WARNING...this chapter has self torcher in it ...
Stupid creature they should hand it to the police or dump it at a hospital but their acting like it with their stupid behaviour and I touched its stuff too now I am contaminated I shall have to cleanse myself ' Silas thought as he stormed upstairs to his small room that was on the top floor of the building
Silas went into his room and sat on the bed and removed his sandles then stood up and lifted his robe up to look at his thigh and winced a little at the sight of it where the Cilice was cutting into his soft pale flesh
' Pain is good Jesus sufferd more than you are your pain is for him ' Silas said to himself as he took the Cilice off for a bit and almost took half his skin off too and he reopened some scabbed over scars causing blood to run down his leg and the pain was horrendous but he didn't care he loved the pain so he then took some icy cold water from a sink in his room and gave the bloody scars a wash and dabbed his leg dry with a towel before putting the belt back on again and doing it up even tighter silently screaming as pain tore through his body but he was wasn't finished
Silas then slipped naked talking off his robe and throwing it to the floor and what he did next was just horrific first he took his rosary beads and kissed the cross then blessed himself and looked at a cross on his wall praying to it then he took a whip and started whipping himself almost collapsing in pain and his pale back was covered in scars as he whipped himself a lot and he enjoyed the pain and a couple of times he'd even whipped himself to when he collapsed in a pool of blood
Silas flogged himself a few times before collapsing on a straw mat and waited for the pain to pass and praying too before getting up again and putting on his robe and sitting on his bed again
Even though Silas had a bed he prefared to sleep on the mat and mostly sat on the bed
As Silas sat on his bed reading his bible he heard feet coming up the stairs and the bishop's voice yelling ' Silas have you a minute to spare'
' yes come in father ' Silas said looking up as he seen the bishop and to his shock he carried the crib part of the pram with Maria inside as she was now sleep
' What is that doing here I don't want it near me ' Said Silas I'm shock
' Well I have to go out for just now and only people here is yourself and father Merry and he is elderly and a little forgetful so I thought I'd leave Maria with you for a while don't worry I'll be back oh and Silas you have some. blood on your floor ' The Bishop Said looking at a bloody puddle where Silas had flogged himself
Truth was the crafty Bishop and the other man didn't like the way Silas was acting with the baby so hatched a plan forcing Silas to babysit
' But no you can't go I don't know anything about babies ' Silas said panicking as the bishop left his room and headed down stairs
' Dear lord help me ' Silas said glancing over at the carrycot and decided to tidy his room a little
As Silas room was small and very basic he'd taken a vow of poverty so had no possessions really it didn't take long for him to clean up but as he did so he heard crying coming from Maria
' Father father ' Yelled Silas going out into the landing and shouting over the banister hoping he'd come and take care of the baby but everyone was out apart from the very old priest and he was not any help and was deaf too so Silas was on his own
' Oh be quiet will you stop crying ' Said Silas glaring at the baby who looked at him and gave a whimper but stopped somehow so Silas decoded to meditate in prayer for a while hoping the bishop would be back soon but he's been only partying for like 5 minuets when he almost jumped in 10 feet in the air as a ear splitting howl was heard Maria crying again
Quickly Silas blessed himself and got up muttering to himself and looked at Maria who was still crying it was clear she was not a happy baby
' what is wrong with you why won't you stop crying be quiet will you ' Silas said as Maria babbled a little and blew a bubble which Silas found gross
Silas sighed as he sat back down on the bed wishing he knew how to stop the baby from crying Truth was he wanted to throw her out the window but he would never do that and Bishop Aringarosa would throw him out the church and he'd end up back in jail again and also where was the bishop anyway he was so good with babies it seemed as he was used to them but not Silas
Silas couldn't stand children or babies and he hated all women too he still blamed women for the Adam and Eve carry on saying women were evil and would lead men astray and also he despised the idea of the Mary Magdalene theory being married to Jesus Silas was old school religious and the other reason he hated children he was secretly jealous of them as his childhood was non excistent really
From the moment he was old enough to remember his childhood was hell Silas was born in Spain near the French Spanish border and his family were poor and he was born albino he was a good looking boy pale soft skin also he had his hair longish to his collar Snow White and silky soft and his mom thought he looked like an angel but his father said he was a ghost and said that Silas not his real name was not his son his wife had cheated on him and abused his wife and son
Silas recalled the times he'd be hiding in his room in fear crying and covering up his ears against the shouting and cursing and one day at the dinner table when Silas was in his early teens all hell broke loose their was screaming and shouting his father abusing his mother the table was overturned food went everywhere and his father tried to hit Silas with a pot but his mom got in the way pushing the boy to the side and got hit instead sending her flying and she struck her head on a worktop killing her and Silas lost it he fought with his father who tried to strangle him so Silas picked up a knife and stabbed him before running away and living on the streets where he had to really toughen up as life wasn't easy
Sadly Silas was bullied on the streets and got into a lot of fights and he even killed a few people too a girl who tried to steal his food and made fun of him and some sailors he got into a fight with so in the end he ended up in prison for a few years and their was a bad earthquake and the prison was destroyed and though badly injured Silas escaped and a young priest father Aringarosa found him and nursed him back to health and kinda adopted him as a son and the pair became close Silas seen him as a father figure and he never made fun of him he only showed kindness and he he named him Silas after a person in the bible and so Silas found religion and it brought him great comfort so he devoted himself to that and tried to become a better person and as he couldn't even remember his birthday he celebrated his birthday in the day the priest found him as that was his rebirth he felt
sell that's that chappy done more to come
