AN: THANK YOU TO MY BETA! ALSO the song is turning page, I highly suggest you play it while reading.

What the privilege of being yours would do.

Kagome could not breath when she touched down back into her time. A million thoughts ran through her head.

Would Inuyasha and Kikyo finally be together?

Would Sango give Miroku children?

Would Shippo grow up okay without her?

Would Rin stay with Sesshomaru?

Would Sesshomaru ever find what he was looking for?

Would she seem any of them again?

Tears slipped down her face.

Would she make it?

Would she move on?

Would she forget them?

Would she go crazy?

Would her heart ever heal?

It didn't feel like it.

She cried out in pure, true, soul-crushing pain.

By the time night fell her body was just dry. She could not cry another tear even though she wanted to. Her eyelids were heavy, exhaustion filling her.

She would never forget them. It had been a privilege knowing them, fighting with them, for them. She would never take any of it for granted. She hoped one day, her other wish would come true, that the well would open and give way for her once more.

But that was a privilege, not a right, so she picked herself off the cold ground and slowly climbed out of the well; never knowing if she would ever jump down it again.

Her mother held her tight, her grandfather prayed and her brother drew her a bath.

Oddly, she didn't want to bathe, she didn't want the smell to be gone. She had her scars though, everyone one of them telling a story.

But the biggest scar was on her heart and that one cut the deepest.

Sleep was the only thing that turned off the pain for now. She knew one-day dreams would be her only link to them and so she hoped that they would never ever fade from her mind's eye.

She wondered as she started to feel heavy, if they would remember her. Would Inuyasha try?

Would Miroku pray for her?

Would Sango tell her children about her?

Would Shippo miss her?

Would Rin ask about her?

Would Sesshomaru even remember her?

Her eyes closed and pure darkness met her. Her body, heart, and mind so tired it could not, would not produce anything as she slept. Her heartbeat slowed as her mother watched over her, wondering if her daughter would ever be okay.

How could one live when their heart was left somewhere else?

Inuyasha and the other looked up at the night stars, each one of them thinking about Kagome and what a privilege it had been to have their lives touched by her.

Sesshomaru looked at the stars to and wondered what place she had within his own life because he too was left thinking about her. Of course, he did not have the privilege of closeness like the others did, so he didn't think long on it, simply calling her an ally.