I know I only posted yesterday but I don't know when I can post next so I'm posting now. Okay maybe I should explain a little about this story. Oliver and Lilly got together the beginning of the year and it's now summer, so they've been dating for a while plus they knew each other long before that anyway so it not like they're strangers. I didn't want to make Oliver the bad guy because he's not but he is a teenage boy at a party and he had been drinking plus it's Lilly. Can you really blame the guy for trying? And in case you were wondering Miley realised her feelings for Lilly as they started going out and they slowly keep getting stronger.
Thanks to everyone that is reading and has reviewed. I still don't own Hannah Montana. Also I'm not to sure about this chapter. It was kinda inspired by one of mine and my friend's conversations that we had during one of our many alcohol come downs. We have the weirdest most intense conversations during those times I'll tell ya and you know what people say we right what we know. Anyway let me know what you think.
When will it end? Miley was currently praying to the porcelain gods. She had been fine at first, then after sleeping for a few hours the churning started. The only upside to it was the fact that she could feel Lilly pressed against her side as the other girl held her hair out of the way and rubbed her back.
The wave of nausea passed and Miley leaned back against the bathtub. She felt too hot and clammy, her head was pounding and the room would not stay still. She closed her eyes but that only made it worse. The spinning sensation turned into one like being on a rollercoaster. She felt something cold touch the side of her face and her eyes flew open to see a concerned Lilly leaning over her, holding a wet cloth to her face but the worst part or the best, was that from her position Miley had a clear view straight down Lilly's top and Miley was glad her face was already flushed. Miley likey. No wait Miley doesn't likey. Best friend remember? Stop perving right now Stewart. She forced herself to look away but her eyes kept wondering back on their own accord, even when her brain was screaming at them to stop. It oddly reminded her of the part in 'A Bugs Life' where the flies keep flying into the zapper and one of them says 'Don't go into the light' and the other one says 'I can't help it, it's so beautiful.' She wished Lilly would move now.
After what seemed like forever but was probably only a minutes Lilly sat back on her haunches, frowning at her. "Are you feeling better Miles?" Miley nodded not trusting herself to speak just yet. "Are you sure 'cause you felt a little hot to me?"
Miley's looked down at the bathroom tiles so Lilly couldn't see the mortified expression she had on her face as shame and embarrassment flooded through her. Kill me now, please just kill me now. "I'm fine." She rasped out then winced wishing she hadn't. Fire erupted in her raw throat and she swallowed convulsively trying to put it out.
"I'll be right back." Lilly told her as she got up and left the room.
Miley sighed, glad that she could have a minute to try and get herself together. It wasn't an easy thing to do but she eventually managed to get her heart rate back to normal and her breathing under control. Of course it was all in vain because when Lilly walked back in holding a glass of water, they both sped right back up again. She sat down next to her and handed her the glass. "Here drink this it will sooth your throat but only take small sips." She warned.
Miley took the glass, shooting Lilly a grateful smile as she did so. She brought it to her lips and carefully took a little sip. The cool water felt like heaven as it slid down her throat and after a couple more sips the fire was gone. "Thanks Lil." She whispered softly as she put the glass down next to her.
"S'okay Miley." She told her sincerely then her expression turned stern. "So, what have we learned?"
"That beer is bad Lilly, beer is very bad." Lilly laughed and Miley groaned. "As nice as your laughter is Lils, it's not helpin' my headache."
"Oh here." Lilly said as she fished around in her pocket and pulled out two painkillers. "I got these for ya."
"Thank you Lilly." Miley said as she took then from her and quickly swallowed them down with some water. "Ugh why do I feel so bad?"
"Because you're sobering up but I have to tell you Miles you're funny when you're drunk."
Miley groaned and put her head in her hands. "What did I do?"
Lilly laughed and Miley shot her a sideways glare through the gaps of her fingers thinking that her best friend was enjoying her misery way too much. "Nothing to bad." She paused for a second. "That I know of."
Miley groaned again at the 'That I know of' part, "Tell me what you do know."
"Well Gabe won't be a problem anymore. I kinda convinced him you were crazy." Lilly winced expecting the worse but was surprised when she heard Miley laugh.
"How'd you do that?" She asked with amusement twinkling in her eyes.
"Well for some reason you really wanted to sing karaoke." Seeing Miley's panicked look she quickly continued. "Don't worry I stopped you before you did, but that's where the crazy part came in."
"Phew." Miley let out the breath she was holding. "I'm glad you stopped me. Did I do anything else?"
Lilly thought for a second about telling Miley what she said to Gabe about her but decided against it. "No." She said. "There isn't anything else."
"Good." Miley gave Lilly a huge grin and Lilly felt her stomach clench at the sight. She looked down, blushing furiously. What was that? "Lilly." Miley started making her look up from the ground. "I feel really bad about tonight."
"I know you've spent the past half hour proving that." Lilly said with a disgusted face.
"I meant I feel bad about ruining your date with Oliver 'cause you had to bring me home then I woke you and you've had to spend the past half hour with me in here." Miley gave her an apologetic smile. "I'm real sorry I ruined your night."
Lilly reached over and gave Miley's thigh a comforting squeeze. "Miley you didn't ruin my date with Oliver. He did that all on his own. Plus I didn't have to bring you home and take care of you. I did it because I wanted to."
Miley felt her stomach get all warm and tingly at Lilly's kind words. She's not helping this love thing by saying stuff like that. "Thank you and I'm still sorry."
Lilly laughed. "Stop being so silly it's no problem. Anyway you're really sweet when you're drunk." Miley blushed and Lilly caught it. "Aww now you're blushing, you're so cute."
I think I've stop breathing. Lilly called me cute. Hot Lilly Truscott called me cute. Cue the happy dancing. She felt her stomach churn. Cancel the happy dancing. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath waiting for the wave for nausea to pass; thankfully it did without her having to throw up again. She figured it probably wouldn't have been smart to start happy dancing with Lilly sitting right there anyway. She took another deep breath and opened her eyes to see Lilly staring at her all worried again. "I'm fine." She attempted to give the blonde a reassuring smile but it came out looking more like a grimace and Lilly frowned even more. Deciding the best way to ease her friends worry was to distract her she change the subject. "So what happened with Oliver? You said he ruined your date?" Lilly groaned and Miley said. "We don't have to talk about it if you don't want."
"No I want to talk about but…can we talk about this in your room? It's just my butt's gone numb and I want to be somewhere comfortable." She explained.
Miley laughed. "Okay you go ahead I wanna brush my teeth first." Miley would rather clean Jackson's room than sit and talk to Lilly about Oliver but she figured her friend needed her to and Miley would do anything for her, literally. Once she even parachuted out of a plane to make it back home in time so Lilly wouldn't be alone on her seventeenth birthday. That's devotion people.
"Sure." Lilly said then walked into Miley's room and sat down on the bed with her back resting against the pillows and her legs spread out in front.
A few minutes later Miley joined her. "Okay spill."
"Alright." Lilly moved so she sat cross legged in front and tucked some hair behind her ears. "We've been fighting a lot."
Miley resisted the urge to throw a fist in the air and yell 'Woo hoo' she figured that would be a little immature and also extremely insensitive. She was supposed to be the supportive best friend and listen and give advice. It's what Lilly wanted so that's want Miley was going to do. "What have you been fighting about?"
Lilly paused for a second wondering what she should say. She couldn't exactly tell Miley that she and Oliver had been fighting about her. That would make Miley feel really uncomfortable but she didn't want to lie either. "Just things." She answered vaguely. "Anyway Oliver's been feeling really insecure about us and of course I told him he was being stupid. I mean we've been together since the end of last summer but recently he's been saying that he thinks we're drifting apart."
Miley scoffed. "That's crazy you two are always together."
"That's what I said." Lilly agreed. "But he says even though we're together all the time it's like I'm not even there."
"What does that mean?"
Lilly shrugged. "I dunno but he says all I seem to think about or worry about or talk about is y…things."
Miley frowned. "What 'things'?" She asked doing quotation marks with her hands.
"Just things." She repeated. "So because he's feeling so insecure he's been pressuring me about doing…stuff."
"Stuff?" Miley asked confused but she finally got what Lilly was saying when the blonde gave her a pointed look. Miley's eyes widened. "Best-friend-with-a-creep-boyfriend-say-what?"
Lilly sighed. "I don't think he means to be so pushy. I think maybe he just wants reassurance that I'm as invested in our relationship as much as he is and he doesn't know what else to do about it."
Miley felt a surge of anger run through her veins but forced it down. Getting angry at Oliver wouldn't help Lilly. "You should wait until you're ready Lil. You should do it for you not because Oliver needs 'reassurance'. Don't let him pressure you into it."
"I won't it's just…what am I waiting for?" Lilly sighed. "I've always wanted my first time to be with someone I trusted and someone I was in love with. I love Oliver, I do. I trust him, feel safe with him and we're comfortable but…" She paused and Miley felt herself subconsciously leaning closer to her.
"But what?" She asked, giving Lilly's shoulder a nudge.
Lilly sighed. "I don't think I'm in love with him." Her eyes welled with tears. "Does that make me horrible?"
Miley pulled her into a tight hug. "No Lilly, it doesn't make you horrible. You can't help the way you feel." Miley soothed.
"B-but…if I br-break up with him…he-he'll b-be crushed." She sobbed into Miley's shoulder.
Miley felt her own eyes fill with tears; she hated seeing Lilly cry. She blinked them away; her crying wouldn't help Lilly. "It'll be worse if you don't. It wouldn't be fair to Oliver to string him along if you weren't one hundred percent sure how you felt about him."
"But what if I break up with him and it turns out I am in love with him?"
"Lilly trust me. If you were in love with Oliver you would know." Miley told her with a soft smile gracing her features as she ran her fingers through Lilly's hair.
"How do you know? What did it feel like for you?" She heard Lilly mumble into her shoulder.
Miley felt her smile grow wider as she thought about her answer. "For me it was like at first I just couldn't get them off my mind. I thought about them all the time, I wondered what they're doing or what they're thinking about, wondered if their thinking about me. I found myself wanting to spend or my time with them and even if I was with them all of the time it just didn't seem like enough. Then I started noticing things about the person that I hadn't before, it was like suddenly the world snapped into focus and everything about them seemed so much clearer. The way the sun reflected off of their hair and their eyes. One of my favourite things about them is their eyes. They're just so beautiful and expressive and I could drown in them all day long. And they change colour, like in the sun they turn lighter and it's just so breathe taking, and I always know when they're in a bad mood because they seem a shade darker."
"Mine do that." Lilly mumbled softly.
"Uh really I hadn't noticed." Miley stammered out and tried not to panic.
"Don't stop." Lilly whined. "I was enjoying listening to you get all mushy. It was nice."
"Uh okay." Miley cleared her throat. "And their smile is another thing I love about them. It's just so big and bright. It outshines the moon, the sun and the stars and when it's directed at me I feel like the most important person in the world because someone that special and amazing noticed me. And I can never explain the hurt I feel when I see them sad. I hate it. So I started doing anything I could to cheer them up so I could see them smile and laugh that beautiful laugh of theirs."
"What does it sound like?" Lilly asked. And for the first time since Miley had started talking she was aware that Lilly was sitting in her lap with her head rested in the crook of the dark-haired girl's neck. Miley could feel Lilly's breathe tickle her neck and she resisted the urge to shiver. She could also feel how numb her legs had gotten but she wasn't about to ask Lilly to move; it was worth it just so she could hold her.
"Um…I don't know how to explain that." Miley replied pondering for a second on how she could describe Lilly's laugh to Lilly. "Well it's like the best music ever and when I hear it I can't help but laugh along even if I'm trying to be mad at them. And I get this amazing feeling when they laugh especially if they're laughing because something I said or did. That's when they happiness started to seem more in important to me then everything else and I soon found myself willing to do anything to make them happy, even if it meant letting them go and be with someone else because as long as I still got to see them smile and hear them laugh it was worth it. And that's how I knew I was in love and that's how I know Oliver isn't in love with you either."
"How do you Oliver isn't in love with me?" Lilly asked softly.
"Because if he was he wanted pressure you into doing something you didn't want to do." Miley answered as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"Wow." Lilly said as she climbed out of Miley's lap to lie down on the bed. Miley chose to be mature and ignore the pang of disappointment she felt about no longer holding Lilly. "Who knew you knew so much about love?" Miley just shrugged as she settled down next to her. "You must really miss Jake huh?"
Miley turned to look at her confused. "Why would you say that?"
"He was the one you were talking about right?"
Miley turned on her back so that she was staring at the ceiling and swallowed down the lump that had formed in her throat. It hurt that she had just basically admitted how she felt only for Lilly to think she was talking about some one else. She thought for a second about maybe just telling Lilly that she was the she was in love with but then thought against it. Lilly was still with Oliver and plus it would be incredibly insensitive to tell a girl that you're in love with her just after she had admitted to you that she wasn't in love with her boy friend and was thinking about breaking up with him. Right now Lilly needed a friend so Miley decided on telling a half truth. "No it's not Jake. It's someone else."
"Who?"
"Someone who isn't in love with me back." Even though Miley always knew this it hurt so much more to say it out loud and she felt tears start to stream down her face.
"Aww please don't cry Miley. I hate it when you cry. When you cry, I cry." Lilly said as she pulled her friend closer to her.
"I can't help it." Miley choked out.
"Shh I know Miles but it's going to be okay." Lilly soothed as she began running her finger through Miley's hair. "Just go to sleep Miley we've had a long night. You'll feel better in the morning." Even though Miley knew she wouldn't she let herself believe what Lilly was promising her and soon found herself drifting off to sleep in the comfort of Lilly's arms.
Lilly stayed awake for a while just thinking about everything that Miley had said. She knew Miley was right, if Oliver was in love with her he wouldn't be acting the way he was. She knew that what Miley had explained wasn't anything like what she felt for Oliver. What she felt for Oliver couldn't even compare to that. She knew she should break up with him. Oliver really was a good guy and he deserved to have that with someone, staying together because they were each other's safety net wasn't fair to either of them. But the thing that bothered her most was the fact that she felt a surge of jealousy towards the person who had managed to capture the sassy brunette's heart and her complete devotion. She didn't know where it came from. Maybe it was the way Miley had described them, maybe she was feeling jealous that she didn't have a love like that. Whatever it was she decided it didn't matter she was tired and wanted to go to sleep, she would figure it out tomorrow.
She dropped a kiss on Miley's head and whispered. "G'night Miles, I love you." See couldn't help the big grin that spread across her face when Miley replied, "I love you too." She closed her eyes and quickly fell asleep with Miley still wrapped up in her arms.
