"HATTER!" I screamed. Gasping for air I began to calm down and take in my surroundings. With a shock I realized I was laying on the floor in Travy's flat. How can this be? Wonderland is only in my dreams and yet… This felt so real, it felt so different than any of my other dreams. I've never experienced a dream like this, it was so vivid. And Hatter…. Still shocked I scrambled off the floor and saw Travy and Marsha passed out in various positions on the floor. Grabbing my coat I left the flat, deciding to go home and mull this over.
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At this point it was about one in the afternoon, and it felt as if I hadn't slept a wink. Actually it felt as if I had actually been running around a forest for a few hours. It's not real. It was just a bad trip. I repeated this to myself over and over. But the hatter was there. And those twin boys, I swore I could feel when he one was brushing me off. What's happening to me? I mulled this over for the better part of an hour, laying on my bed and staring at a crack in my ceiling, desperately trying to make sense of it all. Moving my hand up to my waist I felt that there was indeed mud on my clothes. "What..?" I went to inspect myself in the mirror. "Bloody hell.." I swore under my breath. Not only was there mud sprinkled all over my clothes, but also caked under my finger nails and matted into my hair. I literally look like hell. How did I get so dirty? It's not like I actually ran through a forest... Or did I? This was the question I kept asking myself as I scrubbed all the dirt from my body. "Okay get ahold of yourself Alice. You're not crazy." Am I crazy? What is going on? Repeating these questions over to myself a thought occurred to me. It was a crazy thought but after all that I've been through today it seemed rational. Why not ask him? He should know what happening to me. So for the first time in a while I looked forward to going to sleep, because after all it's only a dream right?
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Waking up, I relished how good my bed felt and the wonderful bliss that seemed to engulf me. I feel great. That was such a goodnights sleep. I don't think I even drea… With this my eyes shot open and I quickly realized that I didn't enter wonderland last night, in fact I didn't even dream. Something that hadn't happened in a long time, something that confused and terrified me.
