A/N: Mostly Thalia's last thoughts. Some lyrics don't fit perfectly but I think its ok. The last chapter before I take this to story form. I own nothing. The song belongs to Simple Plan, their record company and the song writers and we all know who owns Percy Jackson.


I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

(Thalia)

Is it normal to not remember why I'm here just laying on the ground? I open my eyes but the light blinds me. I'm not sure what kind of light, but it's blinding.

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

The pain of my death hurt, but I couldn't stand the pain of my life. And I can't make it go away until I'm gone. No, I couldn't stand it anymore.

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

How could this happen to me? How could my life had got so bad I had to turn to this. I've made my fair share of mistakes, but I didn't deserve to feel like I had to end it like this. No one did. I've got nowhere to run. I'm tired of running. It's time to face life. Now where left to run. It was slow so as the night goes on I slowly faded away. I'm sick of this life. That's want I would have said if anyone saw me summon the monsters to my cabin. I wanna scream. I wanna scream about everything and at everyone. But I'm alone.

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

I think it was Nico who screamed for me first. But other came, all screaming, all crying. I try to make a noise, to tell them it wasn't too late, they could try to save me if they wanted. But nothing came out. I'm slipping off the edge. Now I was slipping off the edge of my life. But I had been slipping off the edge toward this happening for a while now. I'm hanging but one thread on my life string, I can see it now. I wish I could start life over or at least my death so I could make it where I die before I see and hear Annabeth's sorrow when she sees me.

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

I tried to block it all out and think of a time when nothing mattered. It was hard. The only time I could think of was when me and Luke where together before Annabeth. She started mattering then. We had fun. We could have fun again soon. We would both be dead. I would be with my brother again. I can't explain what happened to me. But I blame it on my tree years and what happened when I came back. I couldn't erase all the things I've done. Some, most, have been bad. Then I was gone.

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

(Nico)

How could this happen? If anyone had made mistakes it was me but no one earned this. Ever. I have nowhere to run now. Everywhere I go something is going to remind me of her and how this was my fault. As the night after Thalia's death goes on I'm sick of my life, but I'll keep going for Thalia's memory. I just wanna scream; scream until I can't scream anymore. So I did. After I couldn't talk for a week. How could this happen to me?

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me


A/N: I noticed how crappie this was. But even though it was I'm thinking about writing about before, after, or during this some more. Review and tell me if I should and when if I should. This is because I love this song.