Running away from Jake Martin was probably not the brightest idea; he probably thinks I am a nutcase. I am such a coward. I was so sure he wanted nothing to do with me… now he's probably terrified to be around me. I assaulted him. I assaulted Jake Martin.
He was so sweet and nervous but now he is probably traumatized because I attacked him with my lips. Maybe he will pretend that I didn't do anything and we will both just avoid each other for the rest of senior year.
Even though I know he is probably mortified because of me, I can't help but feel pleasure in my act of aggression. For one small moment the world stopped and I kissed the guy I liked. For one beautiful second it seemed like he liked me too. But my insecurities made present and I ruined everything.
… I should go to him. He sought me out at lunch today so I should go to him and try to apologize at least. Jake Martin is such a nice guy, he would appreciate the sentiment. That's I remind myself when I'm standing in front of his door. The door of the Edwards-Martin home.
I realize what a big mistake I made when Clare answers the door. She seems so surprised to see me but that quickly becomes a look of suspicion. "Imogen. What are you doing here?"
I hate myself so much. But I cannot back down. "Hello, Clare Edwards. I was wondering is your stepbrother was home?"
I don't trust myself to say his name out loud. Clare is confused but nods. I open my mouth to say something but Jake appears at the door. "Hey Imogen, I was wondering when you were going to get here."
I am so shocked. Jake Martin was expecting me and instead of looking embarrassed to see me… he is grinning. He is so sexy when he grins.
"I, um, yeah. I'm here." I reply pathetically. He grins wider and moves aside to let me in. Clare shakes her head and disappears somewhere in the house. Jake grabs my hand and drags me to his room. My heart is absolutely frantic with excitement and wonder.
"I wasn't sure you were going to find me but I'm really glad you did." Jake tells me as he sits on his bed. I lean against his closed door and stare at him in puzzlement.
"How'd you know I was even going to seek you out, Jake Martin?"
He just grins. "You like me."
My heart drops and I become defensive. "And why would I like someone like you?"
Jake just shakes his head and stands up. He is still grinning as he walks toward me. I am paralyzed and confused.
"Because you're special, Imogen Moreno." He whispers as he stands before me. I stop breathing and close my eyes when his hand caresses my cheek. "You are different from the other girls at Degrassi. I see you lost in your own head most of the time and I can't help but wonder what you are thinking. I read all of your tumblr posts, tweets and facerange updates. I'm crazy about you, Immy."
I feel like heart has burst with joy. I don't want to open my eyes but I need to make sure this is real. It is. Jake Martin standing in front of me with my face in his hands… and my heart. He kisses me this time.
I thought romance was hopeless when it came to me but Jake Martin proved me wrong. He helped me realize that I am not alone and being unique is what makes me special. Jake Martin teaches me how to trust people again and to embrace my "weirdness". He loves me for me and decides to follow me to NYU after graduation.
