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CHARACTER REQUEST: AKATSUKI KAIN OR SENRI SHIKI
CHATRACTER REQUESTER: SKYLAR KNIGHT / XKINHOSHIX
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Cruel
Chapter Three: Akatsuki
So empty. So flawless. So cold.
Yet so utterly breathtaking.
They say that fire always melts ice.
He couldn't disagree more.
Ruka was easy to fool; a little bit of lies here and there, then show some gentlemen manners, and he could pass for the job. He wasn't the one who would get emotional; he was Akatsuki Kain, after all. He would remain motionless, watching from the background despite what would happen. He was the observer, the watcher. He was the opposite of feelings and intuition. He was logic and cogency.
Even if you urge my heart like this; even if you brush by my side and laugh like that, I can't do anything.
He was wandering in the shadow-like wound that he couldn't erase or escape from, but ever since he saw her, her smile full of mysteries had taken his breath away. And for once, he felt a warm sensation that was once lost. No matter how many times he had told himself it was not love, he would only laugh at himself bitterly and squeeze his heard harder to numb the pain.
Feel this heart of mine, which longs for only you.
But why?
Why was he feeling this way toward a mere Day Class girl? Why was he suddenly so melancholy? Why was he suddenly feeling something? Why did he get so protective…so jealous? Why did he love her?
Yet he loved you so much that he had turn back, because he won't be here to protect her until the end. He didn't know why he was like this. Maybe it was because he loved her although he made himself a promise that he would not to for countless times. Maybe he was crazy and it had to be this way.
It had to be you.
"Kain, you're frowning again," Kaname said observantly, leaning his chin against his hand and looked at Kain closely. The amber-haired vampire felt his heart skipped a beat – why did Kuran recognize everything? Could he…read his mind?
"Sorry, Kaname-sama," Kain lied, keeping his face calm, "I'm just worried about my reckless cousin," There, that seemed to be a reason that everyone would believe.
"Ah," the dark-haired male murmured, staring off into space. He did not question Kain anymore, yet the fire-bender still couldn't shake off the feeling of Kaname knowing he was lying.
It wasn't really fair – how Kaname got to have anything he wants, from nothing to everything.
But being Akatsuki Kain, he was silent as ever.
He had left Kaname alone with his deep musing, and went outside to the forest. The nerve-wrecking feeling of inescapable numbness was back again. It seemed like he was a prey trapped in a spider's tangled web, and no matter what he did, he cannot leave. This isn't how it was supposed to be, it can't be like this.
Crossing his arms in his usual detached manner, he looked up at the empty night sky. No, he can't love her, because everything was messed up to begin with.
So empty. So flawless. So cold.
Yet so utterly breathtaking.
He was hiding under the moonlight that overshadowed his pain; what would he do if she didn't notice? Should he make another request to the clouds to rain again so he can hold her wet heart?
It was all a mystery to him – the paradox, the universe, the illusions of time, the feeling of love, her. For the first time in his life, his supernatural intelligence could not answer his own questions. It was a strange feeling, the feeling of being lost and confused. It was a feeling of stuck in a dark hole with no way out.
It was also a feeling of denial.
He can't possibly love a mortal, let alone human. He only cared for her, only had a temporary attraction toward her. Yes, that was it; he only liked her for a moment, not forever. He would get over his momentary crush and return back to admiring Ruka's beauty – though he knew that he was lying to himself.
I'd take everything under the starlight and give them to you.
He would bring dishonour to the family, possibly also the Aidou clan too (since they are closely related). He was being selfish and thoughtless. He was not being Akatsuki Kain. That was never a logical thing to do.
But what is logic to him when he himself had turned against logic?
Everyone was acting in a suspicious fashion lately, but it was understandable since there were always competitions within vampires. They had denied having any competitiveness toward each other, but they were lying. They always lied; it was almost like a mutual bond they had formed, to believe the lie so nothing bad would happen.
It was all out of selfishness.
So why did he need to unselfish when the others only thought about themselves? He should drown himself in falsely truth; not some insensible sense.
The Kain heir couldn't help but smirk at the irony and the oxymoron. It was a really hard job – always staying one step behind her and looking at her, even like this. But because of his tears, because of his longings, the blurring silhouette of her…he'll always stay like this.
I'll be by your side forever.
No, he did not even know her name; all he knew was that he loved her. He loved her so deeply that he would go against his morals. He wished he could run his hand through her silky honey-coloured hair and stare forever into her brown eyes that revealed nothing. He wished that he could be human.
Yes, love did let him think funny things.
He heard a sob nearby; who would cry, outside, in the middle of a harsh winter except if they were insane (like him)?
Takuma?
He stared at the fragile blonde lying in the snow, crying quietly to himself. Matters were definitely getting stranger every day. First Kaname, now Takuma. For a second, Kain wasn't sure if he was seeing things right. After all, the feeling of love did make him think and see things differently.
So who was next?
Who was next to fall into her trap?
Walking away from the weeping blonde, he decided that he would leave the Vice President to his own woo and business, trying to be the same Akatsuki Kain as he was before she interfered with his life. The feeling of suspicion was back again, why did he feel like Takuma's unusual behaviour was closely linked with Kaname's even-longer-brooding? No, it was only a feeling, nothing more. Once again, he was trying to convince himself the lie.
He could not even breathe, he had lost his direction. His memory was breaking into pieces like shattered glass. But she was so calm because it has nothing to do with her. She would just get on with her life whilst he was dwelling on the past, dwelling on faint memories of her, losing himself in a distant fantasy.
The flashing images of her merciless smile overflowed his senses, he fell down to his knees, hugging himself tightly to keep the heat to himself. His vampire power did not give him warmth anymore. It was so cold.
I tried to erase you, but the speckled memories are only smearing…
I'm pretty sure that was the chapter with the most grammar mistakes...but I'm not sure. Oh well, too lazy to correct.
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