Penelope was not in a mood for party. She had nothing to celebrate. Since she turned Josie, she didn't really feel like there was anything worth celebrating. She felt guilty for doing it. She knew how much she loved being a witch, how much she wanted to learn and do with that. She also knew that Josie wanted to be a mother one day and now it was all taken away from her…and she was big part of it. That was one of the reasons Penelope was trying to help her feel better about her transition. She changed into her favorite fluffy blue pajama and washed her face. Out of her backpack she got her laptop and got comfortable. She was watching one of her favorite shows and that was the night she really felt ok with. Ni party would help confusion and guilt she felt inside.

Josie run into MG and Kaleb at the party. She was surprised not to see Penelope with them.

''Where is she?''

''In your room. In her blue PJ's watching something on her computer.''

''Fluffy blue PJ's?''

''I have no idea… Why does it matter?''

Something was wrong and bothering her. She never slept in her fluffy blue PJ's unless something bothered her and she was in a cuddle me and take care of me mood. Raphael was a bit drunk and he came to kiss her.

''I love you Josei and let me tell you something. If you need to feed from someone, I am always there for you.''

''Thank you, but it's ok… Drinking blood is personal for me.''

''Well, after today I believe we got personal too.''

She blushed but didn't respond. Josie waited for Raphael to get comfy with his friends and she sneaked out from the room. She got into their room and saw Penelope in bed with computer in blue fluffy PJ's and she had her glasses on. She stood by the entrance and just watched her. After few moments Penelope noticed her.

''Hey…''

''Gossip girl or One three hill?''

Penelope smiled. Josie knew her too well.

''One three hill?''

''Season?''

''One.''

''Episode?''

''Twelve….''

''Oh, the forbidden make out…''

''Yap!''

''Room for one more?''

''Sure…''

''I'll get ready for bed. Be there in a minute.''

She got her yoga pants and shirt out of the bag and went to take a shower. She got ready in a minute and joined Penelope in bed. She put the computer between them and unplugged her headphones. This reminded Josie of the time they were together and having a quiet night in.

''I lerned to love this show with you.''

''Really?''

''Yes… But I never watched it again….since…''

''I'm sorry.''

''Hey, it's just TV show…''

''No, not that… I am sorry for everything else.''

''Like what?''

''This… You didn't deserve this… You were supposed to be an amazing witch…To have kids, grow old with someone and have amazing life surrounded by friends and family…and I took that from you.''

''No, you didn't… I made that choice.''

''Do you regret?''

''I do not… I believe even this has reason for happening.''

''But you lost so much.''

''And I don't know what will I get tomorrow…Maybe in a few moths I will wake up realizing it was the best choice I made.''

''Too many maybes.''

''That's all I have…''

''I just wish you didn't have to give up everything.''

''Penelope… Don't do that to yourself. As I said… Who knows what amazing things are around the corner for me?''

''I just don't want you to suffer for your choice…. You are amazing person Josie and being a vampire doesn't erase it. I could smack Lizzie for comments she makes about you.''

''Don't pay attention to it. I try not to.''

''But it's hurtful.''

''Yes, it is… But I try to put it behind me and not think about it. I am working on being happy and finding new thigs to be happy about.''

''I hope he is making you happy.''

''He is ok.''

''You deserve more than ok. I just wish you would realize how amazing and special you are… I wish you would take what you want and not just live from the crumbs other give you. You can do so much more and so much better. You let people underestimate you.''

''I really needed to hear that.''

''I really need you to hear me for real. You need to take care of yourself and take what you want.''

''Easier said than done.''

''Why?''

''If I take what I want…I will hurt Raphael.''

''Why?''

''Because I don't love him…and I don't know how to end it. He will be hurt… He will be hurt because I am the first person after his girlfriend's death he cares about.''

''And it would hurt him more if he learns about your lack of emotions for him later on.''

''How do I end it without hurting him?''

''I am not break up expert…''

''Why did you leave me?''

''Because I needed you to find your own voice and your own way. You were too lost between me and Lizzie that you forgot Josie. You forgot what was your dream for the future and life. I didn't want to be in your way of finding who you really are.''

''Sometimes you are so stupid.''

''Why?''

''I was happy with who I was by your side.''

''But you could have been much more if you dared.''

''I loved you Penelope. I would have been happy no matter what with you by my side.''

''Maybe… But I wanted so much more for you… You were better than any of the girls your sister follows like puppy dog. You have so much more to give.''

''Penelope… Why do you hate Lizzie? Are you jealous of her?''

''No, I hate her because she sucks the life out of every place you are… She is making you see yourself as less than you are and she makes you her slave. You do everything for her…and now that you can't do her magic stuff, you are not good. She tells me to take vervane and fills Raphael's head with stories about us and me. I will not be surprised if your boyfriend comes to our room any minute now because she got some idea into his head.''

''She wouldn't do it.''

''Yes, she would and you know it.''

''You make her sound petty…''

''Oh, Honey… She IS petty…''

Josie giggled at that. She loved when Penelope called her honey. As Penelope predicted, there was knock at the door. Josie opened and found Raphael standing in the hall. She got out and shut the door.

''You left without saying a word.''

''It became too crowded.''

''You will not let me in?''

''No, Penelope is asleep.''

''Already?''

''Yes…''

''Why are you lying to me?''

''I am not.''

''I am varewolf. I have good hearing. I know she is not asleep.''

''Fine. She is not asleep but I will not invite you in because she is in bed.''

''And so were you.''

''Yes.''

''Can I see your room?''

''No!''

''What is wrong with you Josie? What are you hiding?''

''Nothing.''

'"Are you hooking up with her? Was Lizzie right all the time?''

''About what?''

''You cheating on me with her?''

''I would never do something like that. I am not a cheater!''

''Correct answer is I love you… You having principles is the only reason you are fateful to me?''

''Raphael… You seam drunk… let's talk tomorrow.''

''NO! We will talk now… Do you have feelings for her?''

At that moment Penelope opened the door.

''Is everything ok?''

''Just what I needed… But maybe you should hear it too… I asked Josie if she has feelings for you….''

Josie's eyes were filled with tears. She didn't want to say it… She had to share that room with Penelope for two more days. She couldn't tell her she loved her and watch her distance herself from her again.

''SAY IT JOSIE! DO YOU LOVE HER?''

''Leave her alone!''

Penelope took Josie's hand and got her out of Raphael's grip. She turned to Josie and checked her hands…

''Are you ok? Did he hurt you?''

''No, I am fine…''

''Just answer the question…I can't do this anymore… Do you love her or not?''

''I'm sorry Raphael… I am so sorry….''

He was very angry and for a moment it looked as he would attack Josie. Penelope used magic to get him away from her and Raphael grabbed her hands. He squeezed the place where Josie fed from her. Penelope screamed from pain. There was some blood. Raphael was confused how blood got there so he lifted her sleeve…. It didn't take him long to realize what it was.

''I can't believe you….''

''I can explain…''

''I don't care about your explanations. You said it was personal… You slept with me…and you drink from her…. What sort of game you are playing?''

''Lizzie forgot my cooler with blood… I was hungry. Penelope offered…''

''Out of all the people…You had to feed from her?''

''I'm sorry…''

''No, you are not.''

With that he left. Penelope opened their room and offered Josie her hand.

''Let's go to sleep.''