Chapter 3
A/N
This starts out with dream sequences with all the characters. Some events will go by the actual Degrassi episodes, and some will be completely made up scenarios… what if you saw a glimpse or two futures, what if you could see what makes you happy? Would you search out that path?
Holly J's dream
I feel as though I'm falling, and can't catch my breath all at the same time. Suddenly I see 2 curtains, behind one curtain I can see Sav. I take a peek at there I am, I see a family setting down for dinner, everyone looks happy except me. "Tell mommy about your day Jaydan." Sav tells a little girl who looks to be about 8 years old. The girls mouth opens, but before any sound comes out, I'm transported to a bedroom. It's small and very cold. I see Sav and I arguing. At first I can only see the argument, but next the audio kicks in high gear. We're fighting over money, and how he's never home. He screams that I never understood his music, and his life as a musician means more to him than our relationship. The sound is gone again as I look over to see, hanging on the wall a small diploma. I read the words "Toronto University. Holly J. Bhandari, education." I'm so confused, I'm heading to Yale! I would never become a teacher… I plan to take over the world. I'm crying hard as I run out to I have to see what was behind the second curtain.
I run for what feels like miles, before I can see the second curtain, my head in down by knees as I catch my breath. I see a bright light emerging. I walk in slowly, I see myself lying in a hospital bed. I look horrible. I see Fiona talking with a lady with short strawberry blonde hair, she looks a lot like me. I've never met this lady, but I'm strangely drawn to her. She hands Fiona a dress, then walks out the door. Suddenly it's dark, I'm all alone in the room. I'm in horrible pain, I'm weak, I can't speak. I hear voices, but can't see anyone. "The kidney transplant looks to be a success." I hear. Kidney transplant? What is going on … suddenly I'm walking across the stage at Yale, I look happy and healthy. It flashes to a dinner at a fancy restaurant, Fiona is sitting to my left, she picks up my hand and I see a huge diamond on my ring finger. I quickly turn to my right there is Declan smiling, he leans in to kiss me. I feel loved, and happy, I feel I can do anything. This is where I need to be.
Bianca's dream
I'm walking down an ally, it's cold and dark. I feel if someone is following me, but every time I turn around I'm alone. I hear screaming, and gun fire, I'm petrified! Suddenly the walls of the buildings start closing in on me no matter what way I turn is a brick wall.
My body melts down, I'm hugging my knees, I feel the tears roll down my cheeks. They seem to cut me like razor blades. When I am able to calm myself down I bit, I look up to see Vince standing in front of me, he grabs me by the back of the hair pulling me to my feet. He's waiving a gun in my face, screaming at me to get him his money. Then pushes me away. I'm walking down a busy street in a bad neighborhood. I have on a tight, low cut blue dress with a split up the side. I have on thigh high boots and fishnet stalkings. I'm standing by a stop sign and a car pulls up, and I get inside. Next thing I see black, I feel hands around my throat, I feel myself kicking and fighting until my body goes limp.
Next thing I know I'm back in the ally, I feel arms around my shoulders. My first response is to fight, but as turn to punch whoever it is behind me, I see Drew smiling. Suddenly I don't feel the fear I once had. He is very comforting, as he wraps me in his arms I see flashes of images. I see us sitting around a dinner table with his family. I see us standing in a meadow, as he gets down on one knee, I see myself standing by him in a wedding gown. I feel loved, I feel special, I feel like I finally have self worth.
Ali's dream
I'm in Paris, it's breathtaking. I am walking alone, I stop at a cafe. The waiter is dreamy, he offers to take me out and show me the city. It's just like a movie! He seems sweet, and I can tell he really likes me.
Suddenly I'm back in Toronto, but I don't feel sad. I look over and see the mysterious Frenchman holdong my hand, I toss a bouquet of flowers and get into a cab. Suddenly it's dark. His eyes turn red, and he attacks me. I'm fighting, but he seems to have more control. He throws me out the door and on to the street.
Next thing I'm in the hospital talking to the police as my parents pace back and forth. I'm swollen, my arm is in a cast, and I can't tell them who did this to me. I have a weird feeling it's because I betrayed them, by marrying this guy.
Next thing I'm in a lab, working like crazy. I see I'm tired, but can't stop. Then I'm in a meeting with my parents, principal Simpson and some other guy. He is offering me early acceptance to MIT. Everything fades to black, I see myself older as the light slowly comes back. I feel like I'm all alone, I sit in a busy restaurant at a table for one. After I pay my bill, I walk alone down the street. I turn a corner and see a book store, there's nothing spectacular about it, but I go in. I start to rummage through the shelves looking for something that catches my eye. When I turn the corner I accidentally bump into someone, I look up to see Johnny. I knew in my heart it I was meant to be in that store in that exact moment.
Once again everything goes black, as everything comes into focus, I see myself in a hospital bed holding a tiny baby. Johnny sits beside me on the bed and softly kisses the baby's forehead, and then me on the lips.
Adam's dream
I see a girl, she has long strawberry blonde hair. I can feel my heart fluttering around her. I feel someone pulling her away. I can tell she doesn't want to go, but she is suddenly swept away. I turn around to look for her and see her in a white dress being dunked into a river. The river turns black, but she comes out sparking clean.
Next thing I know we are running down a hallway, we are ducking in and out of rooms. It seems like we are hiding from something. Once we feel safe, she kisses me. Finally I'm driving, I'm very angry. I pull out my phone, I look up to see a tree and everything goes black.
Soon there's a light, I'm in a very fancy loft. I see Fiona pour a drink and down it, and pour another heading over to join me on a couch. I don't feel the butterflies like I did with the first girl. It feels awkward, like Fiona doesn't want to be there with me. I get angry at something she says and bolt out the door.
I'm back with the same strawberry blonde, we are back running down that hallway again. Instead of hiding with her I just walk away. Even tho I feel heartbroken, I know it's the right thing to do.
I'm in New York, I'm sitting at a table I'm signing autographs. I can't tell why I'm there, but everyone is excited to meet me. They take pictures of me and I feel adored. A beautiful red head comes up and I get those same butterflies. Suddenly I'm wisked away to an apartment. I'm sitting on a couch playing my bass, I hear something and look up to see the redhead walk in.
Sav's dream
I'm staring at a pregnancy test with a plus sign, I'm still in my cap and gown from graduation. I see Holly J. crying as I look back and forth between her and the test. Soon the pregnancy test I'm holding is a baby wrapped in a pink blanket. It's crying. I set the baby down in a bassinet, and pick up guitar and start playing, the baby calms down, and is soon asleep.
I'm now in a recording studio, that looks to of been a garage with Peter. We finish mixing a track and he hands me a beer. I look at the clock and the hands are spinning out of control. Something is keeping me from leaving. I walk in a door, and see Holly J she looks upset. She starts screaming and throwing things at me, I see the little girl, my daughter crying on the stairs. It's heartbreaking.
Suddenly I'm sitting in a dorm room at university. I'm happy sitting there writing my music. Next I'm back in a recording studio, it's a real studio, unlike the one Peter and I were in. I have my headphones on listening to the most amazing voice I'd ever heard. I look up and see a petite blonde with big blue eyes, smiling at me as she sings. After the song is finished, the blonde siren comes out and sits in my lap. She gives a passionate kiss.
Next thing I'm walking the red carpet at the music awards. The blonde is on my arm, we smile for the cameras, before entering and taking our seats.
Drew's dream
I'm sitting in a bar, I'm maybe 40, and feel so alone. I pull a picture from my pocket. It looks to be an ultrasound picture, it has been crumpled up and taped back together on the back is scribbled the name "ADAM".
Suddenly I'm transported to Degrassi, I'm in the student council room. There's an attractive brunette girl in there with me. She is putting her clothes back on as am I. I can tell I don't have any feelings for her, yet we've obviously just had sex. I say something and she runs out in tears.
I'm now in a hallway, each door I open is basically the same senerio. A girl getting redressed and runs out crying after I make a rude remark. I get to the last door in my hall of one night stands, when I open it, I'm shocked to see Clare. She's dressed in a old time saloon girl costume, and I'm dressed like a sheriff. I can tell I'm getting ready to break her heart when, Eli appears and they start fighting, I just leave her there.
I see Bianca, my heart is about to pound out of my chest. She looks amazing , she is in a beautiful wedding dress. I take her hands, and I am so in love. Mom suddenly breaks in pulling us apart. Bianca runs off crying.
I'm now sitting at a family dinner, mom hands me a small box. It's grandma's ring, this is mom giving us her blessing. I turn to Bianca and get down on one knee, she kisses me as we both cry happy tears.
Next I see Bianca. She is leaving, my heart breaks into a million pieces. I feel numb I lay on the floor, and feel like everything is spinning. Next I'm crossing the stage receiving my diploma from Degrassi. Mom turns to me and asks, "what I plan to do now that I have my whole life ahead of me." I look at mom and smile we both seem to know what is coming next, as I jump in the car and start driving.
I'm walking a long hallway, I seem to be in a dorm. I see door E5 and knock. The door slowly opens, I see Bianca standing in front of me. I embrace her in my arms, everything feels right.
K.C.'s dream
I'm standing in a hospital, I'm handcuffed to Bianca. Jenna is laying in a hospital bed holding our son, he looks a lot like me. I can't help but beem with pride and joy. Jenna looks absolutely beautiful.
Fast forward to non-stop crying. There's not a moment of peace, Jenna and I are fighting. She asks for diapers, even tho there's still a pack left, I head out to buy more. I need to escape.
I end up at little miss steaks, it's nice to be around others my age. Marisol is there, she's flirting with me. Attention is nice, Jenna just argues with me. I end up getting a dishwasher job, mainly because we need the money, but I have to admit I love the idea of getting out of the house.
Next thing I know we are signing papers as a lady walks out the door with our son. I can't breathe, he's mine… why is he leaving…
Flash to mom, and I hiding in our apartment. Someone is banging on the door, mom is very upset. I call the police, and finally the pounding stops, and eveything fades to black. Then I'm standing outside of Degrassi, all my friends are hugging me. My chest feels heavy, I look behind me and I see mom. The car is packed, and we take off.
I'm back at the cabinet staring at the pack of diapers, I turn around and hand one to Jenna. I take the baby and put him in a stroller, I tell Jenna to relax. After a few moments he's quiet. We walk to the park, I sit on the bench and hold him. I don't want to lose him and promise to be a better dad to him, than mine was to me.
Jenna and I are aitting on the stage at graduation. I see mom in the audience holding my son. He looks just like me, but with Jenna's eyes. Next I see Jenna and I graduating university, theres my boy again sitting with mom in the audience. After we exit the stage he runs over to me, and jumps in my arms. "I love you daddy!"
Anya's dream
I'm at a club with Owen, I'm very sad. He holds me in his arms, he's trying to comfort me. I walk into the bathroom, I see Bianca with that Chloe girl. They both see I'm upset, Chloe offers me cocaine. I decide to stop being a good girl, and try it. I feel amazing, I feel like I could take on the world.
I walk back to Owen, he looks me up and down. He can tell I'm high, and he's angry at me. Instead of trying to fix things, I find a random guy on the dance floor and start grinding on him. I see Owen walk out the door, I can tell he's hurt, but I don't care.
I feel like crap, both physically and mentally. I'm trying to make up with Owen, but he's still hurt and angry. He loads his gear onto a bus, and leaves. I'm all alone.
Next it's like 10 years later, I'm at a Degrassi reunion. I'm scanning the room looking for Owen, I finally see him, and take off walking his way. Before I can reach him, a very attractive, and very pregnant blonde walks up beside him. He lovingly kisses her as he introduces her to all our old classmates. I watch as he holds her tight protecting her, it's so loving.
I take off and sit in my car, I rummage through my purse, and find what I'm looking for. I pull out a needle and shoot something into my arm. I see the needle marks up and down my skin. I look up to see my reflection. It looks as of I've been doing hard drugs for quite a while, I look like death.
I'm back in the bathroom of the club, I walk away while Chloe takes a bump of coke. I see Owen right where I left him. I smile at him and we walk out hand in hand.
I'm at a hockey game, Owen is playing. It's halftime and the advertisements are scrolling on the jumbotron. I look up to see, "Anya will you marry me?" Owen skates over to the glass, gets down on one knee and holds up a ring. The security escorts me down to the ice. I'm crying tears of joy, I'm so happy.
Flash to me sitting in the middle of a pink bedroom reading a book to the left of me is a little girl with Owen's blue eyes and my aulbern hair. To my right is a little girl with dark hair sound asleep. The brunette looks to be maybe 4, and the aulbern haired looks to be 6. I kiss them both on the cheeks, and head out the door and down the steps. I see Owen sitting on the couch watching t.v., he turns when he hears my footsteps. He gives me a hug and puts his hand on my stomach, I look down to see I'm very pregnant.
Eli's dream
CRASH! Sirens fill the air, I can't move my leg. My mind is racing, I need to see Clare, where is she. She's mad at me, I know this will get her attention… where is she!
I'm transported to the center of a stage, Fiona is behind me. I'm going on a rant about how there is no happy ending. I pick up my script and light it on fire, I clasped to my knees and just stare at the flames. My dad comes up behind me, trying to console me. I feels as though I'm having a mental breakdown, like I did when I lost Julia.
Next, I'm in a horse drawn carriage holding Clare in my arms. Everything feels right, but something isn't. I don't want to let go, but I have to. I'm transported to a dorm room. I'm on the phone with Clare, so everything must be okay. She tells me she's in New York and needs a palce to stay.
I'm holding Clare's hand I see a doctor, he's looking at a monitor. He turns the monitor to show us a baby. "Adam" we say in unison.
I'm back in my dorm room, a attractive blondw is in the bed next to me. She keeps looking over and smiling at me. It feels awkward, I just keep looking at photo of Clare on my phone.
I wake up my head is pounding, the room is spinning. My arm feels numb, I turn to see the blonde laying beside me on the bed. Neither of us have on any clothes. My phone rings, it's Clare's ring tone. I can't reach it. I see my arm is hand cuffed to the bed. The blonde picks up my phone and starts taking pictures of me laying naked in the bed with her. "This should take care of your girlfriend " the blonde laughs.
I'm sitting alone in a apartment, I'm maybe in my late 30's. I'm going through pictures of me in Clare from high school. I pick up a gun, put it in my mouth.
Jenna's dream
I'm signing on a stage surrounded by thousands of screaming fans. It's an amazing rush. I walk off the stage, and head to my dressing room. I grab a water bottle, snd fall over on the couch. I'm exhausted!
I pick up phone to call my manager, "did they come to the show? I left them tickets at the door." I ask in a panic. "No!" he replied. I fall back on the couch, and cry pulling out a picture of K.C. and our son.
Next thing I know, I'm on the tonight show. I'm talking about my tour. Jimmy asks me what I look forward to at each show. I answer him, "that my son and his father will come see my show, I miss them, I haven't seen them in 16 years."
There's this smokey haze, I see K.C. standing beside, I see my son he's maybe 7, he's up to bat at a baseball game. He swings and misses, the next ball he hits it high into left field, and takes off running. 1ST base, he rounds 2nd, he's almost to 3rd. The outfielder makes and over throw and makes it all the way to home plate. I'm jumping up and down screaming at the top of my lungs with pride. He comes running out of the dugout, "mommy, daddy! Did you see me? I hit the ball."
Owen's dream
I'm skating around the rink, music is blaring and I'm covered in sweat. My knee is throbbing, I'm exhausted. I feel my adrenalin wearing off. I look up in the stands to see Anya smiling at me. I know what's coming next. The announcer nods his head giving me the que. I see her face light up as she reads "Anya will you marry me?" on the jumbotron. I carefully get down on the knee that isn't aching, and hold out the ring as she's escorted down on the ice. I'm happy and in love.
Suddenly there's a flash of light, I'm holding a little girl with dark hair in my arms. A little girl with aulbern hair is holding my hand. They both have on pink dresses with glittery shoes and their hair in pigtails. We open a door and see Anya sitting in a hospital bed holding a baby wrapped in a blue blanket. "Linden, Lorelei come meet your baby brother Logan." Anya says smiling.
There's another flash and I'm transported to a club, it's the club on the South Side where I go with Bianca to be her body guard. I see Anya dancing up close with another guy. I look at her with disgust, and walk out the door. Next, I'm standing in front of a bus at Degrassi. Anya is crying, and I'm being a jerk. I tell her I'm over eveything and get on the bus, leaving her in tears.
I'm alone in a bar, taking shot after shot of whiskey. The bar tender cuts me off. I walk alone down a dark dirty street. I put my key the door, and fall over on a sofa. All I can think of is Anya. Theres a hole in my heart, no amount of alcohol can fill.
Clare's dream
I'm at Columbia, I just nailed my interview. I turn and see Eli smiling at me. He is smiling, he tells me how proud he is of me. I fall into his arms. Something doesn't feel quite right. Even tho I'm happy to be with him it's like there was some sort of distance between us. Like something had happened to weaken our relationship.
I'm whirled away I see Drew he's fighting with Eli. Suddenly I look down and notice my belly is swollen, I look to be pregnant. I see myself standing with Drew as he holds my stomach. Then I'm standing with Eli he's holding my stomach. A baby carriage starts rolling towards me,it's black. Now everything is in black and white. I feel a sharp pain and fall grabbing my stomach in pain as the baby carriage starts rolling farther and farther away.
I wake up screaming! I can't handle what little I've seen. My screaming woke Sav. He rushes over to me. No, matter what he can't console me. He tells me to grab a jacket and my shoes, and we head for Owen and Anya's cabin. As Sav alerts the others with our code word, "DEGRASSI! "
A/N
I hope you enjoyed this chapter. It looks like possibly 3 more chapters. I do try and update by Thursday each week. As always reviews are welcome.
Xoxo,
THE SPARKILLER
