Two weeks have passed. I can't believe how much time has gone by, I don't know what is happening to me my head has still been in a fog. Every chance I get my mind sways away and all I can think about is Christian Grey.Damn him. Even now while trying to drink my morning coffee I can't get him out of my head, his touch, his eyes and the warmth of his body next to mine. I take a big sip of my coffee and almost choke on it because it is so cold, see this is what happens to me after thinking to long about him, I can't even enjoy a cup of coffee. What are you thinking Steele he is engaged.
Kate walks into the kitchen and gives me this look like I am the biggest enemy ever and it scares me, I have never seen her look like this before.
"Hi Kate, what's wrong?" I ask her
"What's wrong? Ana when was the last time you lived your life the way you wanted to? Your life has been nothing but a routine with you: Work, Sleep, maybe eat and then work and sleep again" She says looking at me sadly.
"Kate I enjoy my life and my routine, thank you very much!" What's her problem? And that's when I realize she's right, the only thing I really do is work and nothing else. I haven't called my mom in two weeks and I have no time at all to spend with my friends and family.
"Yes I know, it's cool dancing and everything. I get that, but you have friends you know. I miss you Ana, and ever since this Mr. Grey has come into the picture you have been even more distant" Her words touch my heart I know what I haven't always been there. I stand up and give my best friend a hug.
"I'm sorry Kate I didn't even realize how I have been lately. I miss you too, how about we have lunch together today? Meet me at the studio at noon?"
"Awesome Ana I'm so excited, I will see you today at noon for lunch" she says with such an excitement in voice.
"Sound like a plan, I'll be waiting" I say while I hug her once more time. Then I grab my purse and my keys and wave good bye as I walk out the door.
I enter the studio. This place is truly my paradise, my castle, nothing can hurt me here. This place gives me hope that one day I'll find the man who has been haunting my dreams.
Somehow I manage to arrive at work fifteen minutes early, so better make good use of my time and head over to Liz's office and say hello.
"Hi Liz, How's it going?"
"Hey Ana. I'm doing fantastic, how about you?"
"Same. I am feeling fabulous"
"Ana I just want to tell you how proud I am of you, you have been doing such a wonderful job with Mr. Grey and Ms. Williams. I know he is very pleased with your lessons" She say to me with a warm voice.
"Really he said he was pleased with me" I ask in an excited tone.
"Yes he did" she smiles
"Wow thanks Liz"
"You're welcome Ana, you're one of our finest teacher, enough said"
I hear the main doors of the studio open, I don't even turn around because I already know that it'll be Christian and Leila.
"Ok well that must be my students, I better go" I give Elizabeth a large smile and walk over to my room. He is standing there in the middle of the room looking ever so handsome as usual. Just when I was about to say hello Mr. Grey I remembered last week he had asked me to call him by his given name Christian. Every time after that when I call him Christian I can't help but to blush.
"Hi Mr…" Oops "Hello Christian" Blush
"Good morning Anastasia" He says to me with a shy smile. God he looks so amazing in his suit, so professional.
I look around the room but I'm surprised when I don't see Leila in here with him glued to him like she always is.
"Where's Leila?"
"She couldn't make it today, something about bridesmaid's dresses for her friends" He tells me without making any eye contact.
"Then why are you here?" Oh shit, why did I ask that? "I mean….it just that you're already a wonderful dancer"
"You're right, but I am paying very good money, I want to make sure I get everything I pay for. So I'm here to dance with you Anastasia" I couldn't be happier right now, just him and I and a dance room all to ourselves with no one to bother us.
We start to dance, I place my hand in his and there is it like it always is that jolt of electricity. I place my other hand on top of his shoulder, another jolt. He takes his left hand and lightly moves it to the small of my back. My chest start to move up and down harder my breath is getting heavier. Our eyes lock with each other's and I can tell he feels it too, his eyes go darker.
He is one of the best dancers I have ever danced with. Every step he makes is with grace its perfect. After about ten minutes of warm ups we decided that it is now time to practice with the wedding song that he had e-mailed me the other day, and I have been listening to it non-stop since I got it.
It's such a beautiful song it has such meaning, such passion the lyrics speak something to me. As the song starts I can hear the piano and the violins begin. He captures me by my waist and hooks his hands in mine.
Love that one song on the wall, used to mean something but now it means nothing.
The echoes are gone in the hall, but I still remember the pain of December.
This song is 'a love me forever' type of song and his touch I start to feel the same like in my dream.
Oooo, there isn't one thing left you could say, I'm sorry it's too late.
He pulls me closer to him, are bodies meld to one. I can feel my legs tremble as we dance.
I'm breaking from these memories, gotta let it go, just let it go.
I said good bye, set it all on fire. Gotta let it go, just let it go.
Oh god, what is this. The feelings I am feeling right now.
You came back to find I was gone, and that place is empty like the whole that was left in me.
Like we were nothing at all. It's not what you meant to me, thought we were meant to be.
Ooo. There isn't one thing left for you could say, I'm sorry it's too late.
I'm breaking free from these memories, gotta let it go, just let it go
I said good bye, set it all on fire. Gotta let it go, just let it go
I look into his eyes and they are different, after all the times I have looked into his eyes I have never seen his eyes like this. I don't know what it is, is it guilt? Pain? Oh No, no no no. it's lust.
I let it go…and now I know…a brand new life….it's down this road…
And when it's right….you always know…so this time….I won't let go…
Suddenly he removes his hand from mine and instantly I feel lonely, empty. He takes a step back and I can no longer feel his warm body on mine. I start to beg inside my head to please don't stop please.
There only one thing left here to say, loves never too late.
I lower my head so I am no longer looking at him. I feel as if I am going to cry, I don't know why and I don't want him to see me cry. All of a sudden I feel his warm fingers under my chin lifting my head so that he can look me in the eyes. A signal tear falls and he leans his face to mine and his lips crash onto mine. His thumb pulls down on my bottom lips so that my lips part.
His tongue enters my mouth and becomes entwined with mine. The electricity coursing through us is unbelievable. I bring my hands to his chest and his body flinches for a second but then relaxes to my touch. I feel safe. As the song plays on our kiss becomes more deep and hard, you can cute the passion with a knife.
As the song starts to slowly end I hear my studio door creek open and then hear a soft light knock. We break away from our kiss but never leave eye contact with each other. We are both breathless.
"I…oh god" I hear a whisper behind us, and we both look at the door.
"I'm so sorry…I didn't mean" she stops herself from continuing.
Both Christian and I take several steps back from each other. We both are looking down at the floor.
"Kate what are you doing here?"
"Lunch remember Ana"
"Oh right I um must of forgot, sorry"
"Kate Kavanagh this is Christian Grey, Mr. Grey this is my best friend Kate one of Seattle's finest journalist"
"Nice to meet you Ms. Kavanagh"
"Mr. Grey and his fiancé are my students of mine for the next few months" Shit! That's right he's getting married soon, he is engaged. What the fuck was I thinking kissing him like that. Oh god I feel the lump in my throat grow bigger. Don't cry Steele don't cry. Not in front of him.
Kate smiles and says "pleasure to meet you" He looks at her as if he is ashamed of what he got caught doing with me.
"I need to go. Good bye Anastasia" Again he doesn't make eye contact with me and it feels as if my heart was just ripped open.
"Wow Steele you sure had me fooled this morning thinking your life was nothing but routine. Was I sure wrong about that" She says with a dirty grin and I can't help but to smile. There sure wasn't anything routine about that kiss.
The song Ana and Christian danced to was: Let me go –Avril Lavigne and Chad Kroeger
