Author Notes: I know this is the episode several people have been asking me about. Hope it lives up to everyone's expectations. The story takes place right after the "you know exactly why" moment but before Jommy falls asleep.

Pairing: Jude/Tommy; implied Spied/Jude

Summary: Jude and Tommy mend their relationship.

Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star or its characters.

Rate: NC-17

Season: 2

Category: Smut

Spoilers: Hallelujah

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"I'm a hypocrite," Jude sighed standing up from the couch getting Tommy to look at her. The look they shared shot right through her; he had wordlessly admitted his feeling to her. "I pushed you into the hot tub for cheating but did nothing to myself."

"Don't think about that," Tommy told her coming to stand behind her. He knew it was killing her, knew it was eating away at her insides because of the situation with her dad and Yvette.

"I cheated on my boyfriend," Jude hissed turning around to look at him, the pain shinning bright in her sea blue eyes. How many times did she almost throw up when Sadie cried about Tommy? How many times did she just want to punch herself when Spied kissed her? "My boyfriend, who is waiting for me, is the only guy who has never hurt me."

"But he doesn't do to you what I do," Tommy replied knowingly. He knew Jude, he knew her in a way that Shay only dreamed about, and the way that Spied would never get a chance to experience. Jamie thinks he knows Jude better than any one but he didn't. Tommy knew what made her click he knew what made her sigh and moan in pleasure. He knew how she tasted when she was filled with lust and desire.

"You don't want me Tommy," Jude snipped shooting death glares at him. He was not doing this to her, he was not actually asking to be with her when he just broke her sister's heart.

"What if I do," Tommy whispered coming to standing closer to her. Jude held her breath as his crystal blue showed her once again without one word what Tommy wanted.

"You had your chance and you choose Sadie," Jude stated coolly as she walked away from him.

Tommy looked down at the ground as she walked back over to the piano knowing she was probably holding back the tears. He had picked Sadie for all the wrong reasons. The reasons that made him come back to G-Major instead of spending the summer with her in Europe. The reasons that had him dreaming about Jude, wishing Sadie was her. If he was honest with himself he picked her because she was not sixteen. Then as he spent time with her, he did come to care for her. And in truth he had hoped with time his feelings for Jude would fade, but instead they just intensified.

Sadie was hot; Chaz told him how lucky he was to have a girl like her. She was also smart; those in his experiences did not come hand in hand that often. But she lacked the raw passion he needed in bed. She didn't make him crazy with desire or need. The one time he tried to pull her in a storage-closest she nearly slapped him. Sadie was just too nice, too sweet and kind; and that was why hurting her killed him.

Jude wiped the tears away that were falling on the piano that only a little bit ago they had sat at writing her new song. She didn't dare look at Tommy she didn't dare go near him afraid of what she would do. He had this power over her; he made her act like she knew she shouldn't. First in his house then again in his office with Kwest on the other side; how did he do it? She knew how, he made her feel sexy and wanted. He let her try things that she had only dreamed about, but it was all hidden and secret. And Jude hated secrets, she liked the truth and valued honestly.

"Spied likes you," Tommy said coming close to her smiling when she walked away from him. She was going back to being mad at him. "But he'll never do to you what I can…he'll never take you so high you never want to come down."

"You don't know that," Jude snapped turning to look at him angry. Spied was her boyfriend and despite the fact their make out session were less than great, that didn't mean they wouldn't improve—given some time.

"The walls are thin at G-Major," Tommy laughed turning his body to follow hers until she stopped. He had heard Spied and Jude talking a few days back about how bad their last session was. All he could make out was Spied had cold hands and Jude was a little to demanding. Of course Tommy kind of liked that about her.

"Don't think you are some sex god Quincy," Jude hissed turning to glare at him. She wanted to slap that arrogant look off his face because he didn't know anything, well maybe he did but still. One slap that was all she wanted just one slap to put Tommy Quincy in his place once and for all.

"We've never had sex," Tommy reminded her smiling at the expression that graced her beautiful face. With the candles and moonlight shining through the windows Tommy couldn't help but think she looked like an angel again.

"Hate to break it to you but oral sex is still sex," Jude said rolling her eyes. It was something her mother had expressed over and over again.

"It's not sex," Tommy smirked getting her to glare at him even more. He loved her like this; he loved getting her all hot and bothered, especially the hot part. And his last statement did just that. "It's foreplay."

"No dirty talk," Jude scolded him as she turned away from walking back towards the couch.

Tommy smiled knowing that it was getting to her, oh to be that innocent again. Jude didn't blush when she spoke about sex but it was clear to see she got nervous around the subject. Her face would always get a little flushed after a while, plus her eyes showed her innocence. He actually found it cute, the way she would brush it off then turn away to hide the fact she was nervous. She was standing in front of the couch right now looking around the room they were in. She just wanted to get out of here and salvage what she could of her birthday. Then she was going to make a note to avoid Tommy Quincy on her birthday from now on.

Moving towards her Jude tensed slightly as he came to stand behind her, but she made no movements. Mainly because she knew if she looked at his arrogant face she'd end up slapping him. Jude's body automatically stiffened the moment he touched her blond hair. He smiled when he remember the first time he saw her as a blond. The look in Sadie's eyes had been enough to crush him but he did nothing, instead he took Jude to the studio. Of course she slept the entire time, but he didn't care.

Moving her blond hair out of the way Tommy bent down to kiss her neck. How he loved the taste of her skin, hell he loved all of her body actually. She was just so soft and she tasted as sweet as candy. Everyone knew his addiction to candy; it made him think she was made just for him. He smiled against the skin of her neck as she crossed her arms to pretend like this was not affecting her, because he knew it was affecting her. She thought or maybe hoped he didn't noticed but he did. Jude bit back a moan as his teeth nipped at the skin, moving his lips up her neck he felt her slowly relax.

Jude closed her eyes; she would ignore him that would make him go away. If she just stood her and acted like his lips did not feel great on her skin, then he would go away. If she pretended that she didn't want him as much as he obviously wanted her, then he would just stop. Jude knew that was a laugh, but she knew that if she looked at him, if he kissed her then that would be it. He would break down the barrier she had decided to put up; she would not cheat on Spied again. She would not betray her sister again she was not that kind of girl. Of course while she was thinking this a part of her the bigger part was hoping Tommy would just turn her around—how she hated he did this to her.

His hand went around her creeping under the tight blue tang top she wore. Jude opened her eyes her plan was not working if anything it was egging him on. She felt his strong guitar callused hands curve to her hip holding her still as his mouth continued to tease her neck and ear lobe. He felt her hands fall down in defeat. He smiled as he took one more taste of the sweet skin that beckoned for him that tempted him. Leaning her head back Tommy titled his head to the side to crush his mouth into her.

Jude turned her body around as Tommy pulled her against his body harshly, devouring her mouth with a need that should have scared her. But it did not scare her instead she returned it with even more hunger. Tommy groaned as he felt her push the blue fleece jacket he wore on the ground. Jude had come to one conclusion; Tommy Quincy's kisses should be considered a drug. Because once he kissed her she lost the ability to function and think properly. It was like he took her over, taking her to this place that she never wanted to come down from. Yes Tom Quincy was becoming Jude's drug of choice.

Pushing him back on the couch Tommy grinned as she straddled his hips. Pushing his hands up her back to feel her soft skin, Jude groaned as his lips went to her neck again. Gliding along to taste the skin he just could not get enough of her. Tommy knew he was addicted. He didn't care how much of her he got as long as he got just a little. The only problem was these encounters of theirs were starting to get painful. His need for her was beginning to get to where he couldn't even look at her without wanting to bury himself inside of her. Tommy groaned as he felt her tiny fingers fumbled with the button and zipper of his jeans.

"Jude," Tommy said knowing he did not have the control for this he was walking a very thin line. One wrong move and he was going to burst into a million tiny pieces, and god knows what he'd do when that happened.

"No sex," Jude whispered the words he said to her twice now against his ear as her fingers freed him. Tommy closed his eyes as her fingers went around him the moment her lips went on top of his teasing him. Tommy opened his mouth to her when she nipped his bottom lip hard then eased the twinge of pain with her tongue.

He let out another sound as she tore her lips away from his. Then he dropped his head back as her hand began to move and down him while the other one pulled his pants to his ankles. Tommy thought she was watching him, he thought she was just playing seeing how far she could take him. Was he was dead wrong. The moment those moist lips of hers went around his very sensitive and growing erection his hips jerk forward. It was a reaction formed by the mixture of surprise, glee, anticipation, and fear. The fear came from the fact he knew he would not be able to hold back and he did not their first to be like this. He wanted them to be in a bed at least.

He gasped her name grabbing the end of the couch but he did not look at her. If he watched her he would pull her up and he would take her and he could not do that. So he sat there one hand grabbing the couch one hand in her hair guiding her, though it did not seem like she needed it. He bent his knees spreading them wider to give her more access. Hissing as she kept up her very slow pace. She was driving him crazy with her teeth scraping along the tender flesh, those full pink lips sucking the end then pushing him back inside of her mouth. Then there was that tongue that wicked tongue of hers, oh where ever did she learn to do this.

Tommy knew his body was getting close, knew the sensations that were building up. Finally he yanked at her hair he didn't mean to be as rough as he was. He knew he pulled a little too hard but she was driving him crazy. He needed the release. Jude quickened her pace sucking harder, than those tiny hands went to his balls. He felt it start just a little further and he would be there, just a little further. Moving his hips forward he didn't care if anyone heard him he didn't care about anything but the girl who was pushing him over the edge. In all the times Tommy had sex, with all the partners he had it with, he never felt what he felt on that moment with Jude.

Climbing on top of him again she kissed him, Tommy kissed her back hungrier than before. Rolling them over so that Jude was under him he pushed her shirt up. Jude yelped as he bit her nipple while sucking harder. Jude's breath caught by the pain/sensations rushing through her. Arching herself into him Tommy pulled himself away from her looking down at her. Opening her eyes Tommy saw that her lust and desire for him mirrored his own, but he also saw her fear and worry. Bending forward he kiss her gently on the lips. Tommy moaned into her mouth as her hands went to touch his skin dragging her nails down his back. His head snapped up at the distant sound of a voice—a male voice—a male voice that he knew.

"Jamie," Jude said softly looking at him confused, then her eyes widened in shock as they heard the second voice. "Spied…get off me."

Tommy jumped off the couch quickly pulling up and buttoning up his pants running his fingers through his hair. Tommy tossed his fleece jacket to her to put on, Jude then attempting to fix her hair as she went to the door. Their voices got louder as Tommy found his leather jacket by the piano bench. She looked at him to see that he was hard again. Though she did relieve some of his "pain" he still wanted more of her. Tommy groaned as Jude called for them, she tried to fake a smile as the door came open. Tried to sound grateful as she explained what happened, though she was happy about finishing the song.

Spied never missed the looks that were shared between the two of them, never missed the fact he could feel something in the air. As Jude grabbed her jacket he never missed the fact she was wearing Tommy's. Spied looked away as Jude walked next to Tommy neither of them saying anything but than again they didn't have to. Spied cursed himself at his stupidity. Jude only had room in her heart for one man—Tommy Quincy. Everyone knew he was the guy she really wanted, so why did he put himself through this. Spied cared for Jude, he liked the fun they had, the late night conversations and the trust she had in him. Watching her wait by Tommy's SUV he knew it was only a matter of time before they fell to pieces. He wondered if he should just end it now. Thus enabling him to walk away unbroken hearted or stay with her and walk away broken into pieces. He just did not know.

TBC

A/N: I am so glad everyone likes this so far. Thanks so much for the feedback it really helps keep my muse refueled.