All characters belong to Stephanie Meyers I just play with them. My amazing beta did it again. Thanks blue eyed ducky. This chapter's song is "can't have you " by the jonas brothers/ "no body compares" by one direction.

Bpov (sophomore year)

Every night I laid in bed just listen to the world around me. My tears falling like the rain. Every time I close my eyes I replay Edward and Tanya together. Nature plays me its lullaby as I try to drift off to sleep. Maybe I really was just a rebound girl. I let myself fall for him. I feel stupid and immature for not seeing it.

Alice tried to get me to talk to Edward but I can't yet. My heart can't handle it. I can barely eat and when I do it's not much. My body feels like it's on autopilot; I wake up, shower, cry, get dressed, go to school, come home, study, cry, sleep, and repeat. I knew I had to move on I just didn't know how. School was agony. Every day I saw Edward. I also had to deal with Tanya and her friends.

The first week Edward called me every day. Eventually those stopped. I don't know if he just got tired of trying or Alice made him. I never answered and I didn't want to talk to him but when the calls stop it made everything that much more real. We weren't together and we'd never be together again. I know I'm the one that ended it but somewhere in my heart I hoped it all was a bad dream.

It's been two weeks since I broke up with Edward. I refuse to talk or even look at him. He's tried to explain but it's too fresh in my mind. How could he hurt me this way? I started eating lunch in library. A few times Alice and Rosalie ate with me. Today is Alice's party; her sweet sixteen at her house and I haven't decided if I can go. How can I face him or even go back to that house?

Rosalie suggested that I show Edward what he lost. She said she'd let me borrow a dress and even do my make-up. I don't know how to look beautiful when I don't feel beautiful right now. I sit here in my room freshly showered and shaved just thinking how a few weeks ago I was so happy and now I look like a ghost of my former self.

I couldn't let a guy keep me from my best friend's party even if it was her brother. After hours of torture that Rosalie called pampering I was dressed in a white and black one shoulder dress with a cut out above my butt. My hair was in loose waves down my back with very little make-up. The heels I was wearing made my legs look long and toned. I didn't recognize the girl in the mirror. She was tall and sexy, not short and average.

I walked into that party with confidence I had forgotten I had. I could feel all eyes on me as I went to find Alice. She was wearing a pink tulle dress with big flowers on the skirt with her sweet sixteen crown.

"Wow Bella, you look amazing."

"Thanks. This is a great party."

"I know. It's perfect. Edward's not here if you were wondering. He took Emmett out for his birthday. "

"I wasn't but thanks."

It was fun and for the first time in weeks I was laughing and smiling until I felt the familiar tingle.

Edward.

EPOV (senior year)

I tried to have fun at paintball but my thoughts were on Bella. They were always on Bella. I didn't know if she'd be at Alice's party but I prayed she would be. If all I could get was a glimpse of my lost angel I'd take it. When we got back from paintball I didn't see Bella's truck but Rosalie or Jessica could have given her a ride.

My dreams were crushed when I got inside and didn't see Bella. I saw all these scantily clad girls but no shy wallflower Bella until I noticed Bella was one of the scantily clad girls. Her hair was down instead of pulled back and gone were her converse replaced with fuck me pumps. She had curves I had never seen before. This was not my Bella but every guy's wet dream come true.

I hated how every guy in the room eyes were drawn to her. I knew a fucked up misunderstanding had made it so I didn't have a right to be jealous but I was. I wanted to try talking to her but I remember what Alice said about her needing time. Fuck time.

I needed to talk to her now. I saw Bella head towards the stairs so I followed her. When I got through the crowd and upstairs Bella was nowhere to be found. I knew she came upstairs. It was when I heard crying that I knew Bella was in the bathroom.

"Bella? Can you open the door for me?"

"Go away Edward."

"No. This might be the only chance I get to tell you what happened. "

"I saw what happened."

"No you didn't. Tanya was undressed when I came out of the bathroom. I didn't kiss her. She kissed me but I never kissed her. "

"You don't have to explain. We're over. You can go be with Tanya or whatever girl you want"

"No I can't. The only girl I want refuses to talk to me or even look at me."

"Oh please. Drop the lines Edward. We're done. You've moved on and so have I."

"Bella I can never move on without you. I was planning on telling you on Halloween that I was going to wait for you. I can't go to college knowing my heart is here with you alone."

"Edward, please don't."

"Bella, it's true."

She opens the door and I think this is it. She going to take me back but instead she said two words I'll never forget.

"Prove it."

Then, she was gone. That night after everyone went home; I sat down and started writing.

My Angel,

You said prove it so here it goes. The first day I saw you in the cafeteria I knew I had to have you. Everything about you called to me. When I realized you were Alice's best friend I freaked out. I knew I needed you in my life even if it meant pissing my baby sister off. You are beautiful and I don't just mean tonight. You have a spark that lights up a room. You're smart and funny and have the biggest heart in the world. I know a stupid misunderstanding tore us apart and I'd give anything to make us right again but if that's impossible then I just wish this; that you're happy with whoever you choose. I never got a chance to tell you this but I'm completely in love with you. I've never loved someone as much as I love you. You're perfect just the way you are. Don't change for anyone. This comes from my heart and soul. They both belong to you.

Love you always.

Edward.

I slipped the letter in her mailbox that night. For the first time in two weeks I slept through the night. I finally had told Bella that I loved her. I didn't know if she would want to see me ever again or if it would just make her extremely uncomfortable but at least I told her. I didn't need to hear the words back just knowing that Bella knows I love her was enough.

The next morning I woke up and felt lighter. I spent the morning cleaning my room trying to distract myself. I didn't know when Bella would get the letter or even if she would read it but it still made me nervous. That afternoon there was a knock on the door. I opened it to find Bella standing there.