Hello everyone! i'm so sorry for the late update! i wasn't so inspired that was why it took long - i felt sad because only one person reviewed :( ... but anyway :D i've moved on :P hehe

so... here's the third chapter ^_^ i hope you enjoy! :)

Disclaimer: i SADLY do not own Gakuen Alice


Previously:

She was NOT allowed to lose it. She couldn't possibly. She had to be composed.

She was walking back to her home, determined not to make a fool out of herself and her family.

Vexation: My Frustrations and Worries

Chapter 3 - Clarity

The morning went by uninterestingly. Mikan did the same thing she always did in the morning; woke up cheerily, greeted her parents with a big smile, and ate her delicious breakfast. She had nothing planned that day and both her parents had no errands for her to do. Her father went to the corporation to talk about something with the board. He didn't tell her what—she wasn't really given an opportunity to even ask—the moment she went down the stairs, he was already waving goodbye to her. Her mother, in the other hand, left after breakfast because she had to take care of her restaurant which is under the Sakura Corporation.

So, there she was, at home alone with nothing planned for the day. She wasn't in the mood for any company so I guess, in a way, it's a good thing her parents were both busy and out of the house.

After staring blankly for a few minutes, she decides to take a LONG walk. She gets dressed, taking her precious time, making sure she doesn't hurry. After an hour of slowly getting dressed, she's out on the street, walking calmly. Her mind started reminiscing about the times she was able to be herself, which were very few times.

She recalled the time when she had her 8th birthday. She had such a grand party. All her relatives, friends, and even celebrities – yes, famous people – were there. They all gave her wonderful gifts. Gifts that every 8 year old would be jumping around with joy for but she wasn't like any 8 year old. She accepted all her gifts with a grateful smile but never more than that. When the party was over and she was alone in her room, that was when she was able to jump for joy. When she was all alone – was when she showed how happy she truly was. The moment her parents entered the room, she was calm and collected. She acted as if she wasn't jumping for joy a few seconds ago.

Another time was when she was in the park and some boy was irritating her. She just smiled at him as if what he was doing wasn't getting to her. No matter how hurtful the words the boy was uttering to her, which he was doing out of his own fun, she acted indifferent to him and still acted kindly towards the boy. The moment she was all alone, knowing no one could see or hear her - she … CRIED. She cried her heart out and after she cried, she screamed. She screamed all of her anger out.

Her real self – her masked self… the cheerful girl that wants to do childish things, show her real feelings about things and be free from her responsibilities – the girl that has to always act calm and always keep her responsibilities as top priority.

She knew she could never be herself to anyone and it was clear to her that her façade was what everyone will, correction -SHALL – see.

But sometimes -

Mikan sighed. She has no other choice; she has to make her façade her real self. Force it on herself if she has to.

-End of Chapter 3-


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