The Things We Do For Love

Disclaimer: Still not mine.

Vincent Valentine & Yuffie Kissaragi forever!

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I probably should have handled this better then I did, I know I should have handled this better then I did. ARGH! It's been three days since I found out Vincent is two months pregnant with our child. Our child, the outcome of the day two months ago when we admitted our "love" for one another and made love. Ours. Not just his, not just mine, but ours. I've taken to sleeping under the stars these past three days, I need to be alone and contemplate my thoughts. I can't look him in the eye. I don't know why. This is scary, it's crazy. I'm not ready, but I want Vince to be mortal, I want him to get to enjoy life again and live, but I don't want to be a mom. Not yet. I don't know if ever. Look who I've been raised by. Godo? Please. It's my mother I wish was still here, she would have raised me right. She certainly did when she was alive. I need her, I need her guidance. How can I be a mother when I hardly even remember what it's like to have one? Vincent, I've watched him sleep these past few nights from afar. I broke his heart. I know this. I have broken the heart of the one I love and have disappointed my friends. They all thought better of me. Heck, I thought better of me. I just don't know.

"I wish I had never met him." I whisper. It's way colder tonight then it's been the past two nights, summer's really coming to an end. I should've packed a coat.

"Do you really wish that?" It's Tifa. I smile at her as she joins me up on the rooftop of Aeriths church with a thermos of soup and a jacket in her arms.

"Hey Teef."

"Vincent misses you Yuff." She says sitting down next to me.

"I just…I just had no idea any of this was possible. I love him, but I don't think I love him enough to go through all of this. My life is about to change Teef. My world is going to be turned upside down, and it hasn't been like this since when my mother died." Tifa's quiet.

"I hope to the Lifestream you're not here to give me a lecture. I feel horrible and ashamed of myself for leaving Vincent like that. Alone, scared…he needs me huh?" I ask with realization. Tifa smiles at me,

"I don't need to say anything. That's what I love about you Yuffie. You're smart, you're wise, you're ready. I know it's scary to think about, but Yuffie, you're going to be a mom!"

"I just don't know how to be one."

"Yuff, I'm a mom. And I promise to help you and Vincent every step of the way." She pauses as we watch the stars. "He does need you. More then you'll ever know." She whispers taking my hand.

"I love him Teef."

"I know." She says giving me a hug. Mom I miss you. It's crazy, I haven't cried in years, I haven't thought of my mother in years, and in the past 3 days I have done both, non stop.

"I think I'm going to sleep out here one more night, just to clear my mind."

"Alright." We talk and laugh awhile longer about the things best friends talk about before she heads back to Seventh Heaven.

"Good night Teef, thanks for being so patient and understanding." She looks at me with knowing eyes,

"Of course. Life throws funny things at a person, but you need to remember that we're friends for a reason. To help one another through all the things life throws at us. And the fact that I love you like you're my sister is a bonus, just f.y.i." we laugh as she climbs down.

"I love you too." I call out into the night as she runs off.

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It's way more comfortable now with a coat. I'm on my back looking up at the big blue midnight sky. It's filled far as my eyes can see with stars, and it's amazing. They're like diamonds in the sun, all flickering their own colors. It's beautiful. Heh, I've gotten Vincent to star gaze with me a few times over the years. It always amazes him how quiet I get around stars. They're awesome! And even I will take the time to just enjoy them. I tell ya, a ninja must always be more then he or she appears. Whoa, a shooting star. You know what that means…it's time to make a wish.

"I wish with all my heart for the right answer as to what to do." I whisper. No sooner do the words leave my lips and suddenly I feel this calm feeling washing over me. Funny. I close my eyes and breathe in the fresh air. Ugh, okay, okay I admit it, I can't stop thinking about him!!

"But I love being on my own!" I blurt out. I open my eyes with frustration and what is that?! There in the sky are two crimson red stars shining above me side by side.

"Vincent." I whisper in awe by the beauty before my very eyes. It's him, his beautiful crimson eyes. I love his eyes…I love him…I love him.

"Oh my god! VINCENT!" I scream.

"Hey, shut up, up there! Some of us are trying to sleep you crazy girl!"

"You shut up!" I yell back. Geez, how quickly men forget. I help save all their sorry asses from Omega and Deepground and that's the thanks I get? What am I saying, my wish came true!! I know what to do! I jump up and look at the stars again. Yep, still shining crimson.

"Vincent." I never even thought about how he might be feeling. He's the one carrying the child. He's the one carrying this burden. He's the one that's been tortured mentally, physically, and emotionally for who knows how long. He's the one that is probably scared out of his mind. Duh, I know he is. I think back and remember the panic in his eyes as he watched me, waiting for my reaction. Oh Vincent. Gosh I'm a terd.

"I'm coming Vinnie. I know what to do now." I whisper as I begin to head home, back to Seventh Heaven, back to Vincent Valentine. I turn and look up at the sky one last time tonight,

"Thanks for the little push mom. I love you." And suddenly, the stars shine brighter then they ever have before.

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The sun is beginning to come up by the time I make it back. I quietly walk in. Tifa's making breakfast, Cid and Sherra are asleep on the futon in the living room…kind of..nevermind, Sherra just shoved him off. Men. Everywhere else is absolutely quiet. I walk into the kitchen,

"Hey Tifa."

"Good morning, I'm glad you came back."

"Me too." And I mean it. "Uhhh." I stutter, my face turning a tad pink, "Is Vinnie still sleeping?" Tifa laughed,

"You know, having a baby might actually be good for him. It makes him sleep and actually take care of himself." She places her hands on her hips and gives me the evil eye.

"What the heck did I do to you?"

"Come on, get going Yuff! He's waiting for you." She says with a laugh as she shoves me up the stairs.

"Tifa!" I can't believe it. "Geebus, it's not like he's gonna be that excited to see me. I did run away from him screaming like a banshee ya know."

"I know."

"And I haven't called or let him know where I've been."

"I know."

"And he probably thinks I'm a major jerk."

"I know that too."

"Oh thanks."

"YUFFIE! Come on!" she pleads in that annoying best friend tone, "Sure, you're gonna have to apologize, but Yuffie, he's missed you so much, but he loves you, and in the long run, all he's wanted is to have you come back." Darn those best friends. I smile.

"Thanks Tifa." I turn and head up the stairs. "Operation grovel, her we come."

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Oh geez, the walk to Vincent's room feels like an eternity. Yuffie, stop psyching yourself out! It is dead quiet. I swear my footsteps sound like atomic bombs going off, it is so darn quiet.

"Oh boy." Vincent's room. I can't do this. I feel terrible.

"I love you Yuffie." My gosh, that night seems forever ago. I close my eyes, I can hear him again, "I love you."

"Vincent…" okay, enough of this, hand on the doorknob, turn it a bit and here we go. It's show time.

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That's it, my heart just broke into a ton of million gazillion pieces. One, I have never really seen Vinnie sleep…like ever, and two, I have never ever seen so much emotion on his face. EVER! And right now, I want to hug him, kiss him, make love to him, tell him how much I love him, run from him, hide from him…he is unbelievable. He is fast asleep, his eyes tightly shut, a frown on his face, and stains on his cheeks from what looks like tears. Curses, I am such a horrible friend. He turns away and I realize that I'm holding my breath.

"Yuffi." I hear him whisper in his dreams. Heart breaks some more. If that's even possible, ahhh!

"I'm here Vincent." I whisper, placing a hand on his shoulder, smiling as I run my hand up and down his side. I swear, if you squint a tiny bit and go cross eyed, you can see a tiny, tiny bump in his belly. I rest my hand there for a minute.

"Y..Yuffie?" he whispers, opening his eyes at my touch. Whoops, I try to pull my hand away, but he timidly places his human hand atop of mine.

"Don't run away from me again. I need you too much." He whispers with a hitch in his throat.

"Vinnie, I-"

"I know at times it seems as though I don't care about you, but I do. I do care about you. I know I'm terrible at showing my emotions, but you make me so emotional, it's incredible."

"Vincent."

"Please Yuffie." He whispers closing his eyes again, hiding his face in his pillow, his grip on my hand lossening, "Please. I can't do this alone."

"You won't." I whisper in his ear. He freezes as I climb into bed next to him and snake my arms around his waist, snuggling close. "I love you Vincent Valentine." I smile into his back as he relaxes with a deep sigh, "I'm so sorry I ran from you."

"It…it is alright. You're young Yuffie, and everything you said that day, I couldn't agree with you more. I just. I just want you to know that I'm so sorry you have gotten stuck right in the middle of my pathetic life."

"Pathetic? Vince, I think the hormones are getting to you."

"Yuffie, you're in love with an ex-Turk, whose body has been tortured and configured into a killing emotionless montser and to top it off I'm probably around the age of 60."

"Ya done ranting?"

"No."

"Vincent!" I say laughing and tightening my arms around him more. "If I really wanted nothing to do with you, I wouldn't be here right now."

"………."

"Seriously."

"……..l know."

"I've been doing a lot of thinking these past three days Vince, and yes, I am a bit scared, think about it, I'm your opposite. I'm gonna be a kid raising a kid. I'm-"

"Everything I'm not." He whispers turning around to face me. His crimson eyes are tired, but hopeful. I caress his cheek. "I love you too Yuffie." That's it, I'm now experiencing heart overload. And it feels great. I'm seeing stars as he gently places his lips on my own.

"You know." I gasp between kisses, "This child is going to be one of a kind." He smiles over at me,

"Our child." I smile as I kiss his stomach,

"Agreed."

"Yuffie!" he laughs, "Come here!" I squeal as he wraps me in his strong and safe embrace, laughing as he kisses my neck, "You can stop treating me like I'm a frail bedridden woman Kissaragi." He growls in my ear. He's back. The tough and rouge Vincent Valentine I'm so head over heels in love with.

"Not yet anyway." I sneer at him patting his tummy.

"That's enough out of you." He growls rolling on top of me, I wrap my arms around his neck and gaze into his firey eyes, there's nothing but love reflected in them now. Mine too I'm sure.

"I love you." We whisper at the same time. Heh. Now that's love nyuk, nyuk.