't know it was you."
"Yeah, and I'd rather not talk about it. It starts to throb in pain when someone mentions what happened."
"Poor baby, do you want mommy to rub it for you?" I purred in his ear as my hand traveled up his thigh. I felt his leg tremble and I giggled. "Men are too easy to get turned on. Promise any type of contact with their prized possession and they stand at attention for you."
"As if girls are any better," Edward said, and then moved closed to me to whisper in my ear. "Just whisper to them how hard they're going to come later tonight and they leak like a broken faucet."
"Not true," I said shakily, which caused Edward to chuckle. I shoved him away and focused my attention to the front of the room, where Mr. Banner was writing notes about evolution since he knew no one was paying attention. I started copying the notes down when I felt someone tap me on the shoulder. I turned around and saw Mike Newton standing behind me. He's been practically in love with me since freshman year when I felt bad that he wasn't talking to anyone so I took it upon myself to make him feel not as lonely. Worst. Mistake. Of. My. Life. He followed me around like loyal golden retriever for the rest of freshman year, all of sophomore year, and half of junior because that was the one time I felt that Emmett needed to intervene.
"Hey Bella," he said nervously.
"Oh hi Mike. What's up?"
"Nothing, I was just wondering if you'd go to the party Tanya was throwing."
"Isn't that in two weeks?"
"Yeah, but I figured I'd ask you before anyone else did," he said and I saw his eyes flicker quickly to Edward back to me. "So, what do you say?"
"I don't know, I was kind of planning on just going single and my with friends."
"Just think about it, we could have a lot of fun," he said and winked before he walked away. I stared blankly at the area he was just standing in before I shook my head and turned back around, only to find Edward snickering.
"It's not funny, Fuck-ward," I told him. "He's been stalking my life for years now!"
"Newton? He's a bastard, but he's harmless. The furthest he's ever gone with a girl is attempt to finger her, but he couldn't figure out how to."
"Alright, thanks for the update," I said and gave him a disgusted look. "That still doesn't mean he's not a huge creeper who obviously wants to get in my pants because he's obsessed with me."
"The only way he could get into your pants is if he can figure out how to open them, which he also had problems with. The kid is a huge spaz."
"Thanks for the reassurance," I said sarcastically.
"That's why I'm here," he said and grinned widely.
"I'm so full," Nessie said as she walked into Edward's room with Jake. She plopped down on his couch and pulled Jake down too so she could cuddle into his side. "What movie are we watching?"
"Oh it's a surprise," Emmett said mysteriously and grabbed Rose around the waist to pull her closer to him. Jasper had made it down to see everyone, so the two of them walked in hand-in-hand and sat in Edward's arm chair together. I almost threw up at the sight of them. Then, Edward and I walked in as the final "couple", arguing as usual.
"Was it really necessary to tell the waiter what size bra I wear?" I asked him.
"It got you a free dinner, didn't it? Plus, you got his number. I did you a favor, Swan. You're welcome," he said and lay down on his bed.
"You expect me to thank you for having a sixteen year old waiter stare at my chest the entire time, fat chance," I said and sat on the floor.
"He looked like a good fuck, Bells, I was doing you a favor," he said and lifted me by my arms to bring me on the bed with him.
"I don't need you to do me any favors, and what the hell are you doing?"
"I know the movie Emmett brought and you're not going to want to sit on the floor during it."
"Why, what is it?"
"The movie you cried during when we went to see it in theaters and held on to me so tight I thought you we were going to need the Jaws of Life to get you off," he said and I looked at him, expecting to see him smirking, but he wasn't.
"You mean?" I asked and trailed off as he nodded. "I'm going to call it a night." I went to make a run for the door, but Emmett blocked me and threw me back onto the bed.
"Oh no, darling sister. Everyone agreed to no complaints about this movie, so you have to stay."
"Emmett, come on! This is just cruel. You know this movie scared the shit out of me for months," I argued, on the verge of tears.
"I chose it, no complaints," he told me as he put the scariest movie ever into the DVD player – Dead Silence. I wrapped my arms around my knees and hid my head so I didn't have to watch the movie. I felt someone wrap their arm around me and I screamed. "Bella shut up! The movie didn't even start yet you big baby."
"Fuck you, Emmett. Just wait," I said menacingly. I realized it was Edward who pulled me closer. "What are you doing?" I asked him.
"Just relax," he said. "I feel bad."
"You feel bad for me?"
"I am capable of that," he said. "You're genuinely scared of this movie and Emmett's just doing this because he can. Just cover your eyes and I'll tell you when it's over."
"Thanks," I said and moved closer to him so I could hide my face into his chest. He smelled like Fierce cologne from Abercrombie and Fitch, the best cologne ever known to man. I started to relax as he rubbed my back soothingly, and soon enough I dozed off.
"You can't leave me here like this," I said as tears streamed down my face. He turned around to face me and sighed.
"This is how it has to end. I'm sorry,"
I sat up from Edward's bed and felt the tears rolling down my face again. I looked at the screen and saw the girl about to get her tongue cut out, so I screamed and buried my face into Edward's chest. He ran his hands through my hair to try to calm me down, but it wasn't working.
"Bella, are you okay?" I heard Rose asked and I shook my head. "What is it?" I lifted my head and she saw my tear-stained cheeks. "Again?" I nodded my head. "This isn't good."
"You're telling me," I mumbled and put my head back to Edward's chest. He held me tighter and I sighed. I felt safe, which was weird because I haven't felt that way in a long time. What was even weirder was that I felt like that in the arms of a kid I couldn't say two words to without starting an argument. I stopped thinking, and breathing, when I felt Edward's hand skim my thigh. "Edward," I hissed.
"Yes," he answered innocently.
"Not now," I said through clenched teeth. "Wait until they leave."
"How are we going to manage that?" he whispered.
"I'll pretend to be asleep, you tell them you'll bring me back to my room when I wake up."
"Alright, I'll let you know when the movie ends," he said and I nodded. He went back to playing with my hair and I started to relax again.
"Are you sure you don't want me to carry her to her room?" Emmett asked.
"No, it's fine. She'll probably bitch at you the entire way there," he said and Emmett agreed. I felt people kiss my forehead and I heard the door shut. "They're gone."
"I hate Emmett," I said as I moved off of Edward.
"True, but it gave you an excuse to stay here longer," he said. He rolled on top of me and started to pepper my neck with kisses.
"Edward," I said breathlessly in his ear. I felt him smirk against my collar and his hands moved down to my jeans. "You sure you can figure out how to open them?"
"Yeah, I can also figure out how to do what Newton couldn't," he said and smirked as he pulled my pants down.
"I would hope so," I said and pulled him down to kiss me.
Two moments of bliss for me and one for him later, we were lying on his bed talking.
"So before, why'd you sit up crying? I know it wasn't from the movie," he asked.
"It's a long story. I don't really want to get into it right now," I said and avoided his gaze. He said okay and moved on to the next topic. That was one of the few things I liked about Edward, his ability to take someone's answer and know there's more to it but not press for it, and of course is magic fingers. "I should go."
"It's two in the morning. Why don't you just stay?"
"No sleepovers. Remember?" I told him and he rolled his eyes.
"Rules are meant to be broken," he whispered and kissed me.
"Not these rules. Goodnight," I said and kissed his cheek.
"Night Swan," he said. "Don't think about me too much."
"Fuck off, Cullen," I said and shut the door. I made my way back to my room unnoticed by anyone and laid down on my bed, willing myself to have a peaceful, nightmare-less sleep.
I'm so proud of myself. I wrote & finished a second chapter & it's like almost 5,000 words long (4,671 to be exact). So, how was this chapter? Bella doesn't have any romantic feels toward Edward yet, and the same with him, so don't think I'm going to rush through this story; at least I'm going to try not to. PRAY for this story, please. (REVIEWS are still & always will be counted as prayers. :])
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