A few days later Rachel was hanging out with Finn. When he called she suggested going to a movie. That way they wouldn't be able to talk and she could avoid the subject of Quinn. After the movie was over they walked out to the parking lot and stood at their cars laughing and talking about their favorite parts of the movie. Rachel and Finn's relationship was so easy together. Why could he not see how much potential they had for a great relationship? Was he really that blind? there was always a huge physical pain in Rachel's chest whenever she thought about him being with someone else. "But," she thought, "If he's not with me at least it could be Quinn. She's so sweet, the only girl that I think who could be worthy of him."
While she was thinking she missed the question that Finn had asked he. "What?" she asked.
"I said, 'have you talked to Quinn lately?'"
"Oh...We went to the mall the other day" Rachel replied with a shrug of her shoulders as if it was not big deal.
Finn was quiet for a moment. "Well? Did she say anything about me?"
"Um...your name might have come up." She said trying to avoid the questions she knew were coming.
It didn't work. "Well, does she like me or what?"
Rachel looked away and put on her actress face and smiled, "Yeah, I think she does." Inside she felt like she was dying. why was she subjecting herself to this self inflicted torture? All she had to do was tell him no, she didn't want to do it anymore. He could grow up and be a man and ask Quinn out on his own. The thing was, Rachel couldn't help herself. She was hoping htat it would all turn out, that Finn would somehow through the course of this whole thing realize that she was the girl he should be with. However, he was her best friend. How could she deny him what he wanted the most in that moment? All she wanted was for him to be happy and if his happiness hinged on him being with Quinn...then so be it.
Finn smiled so big his eyes squinted. Just like they always do when something makes him super happy. "Wow, thanks Rachel! You're the best!" he hugged her, then got in his white jeep and drove away. Leaving Rachel alone in the parking lot feeling smaller than she'd ever felt in her life.
That night Rachel sat in bed reading a book. Well, not exactly reading, but staring blankly at the same page for 30 minutes while her mind wandered thinking about Finn. Then her phone beeped telling her she had a text. It was Quinn.
Rachel! Finn has been texting me for the last hour. We've been talking about EVERYTHING!"
Rachel grimaced. "That's great Q! I'm so glad!"
Just then she got another text. This time from Finn. "Rach, i'm texting quinn. i relly want 2 let her no im interested but i dont no how"
Rachel smiled despite the huge sadness that just settled over her from his text. His texting language and grammer mistakes always made her laugh. At least he tries. Then she settled back to the matter at hand. I could just act like I'm asleep Rachel thought. She was pretty tempted, but her kindness won out and she texted him back. "Tell her you were looking at pictures from the trip to Florida and you can't get over how pretty her smile is." She read the text a few times trying to make sure she wanted to do this, then she hit the SEND button. Rachel sighed and leaned her head back. "This was a bad idea." She whispered to the empty room. Just a few seconds later she had another text from Quinn.
"He thinks I have a pretty smile! :)"
"UGH!" Rachel threw her phone down on her mattress. After a moment of being frustrated with herself she picked it back up and did her good, friendly duties. "Aww that's sweet" she texted back.
"Do you think it was just a meaningless comment? Or is he flirting?" Quinn replied.
Rachel let out a slow breath. "Def. flirting. You should tell him that he's the one that makes you smile like that."
It wasn't long before she had another text from Finn. "She said i make her smile! Should i ask her on a date now?"
Rachel's heart plummeted to the bottom most pit of her stomach, but she replied anyway. "Yeah! Definitely!"
"what does she like 2 do?" he asked.
"Well, you can never go wrong with Breadstix and that new rom-com just came out. Ask her to that."
Again after a few moments she had a text from Quinn, "HE ASKED ME OUT! AHHHHHHH!"
Rachel was dying. She so badly wanted to rewind to a few days ago and tell Finn that he could do it without her help. Or just flat out tell hiim that she liked him, but instead she's sitting in her bed experiencing the biggest hurt she's ever dealt with. "That's great Q!" she replied.
Rachel then got out of her bed and plugged her phone into her charger, but before she could put it down she got one more text from Finn. "thx rach! U R 4 real the best friend a guy cld. have!"
Tears silently falling from her eyes she replied, "I know..."
Then she turned and got back in bed and, pulling the covers up over her head, she cried herself to sleep.
A/N: Sorry the update took so long! Be sure to leave a review!
