Hey people: I know this isn't my popular story and, in fact only one person reads it

Hey people: I know this isn't my popular story and, in fact only one person reads it. I'm going to keep posting, because I love where this is heading so far. Also, special thanks to my friend Jon! He is the only one who has reviewed….in less than 10 minutes of me posting.(O.O)Anyway, on with the story!

BTW This is after the funeral.

Chapter: suffocating

Over the past few days my house has been silent. No one speaks, no one cries except for the children- I can't, I have to stay strong for them. I feel guilty though, they have already lost their father, and now they're losing me too. Most days I have just lain awake in my bed. No food, just water. I just need to rest.

So here I am again today, lying awake in bed thinking, crying. It's ok to cry today, Naruto and Hinata, Sasuke's best friend, picked up Akuji and Aya for the next two days.

The funeral was yesterday, but the couple decided to stay to help us during our time of mourning.

Still afraid that someone would hear me crying, I turned on the radio and soon enough cried myself to sleep.

I don't know how long it has been, but I finally woke up in the warm arms of…Sasuke? Before I could react, he me as if to kiss me, my eyes fluttered closed as I waited for his lips,but it never came and all that was there was air. I opened my eyes to see that I was on a dock, the one we got married at in the middle of the lake at his old house.(a/n remember the one he practiced fire style jutsu on?) Soon however, the dock began to change into nothing and I found myself sinking into the water with no escape, Sasuke was just above the surface, but I just couldn't reach! I couldn't get air, I was drowning, the sound of Akuji and Aya's voices filled my ears but were soon drowned out by a song.

'What was it again? I used to sing it with Sasuke…Oh! "No Air"!'

Soon the constriction of my lungs became too much and I let the darkness surround me.

'Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air'

The darkness slowly morphed into a small room, not overly crowding, but it held enough space for two people. Looking further into the room, I saw the same midnight hair that I longed for, the pale skin my hands longed to touch; Sasuke stood before me, like he always had whenever he'd come home late nights. To my surprise and comfort, I was soon engulfed in a hug just as real and warm as the ones we had shared when he was alive. It felt so real almost too real, Sasuke

"Am I dead?"

Silence greeted me until I heard a muted,

"No."

"But I thought I was dead or at least dying because after I lost you it felt as if my world had lost its air; I thought I had died in my sleep."

Sasuke suddenly got full force back in his voice and replied," I wait in this room alone, I don't want to leave without you by my side, my heart is incomplete. But I also can't fully go on until I know you've moved on. Please try to understand, you need to move on."

I could feel the horror mix in with fear and sadness in my voice. "But how do you expect me to live alone with just me? Because my world revolved around you it's so hard for me to even breathe without you! Tell me how am I supposed to move on? I lost you just 2 days ago damn it! Whenever you aren't there…It's like I've been pulled out into the deep end, and how am I gonna be with out you?!"

Tears started to pour out of my eyes as the franticness in my voice began to increase. Sasuke's hand slowly lifted my chin as I cried.

"When I was living, I'd jump, run, or even fly to you defying gravity to go to you. Somehow you've got to stay alive inside, I may have taken your breath but please survive. I don't know how or even care, but you have to for the others- for the kids."

"But how do expect me to? How could you?

With a faint kiss, he said, "I don't know, but you have to or you'll die…either that or turn gray early." He added on with a slight chuckle, I couldn't help but smile at his comment as he faded into nothing, and there I was, in a room by myself, but I left feeling like I could breathe again.

I knew that something good was coming…or someone. Suddenly, I felt a small hand upon my shoulder as reality invaded my senses. Slowly I opened my eyes to find myself staring at the smaller version of myself Aya, and next to her Akuji. To their surprise, for the first time in days, I cracked a smile that earned a gasp from both of them.

Shyly, Aya asked," Mommy, are you ok?"

And with a small slightly content smile I pulled both kids into my arms and said,

"I will be, sweetheart, I will be…"

Ok guys, I hope this is longer! Oh and I haven't been doing my disclaimer! Sorry! I do not own Naruto!

Please review?!

Cherry