I'm churning these out pretty fast I know, my brain just keeps giving me ideas so I have to write them down or i'll forget :P Thanks for the reviews, follows and favourites so far, always appreciate a review :D
Jess's POV
Jess slid down the door, her heart felt like it could punch threw her chest, she felt sick and dizzy and a panic washed over her.
She hadn't thought about it before, the thought of one of her roommates fathering her child. She had assumed that she would go down the conventional route, find an anonymous donor and continue her life as a single parent with little thought into the person who has helped her conceive her child but now she had another option, one where she would know the father. Maybe that would make things easier, she would already know any weird habits her child might obtain, she would have a realistic view of what their child would be like and act like.
"Stop this jess" she scalded herself, she wanted to wish away them thoughts, it was much easier to go down the conventional route but every time she considered having a child with her loveable, slightly scruffy roommate her heart skipped a beat.
She wiped her sleeve over her face, when had she started crying, she heaved in a heavy breath then shuddered uncontrollably. She slipped over to her bed, crawled under the covers wishing she was being comforted by the only arms that made her feel safe.
Nick's POV
Shutting the door he quickly fell to the ground, thumping his fist repeatedly on the ground, "what were you thinking?" Nick whispered, he couldn't face it, seeing someone else give Jess the one thing she truly wanted so he had offered, another way of torturing himself day by day knowing that would be the only way to get close to her, knowing this would bond them for life because he knew that there was no other way she would want to be with a screw up like himself.
Tears fell from his eyes as the burning realisation that he would never be the one to comfort her when she needed it or be the one he wrapped his arms around every night before whispering "I love you" as they fell asleep. He would never be that guy. He might not be able to be that guy but he was going to do everything in his power to make sure she was happy.
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"Nick have you seen Jess this morning?" Winston called from the kitchen counter in the direction of Nick's room.
"No she's at work probably" He stated walking out of his room, hair sticking out in all directions, rubbing the sleep from his eyes.
"They called she didn't show up today, maybe you should go check her room, make sure she isn't sick" Winston nodded his head in the direction of Jess's room.
"Urgh, I dunno man" Nick said rubbing the back of his neck "Maybe we should leave her for a while, she might be sleeping if she's sick... or .. or maybe gone out already"
"What is up with you dude, I don't have time for this I have to work, check on Jess, I mean it!" Winston said grabbing a last mouthful of muffin before rushing out the door.
Nick sat down at the counter, pouring himself a bowl of lucky charms, taking a few bites he decided his stomach wasn't up to this, he placed his bowl in the sink and made his way back to his room. Maybe is he stayed there for a few hours he wouldn't have to face her.
He sat down at his computer, flipped the lid up and waited for it to load, a breath of air came whooshing out of his lungs, it felt like he had been kicked in the gut. There before him as the screensaver on his desktop was a picture of him and Jess, laughing hysterically in Clyde's bar after having one too many drinks. It had been taken a few weeks ago and Jess protested it was the best picture that Nick had ever been in and that he should print it and put it somewhere memorable, so if he was grumpy it would make him smile. Uh, he thought at the time, why would he want to do that but he had agreed he would print it just to keep her happy. She must have snuck into his room one day when he was at work and changed it to his screensaver to remind him to print it.
His chest squeezed tightly at the look on their faces, so happy and care free. His arm gently placed around her neck whilst she held her glass up in a "cheers" motion at the camera. His eyes staring directly at her, anyone looking at the picture could tell he was madly in love with her... well except Jess, who continued to act oblivious to the mountain sexual tension that had been growing between them over the past year.
He knew at the moment he would do anything for her, anything she needed. He pushed his chair back, sprang of his seat and headed for her door. Pulling his door open with such force it almost knocked it off the hinges he strode the 3 steps to reach Jess's door. Curling his hand into a fist he knocked hurriedly on her door...
TBC
What you think? I know it's taking a little time to get somewhere but I want to build up a bit of background before I go into the main event :)
