Under the Mistletoe part 3

Will stared at the door for a long moment after it shut behind Sonny. The tears that had been threatening this whole time, finally spilled over and ran down his face.

What have I done? He thought to himself. Gabi was right, I am going to lose Sonny, all over a stupid mistake. He got up and looked around for his clothes… Finding them scattered around the room. He pulled them on lethargically as memories of earlier in the night flashed through his mind. He watched them like a short film. Thinking that he will never again know the feel of Sonny's lips on his, the taste of him on his tongue. The feel of his hands softly caressing him, or biting into his skin when things get intense… He will never see that face that he loves so much, the one that Sonny makes just before he loses control…

Suddenly he punches the wall in frustration. There has to be a way that we can work this out.

Sighing, Will looks around the room, one last time… One last look at this place that is so special to him. This is where he and Sonny had made love for the first time… and apparently for the last time.

He walks out and closes the door. Just wanting to go somewhere, anywhere but here… So he can figure out what he needs to do.

As he walks through the cold night, his thoughts stray to the baby… Now that he had told Sonny the truth, and Sonny hates him… I have to tell everyone else. The worst has already happened, there is nothing more to lose.

I am going to tell everyone the truth, and then I am going to take my place in my baby's life… No way I am going to let Gabi and Nick have my baby…

With his resolve set he started toward EJ's because he assumed that is where he will find his mother tonight.

Sonny walked around aimlessly for what seemed like hours. Not caring where he was going, Just trying to deal with all of the crippling emotions that were threatening to spill over.

Anger, was there in the back of his mind…. Anger at Will, for not trusting him with the truth, and because he had asked time and time and time again what was bothering him, and he never got a straight answer.

Then there was the jealousy and pain. It hurt to know that when he was in pain and scared, the first person he turned to was her… Why Gabi… They have a history, he thought… Which leads to the jealousy… realistically it did not make sense to be jealous. They had dated for a long time…. Common sense says they slept together at least once, but Sonny does not even want to go there, he cannot bear to think about it. The very thought that Will had made love with anyone else was enough to drive him insane…. And now they are having a baby together. She will forever have a connection with Will. A connection that Will and I can never share together.

Wow… Sonny thought… How am I supposed to be okay with this? This is the worse thing that could possibly happen!… Then there was a little thought in the back of his mind that kept gnawing at him…. No, The WORSE thing that could happen is losing him….

As he thought about that, he wondered if it is possible, can we somehow get past this… Can we make it through this mess… and if by some miracle we do… what's next?

Sonny was so wrapped up in his own thoughts that he did not hear the footsteps approaching. "Sonny? What are you doing out here alone this late?" Kate said.

"Oh Hi, Kate, Sorry, I was just taking a walk to clear my head." Sonny said

"Do you want to talk about it?" Kate asked

"Not really." Sonny said sadly

"Let me guess, you and my grandson had a fight." Kate said imploringly

"Yeah, I don't know how we can make it past this, It is a pretty big bump in the road." Sonny sighed

"It's really simple" Kate said, "It really all comes down to just one thing, do you Love my grandson?"

"Yes, I love him, But…" Sonny began.

"No, no buts… Do you believe my Grandson loves you?" Kate asked pointedly

"Yes, I do believe that" Sonny said.

"Then that is all you need to know my dear, You love each other, FIND A WAY TO MAKE IT WORK!"

Kate said insistently. "Now go home and get out of this cold!"

"Thanks Kate, Thank you for giving me that perspective, it was just what I needed!" Sonny said as he pressed a kiss to her cheek, and hurried off.

Now that Sonny knew what he had to do, he was anxious to get back to Will.

Sonny rushes into the apartment, hoping against hope that Will is still there. "Will!" he calls out as he opens the door and looks around at the empty apartment.

"Of course, this one time he listens." Sonny thought shaking his head… He pulls out his phone and dials Wills number.

Will is just about to knock on EJ's door when his phone vibrates in his pocket. He is not in the mood to talk to anyone right now, so he thinks to ignore it, but he takes it out to see who it is anyway.

The surprise registers on his face as he realizes it is Sonny.

"Hey?" He breathes…"Will, can you come back to my apartment?" Sonny said in a rush. "I think we need to talk about this some more…" "Um, Yeah… I will be there soon." Will replied.

On the way over, Will's mind is rushing in a thousand different directions. What does this mean, do I dare dream that he wants to work this out, that we can still be together…

Will knocked on Sonny's door a short time later, he was usually accustomed to just letting himself in, but wasn't sure how Sonny would feel about that right now.

Sonny opened the door and smiled shyly at Will. "Hey!" he said, as he motioned for Will to come in.

Will walked in, nervously rubbing his hands on his jeans.

They sat down on the couch together facing each other… "Sonny, I want to apologize to you again" Will started but Sonny reached up and put his finger to Wills lips, silencing him.

"I heard your apology earlier, I listened to everything you said… I need to talk now okay?"

Will nodded his head and drew in a nervous deep breath.

"I am sorry that I ran out on you Will, I know that I probably caused you pain and that is the last thing that I wanted to do." Sonny said as Will shook his head violently."No you don't have to apologize," Will denied..

"Will, let me finish!" Sonny said exasperated. "I took a long walk and I thought about all of this…. You realize that this is an impossible situation. I wish that you had trusted me from the beginning with the truth, but I have to tell you that from my perspective, I can only imagine one thing worse than this situation that we find ourselves in… and that is losing you Will!"

"I can find a way to accept this, It will be hard, but it can be done… What I can't do is accept a life with out you!" "I love you, Will. I really love you!" Sonny smiled.

Will released the pent up breath that he didn't even know he had been holding, as a huge grin spread across his face. "Really? You mean it?" He asked.

Sonny nodded and slid his hand to the back of Will's neck to pull him in for a kiss. He pressed his lips against Will's and then drew back to look at him. "You are going to have to be patient with me Will, this is going to be a struggle for me, And I know that we have a lot to talk about still, and there are a lot of decisions that you have to make." Sonny paused as Will opened his mouth to speak.

"WE Sonny, WE have a lot of decisions to make. You are a part of this too!" Will said. "I couldn't stand the thought of losing you, That's why…" Will said sadly.

"We can talk about all this later, for right now, I just want to sleep on it."

"Alright" Will stampered, as he got up and picked up his coat, he wanted to hug Sonny but he wasn't sure if he should… so he turned and started toward the door.

"Will, Where are you going?" Sonny asked with a little uncertainty in his voice. "Stay with me please?" He whispered as he held his hand out towards Will.

Will nodded as he took Sonny's hand, and allowed Sonny to lead him back toward the bed…..