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I sat in Kenda's room trying to forget what had just happened. I couldn't think of it, it hurt too much. Kenda walked back in. She had been visiting with Aidan and Claiborne, telling them that we were in Kenda's room, and not to interrupt us.

Kendas room was very dark. Her walls were black, with ripples of purple colored water, held up with her power. The colored water would fall into the vases placed around the room when Kenda was out of the range to use her power. The floor and ceiling had a dark purple carpet and paint. Kenda has a large black bean bag in the middle of the room, where I was now sitting. She had a small almost invisible sound system installed right next to the door, right now a mix of rhythm heavy songs were playing.

Kenda walked over to me with questioning eyes. "Okay Bella, what's wrong. I know that today is a painful day for you, but this is the first time that I've seen you accidentally break a door by looking at it, and the time that Aidan accidentally burnt your old copy of Pride and Prejudice." Kenda started smiling; it was obvious, at least to me that she was trying to lighten the atmosphere. It didn't work.

I looked up at her, my eyes rimmed with red, trying to block the anguish that was radiating through my body. "I saw him again." I spat out the four simple words with such hate that I momentarily saw the water halt and start to drip. Her face turns from fear to anger.

"What the Hell. Come on, we just got comfortable here, they are going to pay, all of them." Kenda stood up, and the water floating around the room started expanding and contracting as Kenda continued ranting. "If they ever come near you again we will personally go and hunt them down, showing them such a painful ending…"

I stared at the floor, disgusted with myself. "Kenda, that's not all. I kind of lost control." She looked at me scared by this statement.

"What, you lost control. Oh my god, what happened? Are you okay, what about him?" Even though she didn't like him she didn't want him to die like that.

"I didn't lose control of my mental abilities, just my willpower. Deep down I still love him. It's taken me thinking for about four hours straight, but that is the only explanation I have for what happened. I mean if I don't love him why else would that have happened. I still hate him, with my entire soul, but I just can't stand what I've done." At this point I'd started talking faster and faster, until even a vampire couldn't understand me.

I fell down sobbing, again. Kenda ran over to me and just hugged me. "Please, just tell me what happened. I promise that it can't be as bad as it seems."

I laughed, a dry hollow laugh that made her flinch. "You think that it can't be that bad, well it is. I'm going to have to leave. You and the rest of the coven need to stay here, but if I stay they'll find me. I just have to go."

Claiborne slammed Kenda's door open. "NO, Bella you are not leaving. We love you too much. Please you have to stay." Aidan was behind her just staring at me.

"Bella, we aren't a family without you. You know that our powers aren't as powerful if any one of us is missing. When we fight together our powers blend. You should know that ever since we found Cielo; my fire, Claiborne's earth, Kenda's water, and your mind have all been a whole lot stronger."

"Look, I just need a break from what's happened. I've spent the last 17 years hating a man for leaving me and then I meet him in the forest while hunting, instead of yelling and screaming at him I tackle him and start to kiss him. My restraints were down, letting my gut lead me, and instead of hurting him like I've dreamed of for years, I just… just can't handle being around anyone right now, and no I don't want to take your boyfriend with me Kenda, I need to be alone." I yelled at the three sympathetic people in the room. They were obviously shocked by what I had just screamed in their faces, and I was panting from my rant, as I realized, "Wait, Kenda, did you say that out loud?"

"No, I was just going to ask." Kenda said, definitely as confused as I was.

"Dammit. I guess that my power has grown; now it just reminds me of him." I picked up one of Kendas vases and threw it at the wall. It shattered, and not feeling any better I put it back together and stormed out of the room. I walked past the living room where Cielo was sitting. He stood up to walk to where I was.

"Please, Cielo, just leave me alone. I know that you mean well, but I just can't handle being around other people. When anyone asks I'm going to go driving." I said all of this over my shoulder, knowing that everyone would be able to hear it anyway.


Authors Note: In case none of you noticed I did add another character, and he controls weather; like wind, and storms and stuff. He is romantically involved with Kenda, but not to the point where they share a room. He's a new vampire and has only just joined their coven.

I also know that this is a relatively short chapter. Please review. I'll update every week, but If I get a certain number of reviews I'll update sooner.

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