Sesshomarus eyes had finally flashed from red back to their normal amber color and he realized what he had done as your body laid there. Still and cold, did I kill her? Was the only thought that ran threw his mind until he saw you breath. He pulled out of you and pulled you into his chest. And kissed your forehead, regretting for the first time harming someone. The blackness finally cleared and you found peace in sleep.
Sesshomaru pov
you felt her shaking, her small body pressed against your for warmth. you held her tightly, as this unknown emotion took over you. it was warm and slowly over took your body, as your mind continue to regret what took place earlier. At that moment you decided you would make it up to her when she woke. you would make her understand you lost control, you the fell asleep.
End
You awoke to strong arms wrapped around you and your face pressed against someone's bare chest. You slowly lifted your face to see a sleeping lord sesshomaru. confusion quickly engulfed your mind but before you could move your lips to speak everything that happened last night came back to you. You tried to break free from his hold, which woke him up. He let go of you as you continued to pull from him. Which caused you to fall off the bed and hit the floor. You look down at your body and quickly covered your naked flesh. He wrapped the sheet around his lower half and went to get you. But with every step he took towards you, you backed up with fear in your eyes. He quickly got tired grabbed your arms and held you close to him. looking deep in your eyes he said "I'm sorry" two words you have never heard him say nor ever thought you would in the eight months you've known him. He told you to sit and processed to tell you what happens when a demon is in heat. You soaked it all in still angry, hurt and confused. After a moment of silence he said you should bath. You tried to stand but a pain consumed your lower half and you fell to the floor. he picked you up and carried you to the river. when there he gently lowered you into the warm water and started to bath you. You closed your eyes not wanting him there but knowing you would not be able to do it without him. When he was done he allowed you to rest as he cleaned his self. Then he carried you back to the castle. He spent the whole day taken care of you, you tried to get some sleep but couldn't. Every time you closed your eyes you relived that horrible night. He went into your room and searched all around until he found it. You looked up at him as he walked to the edge of his bed and sat. Waiting for him to say something, but he simply handed you your bear. He looked at you as you held on to it tightly. "why do you care so much about this thing?" You answered " it was a gift from my mother, made with love. When I hold on it its like holding her. Sometimes if I close my eyes I can smell her cherry blossom scent.". He nodded and removed a strand of hair from your eye. The week passed and he stayed by your side. Asking you question trying his best to ease your mind. At night when you slept he held you in his arms and ran his finger over your mate mark. As the thought, she is mines forever ran through his mind. A month passed and you were fully healed. Although he still handled you gently you were able to talk him into letting you bath and dress your self. You walked into the water and sat looking at your reflection as you cupped water and poured it on yourself. You looked closer and saw something on your neck you rubbed it hard trying to remove it. But noticed that it was still there, you panicked. Grabbed your black kimono and ran to the castle, Straight to lord sesshomaru and demanded to know what it meant. he coldly stated that you are my mate and walked away leaven you there wet and baffled. You walked to the room and sat on the bed to comb your hair. As you combed your hair you heard him walk in and sit on the bed. You put it in a messy bun and turned to face him. although he seemed nice to you his face was still cold as ice, not allowing an emotion to show. he pulled you close and kiss you, but it was soft and loving. You slowly closed your eyes and took it all in, ashamed but unwilling to stop it. what am I doing, you thought as you finally pulled away. He looked you and reached for something behind him. It was golden hair chopsticks with a little bear dangling from the end. you looked at it and let your hair down. He grabbed your hair using the chopsticks to make a loose bun, followed by your mothers comb to hold the loose hairs in. you couldn't help but smile, this was the nicest thing he has ever done. At that moment you heard a knock at the door and it slowly open...
