Disclaimer: See chapter 1 & 2

June 4, 2006

Dear Diary,

I think she knows.

Well, I mean, of course she knows; I asked her out years ago. But I think she knows more.

She knows I'm trying to be with her. I can feel it. She's been looking at me differently the past few days, and I can't put my finger on exactly what kind of 'looks' they are.

So, today, I came right out with it. I confronted her about the whole Grissom situation. I don't think it went well …

"Sara? Hello? You in there?" I ask, wondering if she's thinking about him. "Hmm? Yeah, I'm here. Just … analyzing evidence." She makes sure not to look in my eyes. And what evidence? We wrapped up the case hours ago? "Oh. It looked like you were thinking about something more … intimate." Nice going Greg, you've really done it! "And what exactly do you mean by 'intimate,' Greg Sanders?" She's shooting daggers at me with her eyes. "Never mind. Wait, no, do mind. I've been wanting to talk to you ever since your announcement the other day." I'm finding it hard to look at her now. Oh God, why did I have to start this? "If you have something to say, say it." She sits down on the break room table. "Alright, here goes." I take a deep breath and begin to speak. "When you told us that you and Grissom were a couple, I felt, well, I can't really explain how I felt, but it wasn't good. Anyway, for a few days now, I've been trying to work up the courage to say this. Now, you don't have to respond, but just, please Sara, listen to me. I, um, this is harder than I thought …" "Damn it Greg! Just say it!" "I love you, Sara." I look at her, then down at the floor. She looks like … I don't know. Like she wants to say something, but can't. She opens her mouth to speak, and I just know I'm gonna be shot down. "Greg, I'm sorry. I –" She's quickly cut off by Nick and Warrick entering. "Hey, hey! Greg, Sara. How was your case?" Nick seems pleased about something. Neither one of us answer him though. She looks deep in thought, again. I wish I knew what she was thinking.

So, I did it. I told Sara that I love her. For the rest of the day, she avoided me, like I'm the plague or something.

I want to know what she was going to say. Damn Nick and Warrick and their timing! Damn it all!

Now what do I do? I mean, should I explore the subject more, or should I drop it. Well, knowing Sara, she probably won't let me drop it until everything's out in the open.

And it will be; soon. Very soon.

XOXO

Greg