The Reason for Regret.

By;Par: Jane, Kat

NO it's not CLOUD SO HA! And gratz to those of you who guessed who the other observer was. He was an easy one to pick . . . although this is one of those songs that maybe over done for this character, I just couldn't resist, it fits him very well.

XOXOXOXOX

He'd been puzzling over since the first night when Zidane had done it. The words and emotions behind the love song stirring an almost memory in the Paladin's mind. He wanted to go home, but, at the same time, he did not . . . could not leave yet. He could never leave his brother in this broken place, but that did not stop him from yearning for-

Again his mind went blank just before her name, but as always the image stayed to haunt him. A Woman whose full figure was hidden under the white mage robes she wore. Her blonde hair done up in a bun on her head so that it would stay in place under her hood. A simple woman with simple pleasures and kind forgiving eyes, even when he did not deserve her forgiveness.

She was not a Princess like the girl the thief was fighting to go back to, nor was she a tried and true hero like the woman Tidus had hinted to Cloud that he'd give, and actually had given his own existence up for . . . with no regrets.

He paused on that word. Felt it echo through his soul.

Regret was a word that Cecil felt he lived and breathed. Most that he could not remember but felt every time he drew on the power of darkness. Almost without his notice the words fell softly from his lips, drawing the attention of the ones gathered around him. Terra and the little knight sitting beside her, the Warrior of Light, Bartz and his usual victim of mischief Squall.

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do

The fact that he had yet to sway his brother. That trusting his brother and trying to save him from the darkness often got his comrades in trouble. Slaying people with the power of darkness for his king and the destruction of the Village of Summoners always weighed in heavily. Failing to protect Rydia from the Leviathan even though she had been return to him, older and wiser, losing Parom and Palom was a regret he would never forgive himself for. Kain . . . so many, many regrets tied up in Kain.

But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

A simple woman, with the determination to stow away aboard a spaceship against his wishes because she knew he needed her. As he always did and had. He needed her kindness, her healing magic and her council to see him through to the end. To save all that they could for those they had lost along the way.

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day

And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

Her worry, her fear and her pain when he wasn't fast enough to shield her. Finding her nearly dead in their home village, because she had made herself sick worrying about him and the rumours the soldiers told about his deeds and more often than not his misdeeds. Her happiness at simply seeing him again after so long apart.

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

Letting his mirror image injure him to the point of death because he was sick, nearly to death of killing, and the look of pain it put on her face. Finally earning the light of a paladin and stumbling broken and bleeding, outside where she could heal him properly. Her healing magic filling him up with warmth, and mending all that was wrong in him and with him. Her sternness as she taught him as much white magic as his body could handle after all the darkness that had coursed through it.

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

HIS woman in a simple yet elegant white dress, a gold circlet on her head as she looked up at him from her paper work. No longer a simple woman but a QUEEN because she refused to leave his side. Standing awkwardly and . . . waddling towards him, arms holding her protruding belly up to give her back a break. Smiling that same warm smile as she teased him that his child was being a horrible brat and kicking her, keeping her awake in the middle of the night. His arms going around them both, nightmares chased away by the feel and weight of them in his arms as he dragged her back to their bed.

Eyes suspiciously shiny he smiled at his fellow warriors as her name finally fell from his lips. "Rosa . . ."

XOXOXOX

Woot short and sweet but wimpy like the man himself. . . and fluffy because they have the ONLY stable relationship in the whole franchise. Ahhh wow . . . this is what happens when they give me days off in a row. I post things. Ahh well. Have a good afternoon everyone I have to go shopping now . . . poor me I hate shopping (no I'm not kidding I really do unless it's for books.)

yes these first ones are short but they do get longer as i go and at least 2 of them are are 2 part story. though the next one i never played so it's a little short. i've watched parts of it played and have gotten through some of it but it was a LONG time ago so please for give me.