Hey guys. This is something different than what you might be used to. Here, Tohru decides to share her thoughts so you will understand just how complicating her liking of Mr. Hatori is. The thing is I am trying to keep this as realistic as possible with realistic outcomes. In other words, I can control Tohru with whatever passion I feel (or you want) but everything else I will control objectively. I myself am not certain how everything will turn out since it all depends on how Tohru acts. It is a short chapter but hopefully you enjoy it anyway.

It was foolish of Tohru to think of Mr. Hatori. He was a teacher, who knows how many years older, and…. well, then there was the greatest thought that nothing would ever happen. Maybe that was the greatest reason of her doubts and wishing she felt otherwise. It probably was the greatest reason she did not want to think of him, dream of him, or wish for him. Instead, she wanted to forget, to see him as a teacher, and nothing else.

It probably would not have been so hard had Mr. Hatori stopped amazing Tohru. When she thought about it, Tohru decided that there was not one day that he ceased to amaze her, captivate her, make her laugh or smile, or to fill her with awe. She practically worshipped him, wishing to be like him and with him. Then, once such thoughts passed her head, she would shake her head.

What was she thinking? She could not and would not allow herself to be taken over. He was a teacher yet she already had time within a few days of liking him to become jealous, wait in the hallway in order to catch a glimpse of him, smile every time she saw him, and wish every minute to see him again. Such thoughts kept repeating themselves, such thoughts would not stop.

What was a girl like her to do? She never broke the rules, always followed all the laws, frowned at stupidity, claimed that all women should be independent, and rolled her eyes at others her age who claimed to be in love. Now she was doing everything she was not. It's illegal to be with a teacher, and illegal for him to be with her. She was being stupid even dreaming from time to time that anything could happen and was now a slave to her own desire. Worst of all, she probably had the most pathetic crush and most dramatic ideas about it.

She hated herself for it. Nothing would ever happen, she knew that. It was as obvious to her as the knowledge that if you jump off a plane you will fall. That if you are stuck in a burning building you will burn. Sure, maybe a .01% possibility that you will be saved, but nobody in their right mind would. Mr. Hatori kept his life professional and loved his job and would not risk it for her. He probably would not risk it for anything.

So why did she still wish, why did she still hope, but in the end was too afraid to pray? Why did she look at him, smile when thinking about him, watch him in the hallway, but did not speak? What pushed her and what held her back? The statistics are true and in. The law was against her, reality was against her, probably Mr. Hatori's professionalism was against her, and even her mind was against her. However, in the end, her heart still urged her, a battle that she was going to lose.

Yet what would she do if Mr. Hatori did end up liking her. They can't have a relationship in school or teachers would give trouble, hence the police, hence the law. They can't have a relationship outside her school or her mom would find out or someone else and tell her mom, hence the police, and hence the law. And even if they did manage, she will graduate in two years. There is this year and the next and she leaves. What good is a relationship if it must end?

Yet even if all could work out, would she have the courage to go through with it. If a grown man has intimate feelings for you then you don't support their decision. Any person in their right mind would report them. Tohru wouldn't report it but she doesn't think she could go through with it. She would be frightened, surprised, and suddenly unsure of her feelings. In the end, nothing would happen anyway and she would be filled with regrets.

All this was in Tohru, yet she still moved forward. Nothing was in store and yet she still searched. The battle was long finished and yet she still was fighting. She was fighting an army of a thousand strong warriors, thirsty for blood with everyone supporting them. She was an army of a hundred rebels, mostly made up of common folk who are the only ones who felt the prosecution of the heart and wished out. She didn't want to fight but could not help it. Tohru was lost. She was confused, and her life was becoming a sad story without a happy ending in store, or at least not one that everyone would expect.

Well, that is it. Told you it was short. Umm, if you guys have any ideas for the story, let me know since I write from the top of my head. Once again, you cannot control the world but you can control Tohru. But also remember, if you make her do anything rash, (such as, IDK, kiss Mr. Hatori randomly or something) you WILL get her expelled and that will be the end of the tale. Try to think realistically. It is something you probably are not used to and how it ends will probably depend on my mood that day, but her actions will decide which ending is most likely to happen. Okay, review and get an update soon!

Oh, and one more thing. This will depend on the majority, but would you rather short chapters and more frequent updates or long chapters and less frequent updates. Let me know. The sooner, the better. Until then, I will do random and I will d as I please. :-D