Jasper felt my glum mood so he suggested we have a chess tournament. I loved playing chess with the Cullens even though I lose almost every single time. My first opponent was Emmett. Easy victory. Emmett couldn't think, he always made the most obvious move.
"Aw come on! Rematch!" He complained.
"No way Emmett! You had your turn. I get to play with Bella now." Alice cut in. I lost right away because she could foresee the moves I would make next. After the rest of the family played each other, Edward and Alice were the last ones standing. Watching them play definitely got me out of my gloomy mood. It was downright hilarious and in the end, Alice took the win.
"That was so not fair!" said Edward, "You were blocking me out by repeating the ABCs in German!" I laughed, then yawned.
"Edward, you better put Bella to sleep. Its her last night being human." Rosalie said as she looked at me scornfully.
"Roseā¦" Emmett said.
"Are you sure you're making the right decision Bella? You want to throw your whole life completely out the window? Do you really want to become a disgusting blood-sucking monster?!" She practically screamed.
"Rose!" Emmett, Carlisle, and Esme all yelled at once.
"Bella, you look tired dear. Its best that you get a good night's sleep." Esme said.
Edward carried me upstairs and tucked me in under the covers. He laid on top to make sure I wouldn't freeze myself. My eyes started to well up again thinking that from tomorrow on, I would never be myself again.
"Edward." I whispered. Hopefully he wouldn't be able to hear the tears in my voice.
"What's wrong Bella? Why are you crying?" He would never be fooled.
"I'm afraid that I won't be the same. That I'll be this uncontrollable vampire thirsting for blood and I won't be Bella anymore. That I won't be your Bella."
"Oh love! You'll always be my Bella. Every newborn is that way. You'll still be the same inside and the thirst will wear off. Didn't I promise?" He said, stroking my hair. "But if you're not sure of your decision we could always wait."
"Not a chance." I quickly answered.
He chuckled and tilted my face up and lightly kissed me. I threw myself into the kiss a little too enthusiastically. His lips went taut and he looked at me disapprovingly. "In three days we'll be able to do anything. So you should go to sleep." He started humming my lullaby.
I remembered a week back when we had shared that memorable night together. We had become one and I'll never forget it, even if all I can think about is blood. And I couldn't wait to become a vampire and it would be safe for anything. My eyelids became heavy with sleep and soon, I drifted into a fitful sleep.
In my dream, a girl had just woken up. There was something taunting the girl that neither I, nor the girl knew what it was. Somehow she was suddenly outside, people everywhere around her. Every time a different person walked by her a new flavor tempted her to jump them. She took a young girl and ran to a nearby bench near a pond. As she sunk her teeth into the girl's neck she caught a look at her reflection in the pond. It was my face looking back. I woke up screaming.
"Bella! What is it? Did you have a bad dream?" Edward asked, worried.
"Yes. What time is it?" I asked.
"4:29," he answered. "You should go back to sleep. Its still really early."
"No," I said defiantly, looking straight into is golden eyes. "I'm ready."
"Now? Why now Bella? You could at least wait until morning. Tomorrow even. A year?" He said hopefully.
"Now." He sighed, picked me up, and ran me downstairs. Carlisle and Esme were sitting on the couch, hands intertwined.
"Good morning Edward, Bella? Why up so early?" Carlisle asked.
"I'm ready Carlisle." I said, and he nodded.
"Wherever you're comfortable." I sat down on the couch. Esme gently pushed my shoulders down so I was lying.
"Are you sure Bella? This is your final decision?" Edward asked. Carlisle gave me some morphine to try and lessen the pain.
"Yes. Please. I want to get it over with as quickly as possible." He bent down for one last kiss with me as a human. It was very sweet. Then, slowly, very slowly, Edward began to tilt his head toward my neck. I didn't feel anything until the sharp pain running through my veins. It was like my body was on fire, internally.
I writhed everywhere but Carlisle and Esme held me down. Eventually, the screaming started and I couldn't concentrate on anything except pain.
"Bella, I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry." Edward said. He looked like he was in just as much pain as I was. I could vaguely see Rosalie looking disapprovingly at me and distinctly hearing my new family saying things to me.
"Everything-okay." Esme.
"Hurts-three days." Carlisle.
"Don't worry-be so much fun after!" Alice
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"Told you." Rosalie.
"Screams-my ears hurt!" Emmett.
"Be-easier now." Jasper.
But it was the angel's voice, when he started soothing me, stroking my hair, that I could swear, the stinging lessened.
This doesn't feel like a good ending to a chapter, but I didn't know what else to write about. I hoped you guys liked it and please review it. You'll make me so very happy!
