Disclaimer: No, I don't own Twilight. I wish. Ha ha.


Carlisle's explanation of everything kept floating around in her head. It wasn't that she was scared, more that she was shocked. Haven also knew that they wouldn't harm her, and that made her feel safer then she had ever felt in her life. She kept her eyes closed, not ready to awaken and not ready to face them. She only hoped that she didn't make them think that she didn't like them because she did. With the little things she knew about them, she could instantly tell that they had her best interests at heart. Letting out a sigh she turned on her side, attempting to go back to sleep.

"I think she's scared of us!" Alice said sadly, as she sat snuggled up in Jasper's arm. The whole family was silent now, after Haven's fainting incident. No one knew what say, or what to do.

Edward shook his head trying to explain what he heard to his family. "That's just it, she isn't scared at all. Shocked, yes, but not scared. We really can't blame her…vampires are supposed to be myths; we're supposed to be monsters. Haven likes us Alice, don't worry." He explained softly, as a sigh of relief traveled around the room.

A growl escaped Haven's throat as she pulled the blankets off of herself. She couldn't get back to sleep, she couldn't even relax. She tip-toed down the steps quietly, listening in on their conversation. Little did she know the whole family knew she was there, and while Haven thought she was getting away with something, she really wasn't. She continued down the steps, walking into the living room, taking a deep breath. "I'm really sorry…I'm not scared of you guys you know." She started, her words getting caught up in her throat. "I'm just not used to any of this." She added quietly, as Esme came over and placed a cool arm on her shoulder. Esme needed not to say any words, her actions spoke louder then anything thing she could have said, and it gave Haven the reassurance she needed.

It became easier for Haven to speak to them, and their perfection no longer unsettled her. "So. Don't vampires drink human blood?" She asked, glancing at them.

It was Edward who spoke up this time. "Well yes, most of us do. We on the other hand only drink animal blood. We like to call ourselves vegetarian vampires." Edward acknowledged with a chortle.

Haven nodded, as she took all the new information that they explained to her. They told her about their super strength and speed, their special abilities, their immortality, and the Cullens explained mostly everything that she would need to know. "Haven..we have to warn you, if you decide to stay with us there are things you need to know. The Volturi might decide to pay a visit. It's not that they're villains, but they oversee the way we live, and we have laws that we have to abide by." Carlisle explained with a stern look in his face. Haven knew that it was a serious situation and that put her a bit on edge. "Telling a human about us is forbidden, but if they don't know already then I'm sure they will soon be aware of the situation. It's nothing to worry about yet, but it is something that we must be alert for." He said further, as Haven let out a nod in understanding.

There was so much for Haven to decide. Who she would stay with; the Cullens had offered to adopt her and take her in, but she also had other family who would be willing to do so in a heartbeat. Most of her family was greedy and vile, and she knew that they would only want to be in charge of her funds and estates. Since she was only fifteen, she knew that they would have complete control over her and her wealth. She could assume that the Cullens had much more money then they needed, probably much more then Haven held herself.

Then there was the matter of her career. She couldn't put it all on hold indefinitely. She had a tour she had to rehearse for, press meetings, charity events. She owed all of that to her fans, and her management team. She would have to call her manager and agent and explain things further to them. She wasn't ready to return to her old life, she didn't want to stand up in front of a crowd and sing—she just didn't think that she could handle doing that. Her family wasn't there to back her up; Nick wasn't there to give her the support that she would so desperately need. Everything had changed, and nothing would ever be the same.

Haven felt at ease, as everyone went off to do their own things. Carlisle told her she had a few days to decide what she wanted to do, and her decisions would affect so many things. School would be starting back up soon, and if Haven stayed then she would be going along with the Cullens. People would instantly know her, and the paparazzi would probably follow her as well. Aware of the Cullens situation she knew they couldn't afford to have any unwanted attention turned on them. The thought of moving on from her old life scared her. It would have scared anyone. Knowing that things would never go back to the way they once were, knowing that the things that mattered most were now lost forever, that would scare anybody.

Nessie came inside the door with her arms wrapped tightly around somebody. He was huge, in every way. It was quite obvious that he and Nessie were dating, and the way that they looked at each other, the way they all looked at each other; it was a sign of pure and undying affection for one another. "That's Jacob Black." Alice whispered in her ear, as Haven just stared at him. "He's freaking huge!" Haven whispered back before letting out a fit of giggles. Jacob came over with Nessie as she introduced her to Jacob. When Jacob took her hand in his she almost recoiled at his touch. First, the vampires were icy cold and then he was burning hot. It was weird, but Haven didn't comment on anything.

Alice explained how they had lived in Forks, Washington about five years back, but since they never aged they had to keep moving around so they would be able to go to school again. Now they lived in Clallam Bay, which was about twenty miles away from Forks. They were far enough away to be able to start school, and close enough to the La Push reservation. "Wait, so how many times have you been to high school?" Haven asked curiously. "Oh, about three dozen times, and I graduated every time." Alice chirped, beaming brightly.

"Now, we definitely need to go shopping tomorrow! You don't have any clothes here, and you could use my expert opinion anyways." Alice said, going on and on about how much fun they would have. Haven couldn't help but laugh and she spent most of the day bonding with Alice, and occasionally Rosalie and Bella. Nessie didn't seem to be wanting to talk to her which upset Haven at first, but Alice just told her that Nessie was a bit star-struck.

Carlisle returned to the hospital, and the boys had gone out hunting. Alice and the girls planned on going later tonight after Haven went off to bed. "So this Nick kid... he was your boyfriend right? I heard you keep muttering his name last night…" Alice asked hesitantly, looking over at Haven who put down the journal she held in her hands.

Haven sat there not sure what to say. Thinking about him was hard, but she wasn't sure if she would be able to get through speaking about him. "Yes…We've been going out for two years. I-I just really miss him. I love him... My mother always told me otherwise, that I'm only fifteen and that I didn't know what love was, but in my heart I believe I did. He was always by side Alice; he made me who I am. I wouldn't be doing any of this if it wasn't for him." Haven whispered, as she fought back the tears that were threatening to fall. "I remember..." She started letting out a little laugh before carrying on. "When I had interviews or things to do he had his ways of keeping me calm and collected. He was there when I experienced the side effects of being famous. I don't have my privacy, my life isn't mine anymore. Everything I do—it belongs to the world. If I make a mistake, suddenly I'm a bad person—it's just so hard. To the world I'm a perfect girl who always has a smile on my face, but it's not like that at all. It's a cruel business Alice, and he helped me get through all that."

Alice stayed silent for a moment letting Haven's truthfully spoken words sink in. "I never thought that it could be like that. They only show all the perks of being famous, the glamour, the glitz…Thanks for telling me Hav. So have you decided what you're going to do?" Alice asked, eyeing her. Haven nodded, picking up her cell phone. "I have a tour that we're planning, even though it isn't until next year, I have movie promotions to do..but right now—I need time to recover. I need time to be normal. After always wishing to be famous, I just want some time to myself—to be a normal teenager with a normal life.

Alice giggled, pulling Haven into a hug. "Dear if you're living with us, nothing is going to be normal."

Haven was already aware of that.


Thanks for reading this story! I have a ton of ideas, but I need to figure out how I want the story to flow. If you read it, it would be great if you could give me some suggestions on what I can improve and if you like it or not.

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-Jazz