The Life of a Liar

Early Author's Notes: Hello everyone! I'm back with another chapter. I'm really surprised that I'm writing the third chapter for this story. I honestly didn't believe that I would write the chapter this fast. Well, it's because of everyone's lovely reviews. So, I would like to thank apitatoor for their lovely reviews! So, apitatoor... all of your questions you have about the story will be answered slowly throughout the upcoming chapters so please bare with me! I would also want to thank childlikesmiles and Sakshi K for their amazing comments as well, I hope you guys are enjoying the story. But... I would love to thank all of you wonderful people for enjoying my story so far and I want to also thank those people for leaving their kind reviews as well. I hope this chapter is also very enjoyable for you guys. -ochibi-chan

Chapter 3: Juvia's Pain

Natsu smiled gently, but that smile had some malice behind it. The boy nodded, he acknowledged the words that had Juvia said. He reached out towards the girl, Juvia looked into Natsu's eyes. Juvia's cold sad eyes met with Natsu's warm and calm ones. The boys eyes seemed to calm Juvia down.

"Of course Mermaid, let's go home."

Juvia reached out and gently took Natsu's hand, the boy reeled her in bringing her close, he gently placed a kiss on Juvia's forehead and gave her a long and loving hug. The man pulled away and began to walk towards the girls house.

The night was beautiful, yet it was sad. Juvia was taking long deep and shaky breaths. The girls heart ached, it was hard to explain, she just felt used, dirty and worthless. Juvia didn't know what to do. The thing was, Juvia couldn't let her guard down, because if she did, her imagination would run wild.

Juvia accidentally let her guard down, all she could imagine was Gray on top of Lucy, kissing and feeling up her body. Juvia's thoughts were vivid and clear. The fact that she could imagine it so clearly scared her.

Those thoughts played on and on in her head and it made her terribly sad. Those thoughts didn't seem to go away no matter how hard she tried. Juvia couldn't take it anymore, she couldn't handle it any longer, those thoughts were too much for her. The girl let go of Natsu's hand fell down onto her knees, she began to cry. Juvia brought her hands up to her ears and covered them, gripping on to them, her nails dug into her skin and she let an ear wrenching scream. Her breath became fast and short. Juvia's vision blurred and her head began to hurt a little bit from all the crying.

Natsu felt Juvia let go of his hand, the boy turned around he saw the girl fall to her knees and he heard her scream. Seeing the girl like this shattered his heart. Natsu couldn't believe it, for the first time ever, the boy saw the girl and instead of seeing a happy, strong, gentle and beautiful girl, he saw a girl who has been defeated and broken... a shattered mind and soul. Natsu fell to his knees as well and tears streamed down his face.

"Juvia, calm down. Please, it's okay... everything will be okay."

"Natsu... it hurts, it hurts so much. I can imagine him touching her, kissing her and enjoying her body."

Natsu's eyes widened and he hugged her but this time it was gentle. The boy looked at the girl, he looked right into her eyes, which were completely red from crying... her breath pattern remained fast.

"Juvia, take slow and deep breaths... it will calm you down."

Juvia nodded and tried to calm herself down. Her muscles that were once tense and bunched up were now loose and relaxed. She took Natsu's advice and she looked at the boy.

"Thank you Natsu, I-"

"No more words Mermaid, let's just get you home. You need to rest. It'll help, trust me."

Once again Juvia nodded and she wiped away Natsu's tears. Those words that Natsu spoke were told to Juvia so it could help her feel better. Yet, the girl felt numb... Juvia was getting desperate, she wanted release. She didn't want to feel her throat being clenched any longer, she wanted to breathe. Just one simple breath, she was tired of that feeling, she just wanted to breathe with ease.

Natsu got up and helped his best friend to her feet, the boy flashed a comforting smile. He began to walk to Juvia's house and the girl walked beside him. Once again, the moon and stars were Juvia's witness; she looked up at Natsu and the girl was shocked. She felt nothing. Usually when Juvia would look at Natsu, she would feel something... happiness and or comfort, but right now she felt absolutely nothing. Juvia was terrified on how numb she became... it was more of an inner panic, she didn't know how to explain it.

"Juvia, you okay?"

"Yeah."

Lies.

"You sure?"

"Yeah, I'm sure."

Lies.

A few moments later, the both of them reached the girls house. Natsu walked Juvia to her door and gave her a tight hug.

"I'm gonna go home now. You and I need to relax after what happened tonight. Please... text me or better yet, call me if you need anything."

Juvia didn't say anything this time, she just nodded and opened the door.

"Goodnight Mermaid."

"Goodnight Fireman."

Juvia walked into her house and closed the door behind her. Natsu had left and Juvia sat down on the stairs. She just sat there, her thoughts once again ran free. Her thoughts about Gray and Lucy flew in her mind; like a bird soaring though the sky, with no care and complete freedom. She hated this, everything was so confusing to her. She needed to do something... anything. Juvia was desperate so, what she did after was an act out of desperation. The girl walked into the bathroom. She blocked the drain to the tub and turned on the hot water.

As she waited for the water to fill the tub, she decided to try to cheer herself up. The girl took off all her clothes and stood in front of the mirror naked. She looked at herself and took a deep breath.

"I'm beautiful."

Lies.

"I am strong."

Lies...!

"I matter."

Lies!

"I can get through this!"

LIES!

The girls eyes widened, those words that were suppose to help did nothing. Instead, she just thought those statements were false. She was nothing, she didn't matter at all. Juvia walked over towards her bath and turned off the faucet. She got into the tub and just looked into the water, the girl felt nothing. So, the desperation got the best of her. Juvia picked up her Venus razor blade, she ripped out one of the small blades, she brought it up to her wrists and she pierced her skin.

The blood ran down her wrists and into the water. She cut her skin about two more times. The crimson liquid dripped into the bath water. Juvia's eyes rolled to the back of her head. This time, Juvia could feel something and that was a sense of burning agony.

Red, it's the colour that flows within us. It represents the elegance around us. However, it also reminds us of anger and fury. It represents the bonds we create. It's like their fingertips trail over a sentence that has no words because the elegance and anger is just enough to suffice a person's need for anger. It is the colour you look for in someone's eyes, it shows desire and Juvia's desire was the sense of burning agony.

Author's Note: How was this guys? Did you enjoy this chapter? I hope it was a good chapter. I really don't know what to say. Oh, just to let you guys know, the next chapter is going to be a side story. It will have nothing to do with the story. It will be a personal side story. It will give you guys a better grasp on the story! I'll see you guys in the next chapter. -ochibi-chan