Was I the only one:

CHAPTER 3:

I'm not sure how long I was in my room but after awhile I heard voices coming form down stairs I went to the door and put my ear to it but I only heard bits and pieces what was being

said, it was Dimitri and Adrian talking about me I think or about what I had done. Then I remember what I had done to the whole house, and I felt the pain in my hands so I looked down

at my hands and saw they were all cut up and bleeding very badly. I thought about what I should do I could go down there and let Adrian heal me or I could go to Lissa and ask her but I

haven't really spoke to her in a while she might be mad at me, well I could always go to the hospital in the Royal court. I didn't not like any of these ideas but I had to pick one because my

hands were killing me, I took a deep breath and opened the door to heard the voices stop talking all together and then I walked down the hall way to the stairs to see that both Dimitri

and Adrian were standing at the bottom and when they saw me they both took a step forward I raised my hand to them and said, "I'm fine, don't come any closer please." They stopped

and looked at each other and then back to me, I walked down the stairs and stood between them. I pushed threw and walked into the kitchen to wash off my hands and the minute the

water hit my hands I started to yell at the water, "Shit! Damn it freaking water what the hell?? Like really did u have to do that? God damn it!" After I finished I took a towel to dry my

hands off and that was worst then the water, I threw the towel across the room and I looked over to see Adrian and Dimitri looking at me like I was crazy, " What!? Why are you looking

at me like I'm nuts? I'm not crazy this shit just hurts that's all." I yelled holding up my hands so they could see just how bad they really were. "Roza, we need to get that taken care of

please let us help you." I shook my head and said, "He is not touching me I would rather die then let him heal me, but I really don't think I could die from this so don't worry Comrade I

think I will be fine I can deal with this." Dimitri looked at me with a look that clearly said Rose I'm not letting this go so stop fighting. I knew that look all to well I knew I would lose this

fight with Dimitri he would never just leave me like this no matter how much I told him I was fine, I took a deep and nodded at Dimitri and he knew that he had won because he took a

step closer to me and took my hands in his much larger ones and looked my hands over. He looked up at me then his eyes moved to face where Adrian stood on the other side of the

room, I knew he was asking me if I wanted Adrian to heal me or not again I just nodded yes because I really didn't want to have to go to the court hospital. Dimitri turned to Adrian, "

Come over here, she said that she would let you heal her but if I were you I wouldn't touch her longer then you have to because I don't know what she might do to you if you do." Adrian

looked over to me as to ask if Dimitri was right again I just nodded not trusting my voice anymore, because there was apart of me that still loved Adrian but that part was very, very small

but it was still there. But the hate had a much bigger spot in my heart and it was much stronger, Adrian wanted a minute before walking over to me as if he was thinking just how

dangerous this could be for him I could lose it any minute and attack him again. I looked over at where he still stood and said, "Adrian, are you going to help me or not? I promise not to kill

you, well not now at least can't really say what will happen later." I had a very grin on my face, one that didn't feel like my own. I could feel the darkness coming back into me again, "

Dimitri could you go next door and see what the hell Lissa is doing over there, because I can feel the darkness coming again and I don't know why. I need her to stop whatever it is that

she is doing over there or I am going to go crazy." He looked at me and then over to Adrian, " Adrian, come on let's go see what Lissa is doing." I walked over to Adrian and stood in front

of him, "No, I asked you to go Dimitri not Adrian so please just go and hurry back. I already promised I wouldn't kill him so go." Dimitri turned and all but ran out of the door, I backed away

from Adrian keeping the eye contact I had with him.

He looked away first and I stopped backing away, "Adrian look at me." I commanded him; he looked back up at me with sad eyes I felt a small pang in my heart but I would not let him

know that I still cared about him and that it killed me to see him hurting, but he was the cause of his own pain so there was nothing I was going to do to help ease his pain not when I

had my own to deal with as well and he was the cause of both of our pain. I took a step closer to him and looked right into his eyes, he went to put his head back down but I reached out

and pulled his face back up to keep the eye contact that we had. I need this eye contact I need to know what he was thinking, and why he would do something like this to us. We had

everything we ever wanted we were in love or so I thought awe had talked about having a family together because Adrian wanted one so badly, I hadn't minded the idea of a family with

the man that I loved but then he had to go a mess everything up. I looked into his eyes with both of my hands on the sides of his face he put his hands on top of mine and when I looked

over at my hands the were healed already, I looked at Adrian, " Adrian, how could you do this me? I just don't get it I keep thinking that maybe I am dreaming and that I will wake up any

minute and none of this will be real, but I know that it's not going to work out that way. I need you to make this right Adrian I need you, but I can't be with you any more why would you

do this to us? I thought you loved me Adrian, I believed you I trusted you when you said that you loved me and that you would never hurt me. We talked about having a family together,

so what would have happened if I had your baby would you have just left me? Adrian all I wanted was you, and you just ripped out my heart I have to know why!" By the time I was done

talking I was on the floor sobbing Adrian was sitting next to me, looking like he was ready to die. He took my hand in his and looked right at me, " Rose, I can't tell you why I did what I did

because I don't even know why myself. But Rose you have to know that I love you and I never meant for this to happen if there was some way I could go back and fix this I would Rose,

because you are my love and my life I need you like I need the air I breath you are my heart and soul without you I could not live. You keep my heart beating and you help me to live every

day, you are my reason to live. I am so sorry for what I have done to us Rose, there are no words that I could say that would make what I did ok and I know this. I know that you could

never love me again and I hate myself for what I have done, I lost the one person in the world who believed in me and made me be a better person. I've messed everything up and I lost

you and none of it was worth it she could never even compare to you my Little Dhampir no body ever could. As for us having a family and you thinking that I would or even could leave you

would never and I mean never happen, Rose I love you and I want you to be the mother of my children you are the only woman I want to be with and have a family with.."Everything he

had said made me want to cry even more because I believed him, but I couldn't nor wouldn't give into him.

He pulled me a little closer and took my face in both of his hands and looked

deep into my eyes, " My beautiful Rose, I can't stand to see the look of pain in your eyes and knowing that I am the cause of such pain is killing me, I wish there was a way that I could

take away all of your pain and hold it inside of myself because you do not deserve this kind of pain but I do. And if I could take it away I would, Rose I am so sorry I need you to believe me

please say that you believe that I never meant or wanted this to happen I love you so much and I cant figure out this happened in the first place. God Rose what have I done?" He let his

hands drop from my face and put his head in my lap and started to sob into my lap, I could hear him saying, "How could I have done this? Why would I have done something so dumb, I've

hurt her so badly now she will never love me, I've lost my Little Dhampir oh god please let her for give me. I need her so badly she doesn't even now how much I love her and now she will

never believe me, god what have I done? What have I done?" He was talking to him self but I could still hear him and it was killing me to see him beating himself up so badly, Adrian is the

kind of person that would never forgive him self if I didn't so I said the one thing that I knew would help calm his hurting heart and his pain, "Adrian, please don't cry shh it's ok please

stop I can't take seeing you like this. Shh Adrian please I do believe you that you never wanted this to happen I even believe that you are truly sorry for what you have done. Please

Adrian please stop crying." I said threw tears of my mine; I looked down at him curled up in my lap and I just couldn't take it, I pulled his face out of my lap and made him look at me,

"Adrian look at me now, I believe you Adrian ok I do believe you and I do forgive and I still love you, and I think that I always will but we can't be together any more. I don't think I could

take this again Adrian, it's killing me right now to see you like this but I am also feeling my own pain as well you are not the only person who lost something from this, I lost my best friend

my lover and my heart. I lost what I cared about most in this world; I lost you because you let some other woman take you away from me. Maybe it was my fault maybe I just wasn't good

enough for you, or maybe It had nothing to do with me but that's something I'll never get to know." He had stopped crying and looked at me with his beautiful green eyes, "None of this is

your fault Rose, it is mine and I know what I did and it wasn't because you were not good enough for me because you are way more then I ever deserve, it happened because I am weak

and only think about myself. I deserve this pain that I am feeling but you do not and I am truly sorry for everything my Little Dhampir god I am so sorry I love you so much Rose." I stayed

looking into his eyes as I moved closer to him resting my hand on his lap and using the other to pull myself into his lap. I brought my lips to his and I felt his body shiver and his lips were

very still on mine but after a few seconds he kissed me back very lightly as of he was scared that I would break or something. We stayed like this for and few minutes because I couldn't

bring my self to let him, I loved Adrian so much he means the world to me but I can't just let this happen and stay with him. The thought of what he had done pulled me out of this and I

pulled away from his lips but I still stayed very close that if he would have moved we would be kissing again. I whispered against his lips, "Good-bye Adrian, I will always love you, and you

will always be in my heart and soul." I stood up with tears in my eyes and my breaking; I saw the silent tears falling from Adrian's eyes too.

I turned around and saw Dimitri standing there with a very thoughtful expression I knew he could tell that my heart was breaking and I knew he wanted nothing more then to take the

pain away as much as Adrian wanted to. And I wanted nothing more then to run and throw myself into Dimitri's arms but I didn't I need to get threw this on my own. I looked over to

where Adrian was still sitting on the floor and back to Dimitri and he nodded knowing that I wanted him to help Adrian. I walked past him and back up the stairs to my room. I pulled out a

suitcase and walked over to the closet and started to pack my things, the whole time crying my eyes out this was my home and he was my life and now I am leaving both of them behind.

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