Sorry for not updating sooner. Just had really bad writers block for this story and plsu school started and all the clubs, so yeah. Also sorry for the short chapter. Tomorrow after school i will be finishing the next chapter and also the one after that then uploading them. And if I don't you have to right to come and punch me in the face.
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Why me? Why the person I love had to die right before I told him how I felt about him? Why? I loved Carlos so much and not my life is shit. I can't live without him. I just didn't know what to do. I wanted what Kendall and James had since they started going out. I wanted to be with Carlos till be were old together. Together forever. But now we can't. My life was over. I had nothing to live for. I wish I never told him to come over and just waited to tell him when we got to school on Monday. Or just hung out today. It was all my fault Carlos was died.
I sat there, in the corner of the living room with my knees to my chest, crying my eyes out. Kendall and James were there also, crying as well. "It's all my fault…" I said in a hushed tone. I didn't want to be here anymore. I wanted to be with Carlos. I know it sounds bad but what would you do? Just move on? I didn't know what was going to happen but I just needed to drown out my thoughts, so I grabbed my IPod and played the first song.
So don't fall in love, there's just too much to lose
If given the choice, then, I'm begging you, choose
To walk away, walk away, don't let her get you.
I can't bear to see the same happen to you.
Now son…
I took out my headphones and through it across the house. That song just made me feel worse. Kendall and James were looking at me weird. They looked so bad, eyes are red and puffy. I've never seen them like this. I bet I look horrible but you think I really give a shit?
"You ok?" Kendall said moving to sit next to me on the floor. I turn to look at him. His eyes looked so off. They weren't that emerald green color I normally saw; they were so black and full of pain.
"Kendall. That's kind of a really stupid question." I turned back to look at the floor.
"I'm going to go lay down. I have a major headache and I don't want to deal with anything. You guys can stay and use the guest bedroom if you want. You both look tired."
My parents left for work so it was just us three. I mom went to stop my Carlos'… I mean Mrs. Garcia's house to say how sorry she was about everything.
I got up and headed for my room when I was stopped by Kendall who gave me a big hug. "It may hurt now but things will be better Logan. Carlos wouldn't want you to be like this." I started to cry on his shoulder.
"I know but it' so hard Kendall. I loved him so much and he will never hear me say it to him. We will never be able to grow old together. Nothing."
James came over and hug me also. I looked up at the both of them. "Always be there for each other and love one another. You don't ever know when you will lose one another. " With that said I continued walking to my room.
What you think? I could not think of how i would type the next part so i just stopped and started the next chapter so :).
Also I have mad writers block for my other story so if you read that one also, I'm sorry.
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