Pairing: Raziestiel (Harry/Castiel), past Harry/Draco
Timeline: before Death takes a holiday (4.15) for Supernatural. Okay I lied earlier, it's not an AU after Deathly Hallows but after Order of the Phoenix, there's still some facts from HBP and DH though (including Dumbledore's death, the horcruxes and the hallows). No Harry/Ginny. The war was also gorier and more violent than it was in DH.
Rating: T (but there will be an M rated drabble in the future :D)
Warnings: SLASH. Unbeta'd. Angst. English is not my native language so feel free to correct me if you see any mistake ;)
Word count: 566
Disclaimer: Harry owns Castiel. Castiel owns Harry. I own neither of them much to my chagrin.
A/N: Just to warn you, it won't be all love and fluff at first. They might have kissed, it doesn't mean they will instantly get together. There are still lots of issues between them, especially with Harry's human past and Castiel blindly following the orders at this point of the story. So they will have to get over it first before they can be together.
The drabble is in Harry's POV this time. I'm probably going to alternate between the two of them.
IMPORTANT. Read the A/N after this.
EDEN
Crossroads
Something wasn't right. He felt it. A whisper in the wind.
He might not have his angel powers anymore, he could still feel when one of his brethren was around. And this time it was not Castiel.
"Hello Anna, it has been a long time."
"Raziel."
He wasn't surprised she instantly recognized him. The fallen could not stay hidden from each other even with the most powerful glamour. Human magic could only do so much, unfortunately.
"Why are you there for?"
"Someone is killing the angels, we fell but they are still our brothers and sisters so I thought you ought to know. Four already died."
"I know," he murmured softly.
As guilty as he felt toward these deaths, he couldn't bring himself to care however. There were the last thing on his mind these last few days. Two weeks had passed since he had last seen the blue-eyed angel. Since their first kiss. Just after that, Castiel had left in a flutter of black wings, leaving the fallen angel lost and breathless. He didn't know what to think of this. At first his emotions were too blurry to make anything out of it but then it became all too clear all of a sudden. He knew he had started falling in love with the angel the moment he pronounced his true name. He closed his eyes briefly. It should not have happened. After he had promised to himself not to become involved with someone for fear they might get hurt because of him – he refused to let his thoughts wander to Draco - he suddenly fell for Castiel. Hard. He could not afford it though.
"You love him." It wasn't a question.
A sad smile played on his lips. Green eyes clouded over with melancholy. For as far as he could remember of his former life, his sister had always managed to figure him out.
But no matter how hard she tried, she would never understand his current inner turmoil.
"You should leave Anna."
Another flutter of wings signalled her leaving. Harry sighed in relief, pleased that his sister understood his need for privacy. Wrapping his arms around his legs, he returned to his somber musing.
He fell. He might have left Heaven of his own accord, his soul was still tainted beyond belief. The fallen angel recoiled abruptely as he thought of the horcrux that had been inside him for more than sixteen years. Such a dark magic had left a trace, carved deep inside his being. Even with the horcrux now gone, he could still feel the darkness, there, tempting and seductive, whispering to him fulfilled promises in the future. Had he truly been human, he would surely have succumbed to it. Only his own essence managed to keep the darkness at bay. But sometimes, he feared it wasn't enough.
Castiel had been right when he said he had changed. That was one of the few reasons he couldn't afford his affection for the angel to become something more. He sometimes wished he was selfish enough to let it happen. Selfish enough to let someone open his heart for once. He wasn't.
The blue-eyed angel deserved something more than a trashed soul, broken and used so many times.
He couldn't offer him what he would want. Because he didn't have anything worthwhile to give anymore.
A/N: I didn't want to include Anna at first but she kinda invited herself so I had to deal with it lol. Still, it allowed me to introduce the idea with the fallen angels who can recognize each other even with a glamour *hint hint*
No Harry/Castiel interactions in this drabble sorry. But I promise there will be in the next one!
IMPORTANT
An anonymous reviewer (*wave to Priss_kimio*) asked me if I could make this fic a Dean/Harry/Castiel. Since I find the idea quite enticing, I've just made a POLL to see if you want me to write this pairing as a stand-alone of the Eden Series. You can now vote in my profile =)
Questions about the story
Is there a way for Harry to get his Grace back or is he stuck as fallen? (by kirallie)
I decided to answer there too so you can all read my response! Harry may be able to get his grace back... or may not, you will all see in the future. So far I planned to write drabbles for the second half of season 4 and the season 5, there is still time for Harry to get his grace back then ;)
Reviews are appreciated as always. Thanks in advance!
