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Decisions

BPOV

We sat there on the rocks, silent, as the sky grew darker, I could feel the wind blowing my hair around my face, pushing spray off the waves towards us, but i didn't feel the cold. Once again my knight in shining armour was protecting me, his strong bronzed arms keeping me nice and warm and safe.

I thought about all that he had done for me, if it wasn't for Jacob I could very well still be a zombie right now, useless to everyone, including myself.

I contemplated the last few months, yes, the pain and heartbreak was still there, but now it was in the background, just a quiet ache, sometimes I completely forgot about it, until something caught me by surprise, like yesterday.

I was in the library, waiting to check out my books, I was standing at the counter and the phone was ringing, Mrs Allen, the librarian went over to pick it up, calling to the young assistant,

"Edward, can you help Bella with her books please, while I grab this call"

I had froze on the spot, unable to answer the young man standing in front of me,

"Miss?" he asked, looking concerned,

"Uh, thanks" I mumbled as i grabbed my books and ran out the door, nearly hyperventilating with grief as i jumped in my truck.

But times like that were getting fewer and farther between, Thankfully.

And it was mainly thanks to my best friend sitting beside me keeping me warm.

My Jacob. He was my sun, always shining, warming me, protecting me, saving me.

At first it was purely selfish reasons that drove me to visit him daily, he made me forget about Edward and the gaping hole that he had left in my chest were my heart should have been. But i found I loved being with him for other reasons, he made me laugh,and reminded me that i was human. He was infinitely patient and he could tell when i was having a bad day and went out of his way to ease my suffering.

When he disappeared from my life for a week I realised how much i had come to rely on him, and there was no way I was going to lose him too. I know this sounds selfish, but i knew he felt the same way about me, actually I think he feels a lot stronger feelings than me, so when he refused to see me, I knew something must have been seriously wrong.

So, to cut a long story short, I confronted him, after much arguing and contemplation, I found out he was a werewolf. I'm sure most people would run for the hills at such a thought, but not me, my first thought was

"My poor Jacob, what can i do for him"

It was my turn then to comfort him through his hard times.

That was two weeks ago, and if anything it had bonded us together more. Any time i wasn't at school I was with Jacob. He brought out a new side of me, the adventurous Bella. He has taught me to ride motorcycles, taken me hiking through he forest near his home (something i thought i would never do) and we had just been cliff diving.

It was probably very reckless of me, considering how coordinately challenged i was, but with Jacob by my side I always felt safe. He never rushed me and he always picked me up when i fell, emotionally and physically, and basically followed up with a smart alec response about my ineptitude.

I knew how he felt about me, he'd never said it out loud, but I could see it in his eyes and feel it through his skin when he held my hand, I'd never encouraged him and he had never pushed, he knew i was still in pain.

But sitting here now, with him, I wondered,

"why fight it?"

I wasn't sure if it was the adrenaline still pumping through my veins or the fact we were sitting here arms wrapped around each other like there was no one else in the world, bt all of a sudden i made a decision.

"Jacob?" I said, my voice barely louder than a whisper,

He opened his eyes and looked down at me,

"you ready to go home?" He asked, making movements to get up,

"Shhhhh" I said, putting my finger against his warm lips. I wanted to do this before he said something that would make me change my mind.

I lent in, I could smell the salt on his skin from our swim. I gingerly pressed my lips against his, they tasted salty too, I lingered a second, to gauge his reaction, seeing if he wanted this,

I needn't have worried.

I brought my hand up to grasp the back of his neck, this seemed to break him out of his stupor. His hands reached up and he placed them gently on either side of my face, pulling my lips harder against his. He was forceful, but still gentle, kissing me back like there was no tomorrow.

It took my breath away.

I pulled away, breathing heavily, and looked into his deep brown eyes, they were alive with happiness and emotion.

"I can't imagine where I'd be without you Jake" I said trying to put into words the way i felt about him.

I leaned in again and kissed him, and all the pain and heartache i had felt in the last few months jus loated away, replaced with happiness and hope.

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